You have already taken that golden step. It doesn't matter how many times you fall but how many times did you stand up each time you fall. Stay positive. Don't look forwar to failure but look forward to that success ���� d Iamdbull:
I decided to open a new account to post this, as I am posting this am holding tears back because am inside a bus from Lagos back to my base in Ogun state.
The last thing I want in my life is to be a public figure because am a strong introvert and I hardly go out, I just want to be left alone.
Now during this festive period I travelled to my home state and on getting home, everyone was just talking about my old song and they were disturbing me to freestyle for them.
Deep down this started making me feel like am not following my purpose in life, I started having this feeling that on my dying bed I will live to regret that I didnt following my music career and thinking about the number of people my music could have put smile on their faces. I will never forgive myself, because what is life when you cant use your talent to be of service to humanity.
When I see younger artiste like Omah lay, Bella schmurda, etc I start feeling jealous and envious and the last thing I want is to be envious of another man's success.
Now even though everywhere was a lively mood and everywhere bubbling in the studio. On going home I started becoming depressed looking at the amount of money I spent on recording ( I really wanted the best so I decided to work with an expensive professional sound engineer that worked on Wizkid made in lagos album.
I can't tell anybody about what I did because I will be mocked at home for spending such an amount on my useless music career(as they will say at home). Tears is beginning to roll down my eyes as I write this but fortunately everywhere is dark.
I am panicking and feeling the song will be wack when it comes out and am a good for nothing person. I can't hold back tears in the bus.
Below is a picture of when I was invited by glo to come and perform but I bleeped it up because I was too shy to perform well in front of the crowd, Tuface, D'banj, don jazzy, Wizkid were all present
The reason why am writing this here is because nairaland is my only home. it's my only family. I love you all |
Family › Ask Me Your Mental Health Questions by Joy270(op): 6:17pm On Mar 28, 2022
