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P. S: created this account for this morning.

Have you at one time thought about suicide? Due to one thing or the other in this life?

Suicidal thoughts because of Stammering. This thing is so shittty to say the list.

As I type now, I left my house to a football field to reexamine my life.

Why is everyone else allowed to speak fluently without stammering but others are depressingly struggling to put out their words together.

Yesterday I wanted to give a salutation in form of a mild joke to a woman I saw with cane, something like, hey ma, pls don't beat that kid to death ooo.

Something that would have helped me become a bit open and non introvertial, but I couldn't.

The concern is, as I try more to be friendly I keep getting isolated because you will see people having a conversation and you can't fit in. You quietly stay in your room. It's depressing.

This morning someone called me to join wire to his Gen because it was connected indirectly I couldn't mutter words to correctly ask him what to do, and shamefully this was in the presence of 2 young ladies. I could sense the guy being frustrated that I could not understand him - maybe wasting his recharge card unit.

One of them had to intervened and talked to the person on top of my phone on speaker. As in, I was the one he called ooo.

This is really something to me.

Last 2 months my account was blocked at the bank and I went to meet the customer care, with the long cue I was already self aware of mockery if I stutter. Funny enough I couldn't explain my problem exactly as it was.

Recent times if I try struggling to speak, a man hides his face or puts it down. Oooooh, that act causes mode swing and deep shame.

I would have spent my life savings on stammering if there was a way for me.

What has stuttering not caused?

* Depression?

* Losing friends?

* Maybe opportunities?

* Low self esteem - even when I put a great one with my dressing and appearance.

* Introverting state

* Shame and ridicule.

Now suicidal consideration. All these happening to one person with all other life issues people face.

What is my wrong?

Why do people who don't need this plain talking tongue have it and use it for the wrong reasons but I'm here struggling for the good reason??

People say suicide is not the way, what THEN IS THE WAY AS I'VE TRIED A FEW THINGS TO REDUCE STAMMERING ??

Imagine that I left my house this early morning to type all these - I no even brush my teeth as I step out.

I need to find a way...



Have you ever mocked someone who faced something horrible which you thought it was simple for him to just play safe?

Stammering is...

Sorry about what your are going through... I really feel your pain on this.

Stammering us not a disease neither do you need to be cured. You have to work on getting your self confidence back as the lack of it will only make it worse.

Stand in front of your mirror daily, relax your mind and do a form of speech practise. With time, you will see some slight improvement.

You're alive and you worth it.

dawnomike:
Sorry about what your are going through... I really feel your pain on this.

Stammering us not a disease neither do you need to be cured. You have to work on getting your self confidence back as the lack of it will only make it worse.

Stand in front of your mirror daily, relax your mind and do a form of speech practise. With time, you will see some slight improvement.

Hmm. Thank you @Mike

Hmm. Speaking is a big problem.