germaphobe:
DONE. even tho its lil i hope it helps. wish others would help you too.

thanks i really appreciate. thank you

Iescaped:
Hey Lostme,

There must be a way out of this.

Please try and perish the suicidal thoughts, you don't want wasted time, love, money, energy, hope, friends.. to ultimately become a wasted life. Do you?

Take this from one in same boat as you, a depressed soul cos of sport betting virtual. But I won't become a wasted life cos there must be a way out of this.

There's hope.

Currently checking if there are facilities in Nigeria into (sport betting) addiction treatment.

For the moment you could check bet blocker app to prevent further damage. Perhaps, it works for you.

Once again, there's hope!

THANKS

germaphobe:
you seem like someone with a good heart. trust me i know what you are going through as i have been there before but suicide ain't the answer. if you are still there kindly drop your account number let me drop a lil token for you. i hope and believe you will get out of this, and if you do stay out of betting for good. drop your details.

THANKS. 0092874654 union bank.

i couldn't go ahead with the suicidal act. met with my creditor on saturday morning, gave him the money i had with me, tried to reason with him but he was so hard on dealing with me. actually detained me for the whole day though no one laid a hand on me. he gave me two more weeks which will last till 15th of january. but now the problem is i would be starting work on 10th and its impossible to come up with 44k by then. but like someone said, i will keep hoping.

MY moms call kept coming as i was typing the last post, i'm not going to pick it or call back, i dont trust what might happen next if i do. already sent the 17k to the management of the bet house so probably they're going to put it down their lerger that a dead man owes them 44k. already cleaned the whole flat and rooms, still having doubts about this(cus its against my faith), but its my last option.

stay away from bets, dont even say you will take what you can afford cus that is how it starts.

hope people learn from my life and avoid the cool breez from hell.

cc: dominique puskin mynd44 fynestboi seun naijacutee
help move this to the front page to reach a better audience. bye......

out of 136k i've able to pay 75k and its remining 61k, if i should send them the 17k i have right now it will be down to 44k. but the thought of how i would be bundled up my the police or probably thugs with everyone looking out through their windows and how my parents would feel hearing the news is driving me crazy. the man who owns the shop had earlier on tuesday sent me a text trying to remind me of our date and how he wont go easy on me. i dont want to drag anybody down with me cus i know people will only used this opportunity mock my innocent parents who did their best to train me. i'm a disappointment i know, i'm stupid i know, and thats why i've decided to end it all. yes i managed to pay back half me the money but i know that man would want to sure off his political might with my case, i don't think i can stand the embarrasment and shame that my parents would face. so to the young ones out there, learn from my story and take the easy way, better to count your baby steps than taking high jumps

SINCE 27th oct that the incident happened, i've paying them back slowly every week, thereby not being able to save even a kobo, everyone keeps asking what is wrong with me but i wish i can tell them, i told my parents i had a project at hand that is taking all my money and time. but on the positive side this has made me draw closer to God(guess we mostly remember him when we are in need), and for the first time in my life i've neither placed a live bet nor virtual bet for two months. when my struggles became too much, i opened up to my parents about everything in the most apt and simple way i can last two weeks before they traveled, seeing them cry made me more depressed than i imagined, i know they cant help me out but they needed to know what was happening and what had happened. today i sold my phone 17k and that is all the money i have with me right now, my plans of enrolling into school of nursing is dead, my plans of learning programming to help myself is dead, and my savings from my workplace is gone.

came back home mid june and started working trying to save up money and pick up a form for a new school(had school of nursing in mind), everything was going fine untill i decided to buy a laptop, i had 40k with me then and the price as of then for a fairly used was 68k. the devil in me advised me to try virtual to double up the money, and that was how i went in search of 28k and lost 40k. it didnt end there i went back some days later and started playing again with no cash because the manager knows me, i ended up loosing and oweing them 136k within two days before i realised what i've done. i was arrested and spent two days in cell before i was allowed to go after signing that i would pay back all before 1st of january 2020 which is tomorrow. the two days i was arrested my parents thought i was working overtime not knowing i was in police custody and i never told them the truth cus i was scared they might go off the edge(my mom is hypertensive).

looking at the pills on the table wondering if it would be painfull or painless, maybe suicide is the only way out. from being everyones favourite boy to being a shame to my family, how did i get to this point.
i'm a 22yo who killed his dreams and future while trying to pursue success. i started betting right from a young age and became super addicted to it, i've lost countless amount of money to it, taken shady decisions that helped destroyed me just cus of betting.
during the covid lockdown period i was so into virtual soccer that i lost everything i had and ran into a debt of close to 150k. had to use my school fees and other money meant for school to clear out the debt early this year, because the man was threatening not only me but my parents too, this made me drop out of school, though my parents thought i was still a student. i came back home thinking that i have learnt my lessons and never to go and to my old ways but here am i thinking me which way to end this forsaken life quick and painless.