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I feel bad dat I betrayed my mum she is not my birth mother but my uncle wife , the best woman who saved me 4rm my abusive mother , she took custody of me when I was 6 bcoz my mum was a drug addict sleeping around with men and she never cared about me, so it was my aunt who rescued me from her. She doesn’t have any children of her own but she had me and her stepson my uncle son from a previous relationship. She gave me the best life dat my own mother couldn’t give me and I alwyas respected her for that, my birth mum came back when I was 14 I didn’t like her bcoz she was controlling and manipulative she is always abusing my uncle wife bcoz she doesn’t have any children and she keep telling me not to respect my aunt , I used to tell her off and I keep avoiding her (my mum) but later she has succeeded in brainwashing me and turned me against my aunt. I hated my aunt , I started insulting her to the extend of slapping and calling her barren my aunt cried uncontrolled and curse me , I was 17 I didn’t really care about her anymore and before my uncle could get home , I packed my clothes and run away. I have been staying with my mum for the past 3 years , I have seen nothing good in her , she is not a good mother , she has 6 children but only 2 are staying with her ( my baby sister and I), she has abandoned my 4 brothers with their dads bcoz she doesn’t want male children , she she want me to be like her by sleeping with men , drinking and drugs because I have refuse dat lifestyles , we are quarrelling almost every day. I regrets leaving my family who loved me a lot just to be with her. I want to go back home to them and I have tried contacting my aunt to ask her to forgive me and she blocked me. I called my brother he said I should stop bothering him. I am scared to call my uncle bcoz the outcome will be worse. I am unhappy , tears has become my foods , I just hate my life , I hate my mum and I wants to die. Please how do I make my family to forgive me . Please help a sister. Thanks and sorry for the long post.