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Hi everyone, My name's John.

I've been on incognito mode for months now but i just decided to register today so i could pour out my mind here.

I'm still a young chap of 20, since i left school to play football things has really been tough for me, the pressure from loved ones is really too much for me; not that i can't play but the connection is not there, no one to help.

Every morning when i wake up, the zeal to train is no longer there. It's just as if I've lost hope after 4 years of leaving my confort zone.

Last month i decided to start a street hustle but that one also is another frustration. Things are not just working, at age 20 I've really suffered.

The passion for football is still there but no encouragement. I just feel regret written all over me. It's 3:29am and i can't sleep, thinking hard about my life.

Who did i really offend, where did i go wrong, so many questions running through my mind. I'm just tired of this life, if not for hell fire i would have done the unthinkable.

No one in my family to talk to, everyday i smile but deep down inside of me I'm really hurting. I just came to nairaland to pour out my emotions maybe i will feel a little confort. Thank you for your time reading.