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Kindly overlook any error in this post, I'm not a good writer. I created this new account in order to remain anonymous. I've always stayed within the laws and never engaged in negative vices.
I don't smoke, drink alcohol, cheat, scam, steal, fight, keep bad company etc. I'm a responsible person but things are not going my way. People around me( far and near) are celebrating good things everyday but I've never celebrated anything since I was born. There is a big void inside me but people around me including my frds can not feel my pains. They think I'm OK because they often see me smiling but I'm dying slowly. I can't even think properly.
People come to me for advice and help but I'm the one that needs advice and help not them. I hide my problems behind my cute smiles. I hardly asked people for help ( I'm a shy person) and even if I summoned d courage to ask for help, nobody will assist me. They think I'm ok
Infact, I'm facing a lot that I can't discuss here. The current issue is my house rent. My landlord promised to evict me if I don't pay my house rent (2018) before next week. The man is adding to my problem. I would have ran away today ( where will I run to?) I'm not a coward.
After accessing all the options, the best option is to commit suicide. Life has been very unfair to me