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[b][/b]I am a pastor's kid. My parents nondenominational church. They always been just pastor to me than parents. I think some pastors make horrible parents. Pastors shouldn't have kids I think. Though it helps them be able to help people with their kids. But my parents were always busy with the church, sick people, deaths, prayer meetings, weddings, etc. I have a older sister and younger sisters who I guess are the good Christians my parents wanted them to be. I've never been into cultism or prostitution. I'm into girls, I use to be into drugs, and I was into Budhism which I know is all unChristian. I never tried to make my father look bad. I was raised strictly as a Christian and it seemed more like a religion than relationship to me. I was taught I was suppose to love God, but didn't see how I never met him and all I had was a book inspired by the love of God. I just did it because I had to. I didn't have any heart in it. So everything I did was routine. Good to church go to my Catholic school. I hated church and school, though I never mad bad grades I was barely in trouble for something only for my temper or attitude towards other children. I never fit in anywhere and didn't want to be. I stayed to myself. Reading. Not Harry Potter or some fictions I read about religions and their history. Spanking didn't work for me because I'd fight back so they stopped. I rarely got into trouble. I barely got caught.



Then church, I hated church people I still do. It seemed easier to trust "worldly people" than church people or any Christian people. They always made me feel like property just because I was young. I wasn't as stupid as they assumed. My father stressed sometimes that we (his kids) should behave and show up for every little thing to be a good example. I guess to keep him from looking like a hypocrite. I never fit in at church or anywhere (not that I wanted to) and being so close to the pastor it was easy to see problems that people caused, the people who were so holy and Christian. I met all kinds of Christian people and very few convinced me that they were. I didn't want to be like the religous ones. And the good ones, the good Christian teens to me are like robots. I don't see Christianity as anything but some kind of slavery. And people go back to Christianity because they get knocked down by the world so hard they need God to pick them up again. I don't want any of that. I do believe in God, I don't know if it's the same God you'd agree because I don't see a loving God. I don't mean to put any Christian down from what I've said.