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I can't just keep to myself any longer, I'm already weak and tired.

I don't know if I'm depressed or something.
I went through a lot during childhood. I mean a lot. And I guess I'm now suffering from the impact of that ugly childhood.

I don't mix with people, l don't attend social events— Birthdays, funerals, church, weddings etc.

I hate to be known or recognised in a particular gathering. I hate to be the centre of attraction. I don't make friends because I see most people as Betrayers and traitors. I see them as trying to snitch on me.
Aside going out to look for my daily Bread 🍞, I don't interact with anybody, not even my family members except maybe my siblings.
I don't like people visiting me & I also don't visit people. I don't have a girlfriend. I'm also broke and from almost poor. I'm always thinking of the next minute — Particularly how I can survive.
People I trusted and confided in, have all betrayed me in time past. Aunties and uncles have done theirs, friends and other relatives too. People who claim to be pastors, friends and colleagues, have all done their parts. It hurts me.
As per relationship and marriage, I'm not sure I'll ever marry. I don't trust people, especially ladies.
I don't have older ones to look up to. No father, no mother, no family bond between myself and siblings. There's chaos and uncertainty everywhere. All these have really affected me a lot.

It's so painful to not have anyone who can give you a pat on your shoulder when things are tough. No Encourager. Motivator, No Helper.
If I fall sick today and get incapacitated, what is my fate?
If I get kidnapped today, who will pay the ransom?
No matter the Lenses or prism through which we view life, I want to believe that we all agree that everyone of us needs someone in our lives to make a headway. You can't do it all alone.
All these get me scared and fazed.
I'm deeply frustrated .

If ONLY GOD can change and transform me to a better Person, I'll serve Him and Him alone all the days of my life.

Your soul is in bondage, that is why you feel all these things.

Run [in]to GOD, and let His mighty hand uphold you, and set your soul free.
The help you're seeking, all that you need, that void you feel, in GOD is where you will find everything you ever needed.

Do you read [pray with] the bible?

DeclanR:
I can't just keep to myself any longer, I'm already weak and tired.

I don't know if I'm depressed or something.
I went through a lot during childhood. I mean a lot. And I guess I'm now suffering from the impact of that ugly childhood.

I don't mix with people, l don't attend social events— Birthdays, funerals, church, weddings etc.

I hate to be known or recognised in a particular gathering. I hate to be the centre of attraction. I don't make friends because I see most people as Betrayers and traitors. I see them as trying to snitch on me.
Aside going out to look for my daily Bread 🍞, I don't interact with anybody, not even my family members except maybe my siblings.
I don't like people visiting me & I also don't visit people. I don't have a girlfriend. I'm also broke and from almost poor. I'm always thinking of the next minute — Particularly how I can survive.
People I trusted and confided in, have all betrayed me in time past. Aunties and uncles have done theirs, friends and other relatives too. People who claim to be pastors, friends and colleagues, have all done their parts. It hurts me.
As per relationship and marriage, I'm not sure I'll ever marry. I don't trust people, especially ladies.
I don't have older ones to look up to. No father, no mother, no family bond between myself and siblings. There's chaos and uncertainty everywhere. All these have really affected me a lot.

It's so painful to not have anyone who can give you a pat on your shoulder when things are tough. No Encourager. Motivator, No Helper.
If I fall sick today and get incapacitated, what is my fate?
If I get kidnapped today, who will pay the ransom?

All these get me scared and fazed.
I'm deeply frustrated

DeclanR:
➜I can't just keep to myself any longer, I'm already weak and tired. I don't know if I'm depressed or something. I went through a lot during childhood. I mean a lot. And I guess I'm now suffering from the impact of that ugly childhood.
I don't mix with people, l don't attend social events— Birthdays, funerals, church, weddings etc. I hate to be known or recognised in a particular gathering. I hate to be the centre of attraction. I don't make friends because I see most people as Betrayers and traitors. I see them as trying to snitch on me.
Aside going out to look for my daily Bread 🍞, I don't interact with anybody, not even my family members except maybe my siblings.
I don't like people visiting me & I also don't visit people. I don't have a girlfriend. I'm also broke and from almost poor. I'm always thinking of the next minute — Particularly how I can survive.
People I trusted and confided in, have all betrayed me in time past. Aunties and uncles have done theirs, friends and other relatives too. People who claim to be pastors, friends and colleagues, have all done their parts. It hurts me. As per relationship and marriage, I'm not sure I'll ever marry. I don't trust people, especially ladies. I don't have older ones to look up to. No father, no mother, no family bond between myself and siblings. There's chaos and uncertainty everywhere. All these have really affected me a lot.
➜It's so painful to not have anyone who can give you a pat on your shoulder when things are tough. No Encourager. Motivator, No Helper. If I fall sick today and get incapacitated, what is my fate? If I get kidnapped today, who will pay the ransom?No matter the Lenses or prism through which we view life, I want to believe that we all agree that everyone of us needs someone in our lives to make a headway. You can't do it all alone.
All these get me scared and fazed. I'm deeply frustrated . If ONLY GOD can change and transform me to a better Person, I'll serve Him and Him alone all the days of my life.

You are struggling with what is obviously depression— a mental illness—, and I am sorry, but there is no god out there coming to change or transform you into the better person you dream of. Only you, through doing intentional work, can push yourself through it to come out to where your dream is realized and make yourself a better person.

My suggestion is that you make an appointment immediately to see a professional mental health counselor/psychologist, and make sure to work with your counselor to help you achieve your goal.

2. Something else you can do to help yourself beginning now is to begin stepping out of your comfort zone. Be the person you are trying to get others to be for you. If you need encouragement, encourage yourself. If you need motivation, motivate yourself. If you need a helper, start by helping yourself. Before you fall sick, plan to ensure you have at least some of what you will need —medication, first aid supplies — at home so you can manage yourself until you can get help from elsewhere.

Start exercising regularly. You can walk 30-60 minutes regularly to help you destress every day and increase blood flow to your brain. This will impact your ability to fight against the depression you are carrying around with you. Also, while walking, push yourself to say hi to those around you, engage in conversation with others if you can, or at least hang out more. Even if hanging out simply means sitting on a chair outside of your apartment or on a park bench, people watching, do it to get yourself out of the house and comfortable as often as you can. Depression thrives on isolation(even when you are surrounded by people), so fighting it may involve opening yourself up to others, even if you are afraid of being rejected by them.

There is no magical pill to lift that dark cloud that is over your life at this point. You need to work at fighting it yourself and continue doing so until it passes.

Move past the previous betrayals. The next step is to actively socialize—try joining organizations like churches, taking a new physical course that needs you to be in a location, or getting involved with a football club.

Seek out opportunities to meet new people and try making friends with extroverts, as they can help bring you out of your shell.

Prioritize your personal growth and well-being before thinking about marriage. You’ll get better, it’s just a phase

Kobojunkie:
You are struggling with what is obviously depression— a mental illness—, and I am sorry, but there is no god out there coming to change or transform you into the better person you dream of. Only you, through doing intentional work, can push yourself through it to come out to where your dream is realized and make yourself a better person.

My suggestion is that you make an appointment immediately to see a professional mental health counselor/psychologist, and make sure to work with your counselor to help you achieve your goal.

2. Something else you can do to help yourself beginning now is to begin stepping out of your comfort zone. Be the person you are trying to get others to be for you. If you need encouragement, encourage yourself. If you need motivation, motivate yourself. If you need a helper, start by helping yourself. Before you fall sick, plan to ensure you have at least some of what you will need —medication, first aid supplies — at home so you can manage yourself until you can get help from elsewhere.

Start exercising regularly. You can walk 30-60 minutes regularly to help you destress every day and increase blood flow to your brain. This will impact your ability to fight against the depression you are carrying around with you. Also, while walking, push yourself to say hi to those around you, engage in conversation with others if you can, or at least hang out more. Even if hanging out simply means sitting on a chair outside of your apartment or on a park bench, people watching, do it to get yourself out of the house and comfortable as often as you can. Depression thrives on isolation(even when you are surrounded by people), so fighting it may involve opening yourself up to others, even if you are afraid of being rejected by them.

There is no magical pill to lift that dark cloud that is over your life at this point. You need to work at fighting it yourself and continue doing so until it passes.

This is Fact in its entirety.
Thanks so much.

I saw a comment wherein someone was attributing my issue to spirituality and I chuckled.

May the universe bless and guide you

SpencerForbes:
Move past the previous betrayals. The next step is to actively socialize—try joining organizations like churches, taking a new physical course that needs you to be in a location, or getting involved with a football club.

Seek out opportunities to meet new people and try making friends with extroverts, as they can help bring you out of your shell.

Prioritize your personal growth and well-being before thinking about marriage. You’ll get better, it’s just a phase

Another fact spoken 🙏

DeclanR:
➜This is Fact in its entirety. Thanks so much. I saw a comment wherein someone was attributing my issue to spirituality and I chuckled. May the universe bless and guide you

. There is nothing spiritual about depression. It is 100% mental illness and can be worked through for even those with depression if they can find it in themselves to vigorously fight it. I say vigorously because the battle can be tremendously exhausting for anyone. Many end up succumbing not out of weakness but because of the nature of the illness. Major depression, the severe kind is a mental demon on a higher level i would recommend medication and therapy if one is to have a serious fighting chance. 🥱

I would know because I spent more than 3 decades of my life struggling with major depression, believing I had no real power against it. It wasn't until recent years that I started up again, intensely and more actively fighting— with medication, exercise, and all I had left in me to do so, even lost my livelihood in the process, but did not stop(it became do or die for me)—against it, and today I can tell you I am free of it.

Kobojunkie:
. There is nothing spiritual about depression. It is 100% mental illness and can be worked through for even those with major depression if they can find it in themselves to vigorously fight it. I say vigorously because the battle can be tremendously exhausting for anyone.

I would know because I spent more than 3 decades of my life struggling with major depression, believing I had no real power against it. It wasn't until recent years that I started up again, intensely and more actively fighting— with medication, exercise, and all I had left in me to do so, even lost my livelihood in the process, but did not stop(it became do or die for me)—against it, and today I can tell you I am free of it.

Great,!

I'm encouraged.
Thanks for sharing sir

Very normal. Trust no one. Love yourself ONLY!
As I get older, I need less attention. I keep busy and socialize with only my co-workers. I only deal with immediate family members. YouTube is my best friend.

You can never find love in POVERTY WITH FAKE RELIGION.

Immediately you start making money all this your narrative and mindset will change Money is power it can change anything in a blink of eye

Cum4me:
Immediately you start making money all this your narrative and mindset will change Money is power it can change anything in a blink of eye

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