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No, she was not married, then nor now.

We were friends first, met at work, worked together for a while, got to know ine another over time, got closer, she was in a long term relationship, 15 years, no love, no common likes or wants, just there for each other, I was 6 years seperated, not lloking for a reltionship at all. Our friendship grew closer, began to get closer, a lifetime of common goals, wants, desires, pasions, problems, and so on. We like all the same things, have all the same desires and passions in life and love. We are like solemates in so many ways, our palm lines are the same, our laugh lines are the same. We have the same personal problems, her children, my step children, same financial problems, work for the same company, bsaically the same position, we both feel used and abused, need to move on, career wise that is, but now she is hinking of the life she left behind. Mind you, the time we were together, she never let be known to her past life, and I only wanted to boast about her with mine. Keep in mind, I met her children, and got along great, but no one else. She, met my step children, faimily, and friends, and all loved her. She needs time to think about what she wants, what she needs to do, where she wants to go. We see each other every day during work, are best friends still, weekends now, we talk, but don't see each other. This is killing me so, and her as well, as I hear it in her voice, in her vtears, as she hears mine. I don't know what to do, I feel like a caged animal. When we talk I smile, when we hang up I cry. In between, I can't function, and cry alot. This is the one love of a lifetime, I know. yes, i do, as being married 3 times before. the first was what I thought I should do as the age was right, the second, well, only lived together, she asked to marry, I said no, and the third was just an escape from the 2nd. Always said after those 3, no more. Well after 6 years, i met this one, friends for months, anf then it grew and grew. I wish i could tell you the feling I get whaen I just think about her, hear her voice, look into her eyes. Okay now, help!!