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I have being depressed since I got married. The story is too long so I don't want to go into it.
My husband is a good man so he's not to be blamed for my depression, in fact he has being doing all he could to make me happy even though we don't have much. and he is the only reason why I haven't drank sniper because I know he will blame himself for my death thinking he didn't do enough to help whereas he did. Again I know suicide is one ticket straight to hell and I don't want to end up there.

Out of 100 decisions I have made in my life, 95 turn out to be bad (the outcomes doesn't always go the way I envision them). I don't have the strength to carry on, I don't even trust my next decision.

The depression is slowly drowning me. When I see an obituary online, I envy the person wishing it was me (why doesn't death come to those that wish for it though?... )

A very recent decision i made that backfires is what is resurrecting the depression that is already in me.
I know God loves me but I wish he will just help me this period because the water is about to cover my face

One of this days, if I can't bear the pain no more i will just go ahead and do it..... I pray God forgive me and I apologize to my husband

Spacodino:
I have being depressed since I got married. The story is too long so I don't want to go into it.
My husband is a good man so he's not to be blamed for my depression, in fact he has being doing all he could to make me happy even though we don't have much. and he is the only reason why I haven't drank sniper because I know he will blame himself for my death thinking he didn't do enough to help whereas he did. Again I know suicide is one ticket straight to hell and I don't want to end up there.

Out of 100 decisions I have made in my life, 95 turn out to be bad (the outcomes doesn't always go the way I envision them). I don't have the strength to carry on, I don't even trust my next decision.

The depression is slowly drowning me. When I see an obituary online, I envy the person wishing it was me (why doesn't death come to those that wish for it though?... )

A very recent decision i made that backfires is what is resurrecting the depression that is already in me.
I know God loves me but I wish he will just help me this period because the water is about to cover my face

One of this days, if I can't bear the pain no more i will just go ahead and do it..... I pray God forgive me and I apologize to my husband

Instead of drinking sniper to die and go to Hell. When not go into dry fasting vowing not to eat or drink until God shows you Mercy. If you from there pass on, you didn't kill urself but I doubt God will see you in such pain and look away

Stay strong. The weak do not win.

Offpointng:
Instead of drinking sniper to die and go to Hell. When not go into dry fasting vowing not to eat or drink until God shows you Mercy. If you from there pass on, you didn't kill urself but I doubt God will see you in such pain and look away

This seem like a good advice.. I think I will take it

ForValour:
Stay strong. The weak do not win.

Obviously, I am not strong

Share your problem ,some readers can be God sent

Mikespecialone:
Share your problem ,some readers can be God sent

It's long, don't know where to start from

Spacodino:
It's long, don't know where to start from

Please try , there is always a solution to every problem

It's well.

If God should ask everyone to bring their problems to the table so that anyone can pick any problem that is better for him/her, I bet you, you will run and pick yours back.....hope you understand what I mean?

Don't give up, hold onto God, it is a good thing that you know God so good deeper into his word, the answer to your problem is right there...

Meet doctors and offer to donate your organs. That should fetch you money to enjoy small before to port over to the other side.

Mikespecialone:
Please try , there is always a solution to every problem

These are things I don't wish to share on this platform because people will judge you and say things that will add to the depression... I have enough of it already

Mikespecialone:
Please try , there is always a solution to every problem

You seem like a nice person.... I wish I could share my burden with you personally. My heart is really heavy.

Is there a way I can communicate with u directly?

RepoMan007:
Meet doctors and offer to donate your organs. That should fetch you money to enjoy small before to port over to the other side.

You should be ashamed of yourself. People pour out their heart online because they have no one to open up to... The least u can do is to be nice or shut up!

To think this is a religious section!

Spacodino:
You seem like a nice person.... I wish I could share my burden with you personally. My heart is really heavy.

Is there a way I can communicate with u directly?

Bernardfor101 @ g mail. Com

Ever8090:
If God should ask everyone to bring their problems to the table so that anyone can pick any problem that is better for him/her, I bet you, you will run and pick yours back.....hope you understand what I mean?

Don't give up, hold onto God, it is a good thing that you know God so good deeper into his word, the answer to your problem is right there...

Thank you my dear... I appreciate this encouragement.

Mikespecialone:
Bernardfor101 @ g mail. Com

its invalid

Spacodino:
You should be ashamed of yourself. People pour out their heart online because they have no one to open up to... The least u can do is to be nice or shut up!

To think this is a religious section!

I misread topic thinking depression was recession(economic)

Your death won't reduce inflation in Nigeria, it's better you stay and let's fight this shege promax together

Spacodino:
This seem like a good advice.. I think I will take it

Sorry bout ur current state. Really wish I could have been of a help honestly

But May my God who is the Almighty bring you succor and help ur way quickly. cheer up my sister

Spacodino:
Thank you my dear... I appreciate this encouragement.

you are welcome, I am in same situation but I have refused to give up, you can imagine I got married my wife gave birth to a baby boy, a year and some months she died, the child was around 5 years old when he fell sick and became deaf and dumb....he can't hear and he can't talk. Very handsome boy that people who don't even know him shed tears when they realise his condition.

Getting married again has become a big challenge for me because of my financial situation. The last lady I wanted we planned to marry, her parents rejected because I don't have money she too was not serious for same reason.

The job I do, I work for people with all my heart and commitment but at the end, some will refuse to pay. Each time I get a good project that will elevate me, something must come up against it.

As I am writing you now, I am in a school here in Irrua Edo state, sleeping alone in the headmaster's office of the new building I am working on, alone, everywhere is quiet and dark.

And the profit I am going to make from the job is not even enough to pay my house rent which will expire ending of this month and the landlord does not accept excuses.

I love quiet places, where I can be alone and pray to my God, that is why where I am now doesn't bother me, even though it is quiet and dangerous for me to be sleeping in the place alone.

Last two years, I was in a serious problem, a friend of mine invited me to handle a project for him in Abuja, I was very happy because I believed I will raise some money to settle my problem after the job.....he did not provide accomodation for me, i was sleeping in his uncomplicated building i was working on for 5 months,....after the job, he was very happy with the work but he only gave me transport to go back to port Harcourt where I was staying that he will send my money, as we speak now, which is two years later, I have not gotten anything from him apart from the 10k he gave me 3 months ago when i pleaded with him that i am hungry...this is how a lot of client treats me because i don't talk and I don't make trouble over money

So, you see, this is me, encouraging you, because I know, God does not abandon those who trust in him. He will allow the devil to do all he can, but if you don't turn away from God just as Job in the bible, God will surely show himself and you will glorify his name . You will repeat same word that job said when his trials were over

......." My ears have had about you but now, my eyes have seen you"....

I have not told you half of what I have gone through in this life.....

Have you ever poopo in nylon and kept it where you are sleeping waiting for people to go away so you can go out and look for a place to dumb it?...no you haven't...but I did it several times.

Have you ever ask your neighbour who sales food not to pour water in her big pot of burnt jellof rice so that you can scrape it and eat?..No you haven't "..but i did so just a week ago before i traveled to where i am now.

I have not told you even quarter of things I have gone through in this life.

But one thing I am sure of is that,..my redeemer cometh.....

So be strong, take your mind off the problem and focus it on God,...the God of Abraham Isaac and Jacob, the God that brought the children of Israel out of Egypt with his mighty hand, the "I AM THAT I AM" the power that raised Jesus Christ from the grave, the creator of all things known and unknown to man,. He is faithful, he is reliable, don't think you is not aware of your situation, he knows everything you are going trough, and those problem are suppose to draw you close to God and not away from him.

Remember what happened to Paul, he had a problem, he prayed to God 3 times to take the problem away but this was God's response.........I will not take the problem from you Paul because my grace is sufficient for you and my power will be made known in your weaknesses "😁...

My sister, stay with God, don't leave, don't allow the devil to win....
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Be strong and courageous, the God you believe in is a living God at the due time, he will come in his majesty and you will glorify his name.

I will include you in my prayers this days....

May the almighty God have mercy on you and revel himself to you beyond your imagination in Jesus mighty name!!!...Amen!!