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Pain, is a deep reaction in the soul.
Deep down we feel extremely lonely, we feel isolated and desolated. Our atmosphere turns grey and blue......
We never new but it's highly contagious, Pain is a reaction that brings out our true self. It causes depression and oppression deep, deep down in us.
But we never know there is a thin
Line between pain and anger, they are like molecules of atom. And we should never forget, pain is inevitable and unlimited.........

up then down, heavy are u, your head, an iron crown, your shoulders bearers of pain, your feet,weary and sour my Prince among slaves. therein in the showers and in the burnt sun, for the Price of honour.

You let me behind, in pain . awaiting your nock on my door. and my locket chain in your wary hands. oh lover of mine, u let me for honour, you want me to know u has my hero. if u return not to me thou art a coward.


After forth I do not want to see, them in uniform and you on a wooden box, on my door steps, for u call your self a hero. but to me, you are more of a coward my dear beloveth.

Why don't you face me, SOLDIER! why don't u bring back my locket chain your self? nor bide me farewell your self then I will chant your name among men and chant in the streets, and call you a hero, my hero.


Oh dear soldier, don't honour me, by sending my locket chain, for it is cowardice. I want to see ur muddy face and your wrinkled sour hands hading, me my locket chain. then I will know u are my soldier and my hero.....
*********pls read write your critics******plssss

MY MOTHER LAND

We in our foolish self, had tore our pride
before, all men and before foes. we rented our garments the revealed our shame.

We have shorted the lips of justice and crippled, the world of peace, and had locked her in a donjon. for no cause, but foolishness.

We had made mockery of our mother, who nurtured and care for. we had robbed her of her desaved Peace and detained her justice. all for our self-defense.

our country has turn into a filed of circus without laughter, but a filed of bloody combat. where the strong fall and the weak parish. we're fear is a choice....

Morelaa:
We in our foolish self, had tore our pride before, all men and before foes. we rented our garments the revealed our shame.


We have shorted the lips of justice and crippled, the world of peace, and had locked her in a donjon. for no cause, but foolishness.

We had made mockery of our mother, who nurtured and care for. we had robbed her of her desaved Peace and detained her justice. all for our self-defense.

our country has turn into a filed of circus without laughter, but a filed of bloody combat. where the strong fall and the weak parish. we're fear is a choice....

pls feed back and critics

We in our foolish self, had tore our pride before, all men and before foes. we rented our garments the revealed our shame.


We have shorted the lips of justice and crippled, the world of peace, and had locked her in a donjon. for no cause, but foolishness.

We had made mockery of our mother, who nurtured and care for. we had robbed her of her desaved Peace and detained her justice. all for our self-defense.

our country has turn into a filed of circus without laughter, but a filed of bloody combat. where the strong fall and the weak parish. we're fear is a choice....

Oh my lover, thou art has Fair as the moon, your smiles are like ray of sunshine, your words as cold has winter.

You have me me drunken in love nevertheless, I can't restrain my fast heart bites, I can't stop the glow in mine eyes all because am drunken in love.

Yet, it tickles ,yes I feel butterfly in my stomach I can't stop my feet from tanting , nor my lips from chanting ur name.

oh my love for every word u speak, are like music in mine ears, and like little bairds singing sweetly in the tree.
younder I wander , have I been enchanted or am I drunken in love....

Oh my lover, thou art has Fair as the moon, your smiles are like ray of sunshine, your words as cold has winter.

You have me me drunken in love nevertheless, I can't restrain my fast heart bites, I can't stop the glow in mine eyes all because am drunken in love.

Yet, it tickles ,yes I feel butterfly in my stomach I can't stop my feet from tanting , nor my lips from chanting ur name.

oh my love for every word u speak, are like music in mine ears, and like little bairds singing sweetly in the tree.
younder I wander , have I been enchanted or am I drunken in love....

It's a hurtful feeling, to be incapable and incomplete. it's a painful feeling, not to recognized who u really are.
I stagger in loneliness, in a world so crowded, yet so alone. were words are rather thoughts. lost in my self.
I stagger, my head turns round and round, like a drunken drunk, it feels like the world has change her garments.

I scream so loudly, like is the last will I do before I take my finale breathe, yet the world grew so dafe. am to old to cry, but it hurts to smile....... It's a hurtful feeling, to be incapable and incomplete. it's a painful feeling, not to recognized who u really are.
I stagger in loneliness, in a world so crowded, yet so alone. were words are rather thoughts. lost in my self.
I stagger, my head turns round and round, like a drunken drunk, it feels like the world has change her garments.

I scream so loudly, like is the last will I do before I take my finale breathe, yet the world grew so dafe. am to old to cry, but it hurts to smile.......

forandy:
You wonder why I'm pale Why I share no smile Why I've become a sorry tale A personality defiled
It was a quirk of fate That resulted from a choice To find a soul to mate Now I can't rejoice
My hitherto smiles have faded Strength and courage gone My emotional being is raided My defences are torn
So I found a friend in you A perfect one to keep But you've broken my heart in two So secretly I weep
And hid the pain away So far so you won't see Be it night or day The hurt you did to me
Hoping we'd find our way To how it was before Hoping each time I pray But it's not working anymore
So I unmask my pain Today I must let it go Won't hold them in again Just thought I let you know
To let you know I'm here With hopes that aren't dead Intact in love and care For you're still precious in my head

interesting dear

redon12:
The forest that I found myself wasn't the forest of this world..
in that forest you will see trees that look like mango tree but have the leafs that looked like paw paw tree..
you will see another tree that looks like an iroko but has fruits that looks like mango tree..

There were trees there white as snow and having fruits that looked like white bats hanging on each branch the trees there were mysterious... no leafs were on this particular one.

they had trees that did not exist on earth ...

I sat down on the floor of the forest that looked like it was covered with organic manure.. leaves littered all over the place. leaves that looked like the ears of a donkey.

I was trying to understand why the wind blew me away...was it lilla?.. if it was lilla I would have known...

i was secretly told that lillas son was the "messiah" and he was the one waging war against our kingdom... and that he was in hell in the "ruvalok" world now receiving his punishment ..because of his rebellion...

they said that I will see him soon... both with some of his followers..

I assumed a lotus form(crossing my leg in yoga form)
and started meditating ..and making the sound :aaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmm!!!!!!..
aaaaaaaauuuuuuuuummmmmmm!!!!!!!..
to enhance more concentration....
as I was meditating something came to my mind they place I found my self ..there was no living thing there...

I was still unclad ..I stood up and entered the forest running like a wolf .. I took a second look at my body
and I was really a wolf.. I had transformed in to a wolf just by imagining I was one...

cool.. I kept on running until I reached the other end of the forest..

it was like as if they place were I was ...was a large desert..and inside they desert was an oasis..that was the so called forest I found my self..

I stepped my leg on the sand there and started walking ..a closer look at the sand it was white and not brown as it should be ... I picked up a handful of the grain of sand..

and observed.. it wasn't snow it was sand.. this is amazing..wonderful I muttered.. I dropped the sand and started trekking the desert seem to have no end..

I started running in high speed faster than the speed of light... you people will call. it teleporting ..

I went to every inch of the place but it seemed like going forever..now I was in my normal human spirit body....

At the middle of the desert I sat down again in a lotus form.. and started calling the host of demons I knew to come and help me get out of this place..

As I was still calling them..
a large viper ..that resembled a rattle snake came out from nowhere and approached me as it was coming
I taught it was coming to harm me so I stood up and started ordering thunder to strike the snake...
but nothing happened.

they snake kept coming and as it was now where I was it enterred my body..

opening my eyes I saw my self back at the crusade ground in Lagos..I was astonished..I started wondering and pondering what actually happened but no answer.. immediately "jeho".. appeared ..

You have an unfinished business Mathew.. go and strike and cause more confusion
as I was moving around thinking of the best strategy to use and cause destruction ..I passed through were I saw that
boy reading the bible and vowed that I will find him and end him ... cause they boy was nowhere to be found..

I entered the crusade ground and saw the assistant pastor ..he was saying something..

assist pastor: The pastor would not be able to make it today..
he has some crucial issue on ground
I will invite the prayer warriors to come and lead us in praises and worship...
they devil is at work here.. they dark forces came and infiltrated our musical appliances and also
caused slumbering amongst us...
let us start praises and fight against this invisible forces of darkness..

As he was saying all those things they anger in me kept on building up and burning like ...I became very ruthless..
As they started praises something like fire came out from no where and started enclosing us inside the arena ..
they fire was so tormenting ..that they demons took to there heels and abandoned me there..

that even made me more angrier as I started muterring some incantations asking the assistant pastor to fall dead in the arena but nothing happened..

I thought I had lost my powers and then decided to run away from the church arena..
all those that were under they spell of sleep harness woke up and joined in the praises..
they musical instruments and the power source..came back to life..
then as I came out from the crusade ground flying and hanging on the air.... I looked into the crusade ground again and saw fire everywhere fire was burning all over the place but it did not seem to affect anybody there the fire seemed to favour them and the building and chairs inside weren't burning or melting..

As I tried going back into the place the fire caught me and started burning me..

oh! my! it was painful..they fire tortured me. until I escaped ...as I was running and staggering through the well lit city of Lagos...

I came back to my senses in my spiritual form..
went back to the crusade ground. there were young handsome boys that came to the crusade ground just to get girls..in my anger that I failed..
I sent a sexual spirit from the sea..
it came and posses them ..

they were now having sex in the crusade ground in some dark places there when I sent a bunch of vipers to go and attack and bite them. to death... they snakes appeared .

That night about five boys and eight girls died ...their blood went immediately into my blood bank..

I did not stop there I went to the main road which led to the crusade ground and commanded a trailer to hit some boys who came to the night vigil but they had evil motives to have sex.... and also some came to pick pocket I could read their minds...

and they were just looking at some ladies entering the arena with evil minds they evil spirit possessed them... That was how there life got wasted and that was how they became history.

They trailer somersaulted causing havoc and further destruction which I did not anticipate ..

it was a trailer that carried petrol so an explosion issued that killed more people that were hanging around the crusade ground...

I went back to India and entered the tree ... there was a ceremony was going on ..

and with further questioning of some of the inhabitants of the city ..
I was told that the ceremony was held for me ...

The queen came to me and kissed me ..she said my son you have been promoted to level "111" we are bidding you farewell for you are going to the next level of your projection(astral travel)

Though in the occult world those that are been innitiated do think that there is only one occult plane found only on the earth plane..
.But there are more world's very large ...larger than than the earth realm....
in the universe as a whole there are occult world.. inside them lies different planes. ..

inside the planes lied different occultic zones.
and inside the zones lie the kingdoms which can inhabitate trees, grasses, statues,sock always..a stone ,rock,etc.
This were secret thing nobody knew I was told .because I was Lilla's incarnate.
nobody in our kingdom have ever been promoted to level "111" from the magical newspaper I was reading. I was meant to understand that we were six in number that were choosen and that I was among the lucky ones...

Even Christy did not know about this secrets revealed to me...
In all earth realm nobody knew that the occultic dominium had seven worlds..
Nobody knew that there were entities rulling the different occultic zones,planes,worlds in kingdom of darkness..
nobody knew that the kingdom of darkness was to many to count or number..
Nobody knew that the demons with us were actually fallen angels from heaven...



to be continued...

Drop your comments!!!!..

very interesting...... any room for critics?

[quote author=redon12 post=50113456] how are you I said ..with joy and Smiles all over my face .. I was smiling like
some body that won a lottery.
I am fine!. she responded with this killer smiles that was driving me crazy . we started talking we strolled down the wards and stood on the
balcony of the second roof of the building we were in .. you could hear the cries
of new born babies there.
she told me how she got her bsc in medicine in the USA ...so i am a
surgeon..she said. ..I told her mine that i was gynaecologist .she did not like the states and wanted to stay
in Nigeria but her father was against it .
they had a house in "Miami " were she stayed.. so she
used her birthday as an excuse to come back to Nigeria..that was when i saw her in the hotel...
later she made her
father understand the fact that she wanted to stay in the country. at least long
enough to do her NYSC program ..she said that she wanted to stay with her
people and also marry a Nigerian..
she narrated that american guys cheat a lot and bla bla bla bla.
She told me how she felt when I collapsed at the hotel VIP section .. she taught
a handsome guy like me was going to die like that .she was seriously panicking
.
until my friend calmed her down"she was referring to Dave " and told her that I
was under the influence of alcohol .
she said she had seen many people die like that.
She narrated her family background to me .how she wasthe only child of her
parent ..how her mother died at the Age of eight. and also she told
me about her love escapades ..how her two white boyfriends cheated on her
and broke up with her..leaving her heartbroken**in my mind I was like who will cheat on a beautiful
angel like this:ha some people don't even know what they got..***
She told me everything about her self..
she said she felt safe with me that's why she felt free to say anything. that I
was innocent*truly I was innocent*. from the tutorial Dave gave me about ladies
I knew that my charming face was doing the trick .
I started with my family background and bla bla bla..how my dad became LGA
chairman of Enugu my city..how he fought hard with politics and became the senator.. I
talked about my mum siblings and so on.........
I told her about my problems with ladies .. how I cannot stand any lady..she
laughed a little while and looked at me with the eyes that entails doubt and"i like this guy"..
while I stood there with my face startled like a frozen fish.. cause I have never
told any girl about my predicament or should I say "weakness" ...
through out my conversation with her my face was totally bent I dared not look
at her cause I was a shy person some times she would talk and touch me ...she
was really flirting with me.. I really felt totally uncomfortable..it seems like she
understood my predicament. cause she stopped her advances.... the building we
were in was the maternity building painted blue and white outside and the
inside was totally white same with every room with blue curtains hanging on the
doors and windows.. the smell of "izal " filled the environs..me and "Christiana"
that's her name
were sitting on the balcony of the second and last floor of the building wearing
our lab coats..tho!. she removed her coats she was wearing a red suit which
marched her cover shoe and lips colour which she painted red... she left her
hair flying * told ya it was natural and long*.. she was a sight to catch a
beauty that breaks the heart.. and a body that will make you hustle for life to
get..
whenever she looked away not looking .. I always try to take a look of the
pretty angel around me.. her beautiful perfume saint filled my nose and the air..
we were still discussing about my problem.. when her phone vibrated she
removed her Samsung galaxy s5 from her red purse.. and answered a call.. she
talked a little while and cut the call with annoyance ...
what's wrong why did your mood suddenly change so rapidly..I asked
..its my dad she responded ..he wants me to go back to the "US" right away
..he said that he secured a job for me in a hospital there and then he wants me to leave at the ending of this month.. she completed..
ehya!!.. i consoled..
we exchanged contacts and then I went back to my "log ".
she promised to visit me the next weekend...
oh my God what will I do now?.. how will I welcome her? ..
what should I get for her?. how long will she stay?.. all this lingered in my
mind..throughout that night I was just thinking of what to do and what not to
do until I slept off .by 2pm.. i woke up the following morning with a thunderous headache ..I
searched for paracetamol and swallowed two tablet and drained the cup of
water... I prepared for work.. I was already late my watch was clicking 9am...
so I called to inform some of my
colleagues to sign that i will be absent that day ...that I travelled to "ABJ" and would be
back tomorrow . I went back to sleep and woke up by 3pm in the afternoon..
Did some work in my laptop and went to bathe..
Then I started scrutinising my room to see if their is any abnormalities...
i was a Chelsea fan so my room was light blue in colour with Chelsea players
posters in every part of the room... even my bed my dad personally brought a set of Chelsea bed sheets from
Canada cause he to was a fan..my room was tiled . a perfect self "con" ..a plasma
LG TV on the wall with assorted decoders ranging from strong to dstv and game
consoles. Xbox 200 and PS 3...
I had drawings and posters of frank Lampard on the wall near the bathroom
door at the north part of the room when you view it from the door side my favourite player.
..I really wish Dave was around.. I wouldn't be going true this mind stress...cause he was an
expert in ladies.
I went to work the next day .. wearing my NYSC khaki
I drove my car to the hospital parked and furthered into the hospital. the first
person I bumped into was Christy .
seems like she was waiting for me to come to work I greeted her ..
she smiled and responded positively I was in a hurry so I was trying to make
her understand that I could not stand her and I really wanted to go and sign in..
to show that I came back the exact time, I promised which was 8am....
Matt I have been calling you since yesterday day but you haven't been picking
my call .hope their is nothing wrong ?..she said with a crying voice filled with
mild sarcasm..
oh My God I remember please forgive me I was working on my laptop that I
forgot to switch on my phone with a dead battery I responded with remorse in
my voice.
I would be coming to your house today Matt ..make sure you cook for me she
said with a chuckle and text me your address bye bye . she left she was also
doing her NYSC so this time she wore her green khaki combat trouser
just like mine and a t-shirt written NYSC at the front..
Chai!!!!!...what will I do now... we finished our work for the day . I wasn't
among the night shift victims so I went home to prepare for the arrival of the petty
lady Christy ..
I just faced the nervousness and this time I did not bother myself about any
thing I just .. kept a peaceful mind..
so I removed my phone from my pocket and switched it on . just to see 10
missed calls and and 2 messages just from Christy ... why did she bother her
self so much as to call me this many times .
Back at my apartment I was busy playing music on my system ,same time watching a movie... enjoying my self.. when I
heard a knock...nobody will visit by this time me cause my friends don't even know where
live due to security reasons my dad is a politician you know his colleagues might want to get at him someday.
when she told me to send her my address i did that immediately without hesitation what do you expect?... when she called me 10 times without response..
i unplugged my ear piece and went to answer the door lo! and behold! it was the most beautiful Lady i ever seen i wanted to start hugging her cause she just put the desire to that days ago ...
common matt haven't you ever seen a lady dressed like this before she blotted out sarcastically? . *came back to my senses*
please pardon my attitude i am just an innocent guy i said jokingly while smiling sheepishly..
we laughed about my statement--i am an innocent guy--.
ain't you gonna let me in she said seductively with thick US accent....
sorry my bad common in i said ...
she cat walked inside...she was dressed in a jean skirt that stopped at her mid lapps revealing all her cleavages and jean jacket.. with a familiarised white shirt inside that also stopped at her mid abdomen... a perfect sexy creature i do see in american movies..
wow!..you have a nice apartment she said while removing her jacket and heels..at the other side of the room..*in my mind i was like what is this girl planning* ..
i muttered with a stamarring voice: thank you!...
To tell you the truth i have never seen a naked woman live before ..unless in movies and pornographic films...
seems like she planned this before coming cause she was just making herself comfortable in my room ..
there was a deafening silence ... she took up my laptop and started watching the movie i was entertaining myself with before she came in ... the "THREE IDIOTS" an Indian film i was in there standing looking at her like as if i saw a ghost... all the while she was smiling doing what she was doing on my system...the room started becoming to hot for. me stay in.. i sneaked out..to receive fresh air i was living in a compound house well furnished bungalow owned by the hospital i was working with there were other students there ..those that were still doing there internship..my dad did not
want me to stay in the camp so he made sure he secured a place for. me in Kaduna city..
i heard her voice calling .my name from the inside.
i ran into the room like some one called by their mother..
you called i said..
yes she responded.. why did you leave me all alone in this your big room?.
i am very sorry .i responded
don't you like me?.. she asked with a teary voice..
you will not understand i said with regret..
"love"you did not even care to offer me anything..
i am sorry now i responded what would you like ... i have five alive in my fridge...*in my mind i was like so this girl don fall for me like this She even called me love*...
hmmm... thank you very much but i don't feel like taking anything now... come and watch this movie with me...
so to please her i joined her on the bed ..
you have taste as a guy seems like you are a Chelsea fan?..
yeah..i responded. thankyou.
i became afraid of my own bed..
nooo come and lie down here you will not see it very well if you stay that side she said sarcastically.. i adjusted closing the distance***this girl is planning something o**
we started watching one film like that she brought from her "log".
we watched then the film reached a romantic part.. i guess it was a Korean movie.. i don't even know when last i watched a movie cause i have been workng in the hospital day and night..
for the first time i started having this sexual urge cause she was sure seducing me with day way she dressed that night you will know that she was prepared..my cock started getting attention thus ,making me uncomfortable i drifted a little bit from her but she rolled towards me thereby closing the distance again..we were lying on our front which was on the bed the laptop was at the top of the extreme end of the bed so we were lying down watching the movie.. **i used to watch pornographic films in my hundred level but i have never felt this way** I started feeling changes in my body... they shyness disappeared and then started reminiscing all the act of sex i do see in porn movies..
my body system changed..
next thing I saw my self caressing her beautiful hair.."she was giggling .enjoying it
have you ever had zex before??.. she said amused by my new behaviour.
i am still a virgin..i responded with deep voice
i noticed.. she added..
she came up and kissed me we started pulling off each others clothes..
she taught me how to take out many positions in sex in one night during our sex period
that was how i lost my virginity..
after the sex we rested for about 30minutes.. then she dressed up and told me she was leaving .
what!!!... its 12:27am already you cant leave cause i am not going to allow you..there might be some people who might want to kidnap you .or some rapist please don't go ..but she insisted she wanted to go..that i am still a stranger to her
i came with my car "honey"
so don't worry she said.
so you think i will kill you or what if you pass the night here.. we just had an intimate mome-----its not like that you will not understand..she responded with a crying voice..i tried persuading her to stay but she refused..so i let her be..
i escorted her to her car everywhere was quiet ..it was the full moon the tarred road was shining. that you can see everything..
her car was a "Lamborghini 6469". wow! you have a nice car..thanx! she mumbled she mumbled behind her throat..did i anger you?. i asked with pleading voice..wasn't i good in---
see you tomorrow i am running late
her engine came to life and she zoomed of ..before i could ask her were she was running late to.
the last thing i heard her say was: "make sure you have a good night sleeeeeep!!!"..
I went back to my room the korean film was still playing . she forgot
her disk in my system..i will returned it to her tomorrow.

"matt Wake up" i heard a voice call ... may be its not me.. but the voice is coming from my room..the voice sounds like that of Christy... i jerked up immediately rubbing my eyes and hit the light switch there she was ...it was Christy
wearing a white robe. and on her hand was a sword and a mask..what
are you doing in my room?? how did you enter??.
no response.
the only thing i heard was follow me!!!.. my leg started walking



nice has always bro

Yea..kin of

What is love?
Love is the strongest
force that posses our
hearts unaware.
it's an emotion that seize's
our decision.
it's a very strong desire for passion,
that no mortal can can over come.



Love is the strongest colonists
that colonised our hearts,
In making a decisions.
love is deceptive, love forces
an attraction without permission.
Even when all seems like a mirage....


Love is said it's sweeter than honey
Love is said it's the most tender
Love is a mighty warrior, that
has fought a battle and conquer.
Love is fought even GOD, and conquer........
So love conquer's all........

The world is dark and gray in mine eyes,it's doll and dimein my heart , am trap in shekels and chains,derision and confusion are my the only elements I behold.
The world speaks it's unrecognizable languages to my dimpe and defe to my ears, I only follow sign, yet don't understand it's mistries.
Confusion is my home
Derision are my bones
Dejection in my soul
Rejection in my heart
Then whom shall I follow when every arrows of my foes ,are pointed and set at me? Who then shall rescue me from my self........