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I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Sirchiboy(op):
I’ll be turning 45 in October, and I’m not ashamed to admit that….

1. I can’t drive.
2. I don’t have a car.
3. I’ve been single for years.
4. I’ve never been on a plane.
5. I don’t have an international passport.
6. I run a business, but I still struggle financially.
7. I’m still scared of marriage and commitment.
8. I’m not a “baddie” (I tried, but it isn’t me).
9. I still battle with my weight and body image.
10. I love staying indoors and enjoy my own company.
11. People have judged me before they got to know me.
12. I’ve been on my own since I was young, and life has taught me hard lessons.
13. I’ve never been to a club.
14. I’ve never drank alcohol.
15. I’m so scared of relationships that I walk away as soon as I see serious red flags.
16. I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and self doubt.
17. I’ve cried myself to sleep more times than I can count.
18. My immune system isn’t the strongest.
19. I cry easily, especially when I’m overwhelmed or frustrated.
20. My English isn’t perfect, but I keep learning every day.
21. I’ve lost my hope, and life has never been the same.
22. I take care of my mother as much as I can.
23. My business has crashed before, and I got into millions of naira in debt. I’m still fighting my way out.
24. I’ve been betrayed by people I genuinely trusted.
25. Since my last relationship, I’ve never really been someone’s priority. I always seem to attract emotionally unavailable men or men who are already committed. I RUN.
26. I questioned myself more times than I’d like to admit.
27. I pray more than most people know.
28. I’m in my final year at the university, and I’m proud I didn’t give up.
29. I started my business with very little and kept pushing despite setbacks.
30. I don’t own my dream house yet.
31. I don’t have everything I want yet.
32. I still dream of owning my walk in store.
33. I still have dreams that keep me awake at night.
34. I choose peace over relationships that cost me my self worth.
35. I’m learning to love myself, even on the difficult days.
36. I'm broke, discouraged, exhausted, and heartbroken, but I never stopped trying.
37. I’ve survived seasons I never thought I’d make it through.
38. My journey has been messy, but it has made me stronger.
39. I know my story isn’t over.
40. I recently told God that the best gift He will give me now is the gift of REST. I mean the kind my father is having right now.
41. So im currently working waiting to pay my debts off so I can cross.
42. That might actually be the end of my story but for now im still here so I write as much as I can.

At 45, my life may not look the way I imagined it would, but I’m still here. Still fighting. Still building. Still healing. Still believing. Still growing. Still trusting God. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by MONEY247: 9:10am On Jul 14
What do you need to upgrade your current status....


My advice...
Forgive yourself
Forgive everyone who has hurt you... even if it pains you alot...
Embarce a new identity....Read the bible,... Read an inspiring book ...

Try to remove your mind from your flaws and focus on your best areas...

Lastly go to youtube, or facebook create a channel and start posting videos you video yourself talking it would ease whatever pressure you are going through for now..

Remember jesus christ loves you
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by BrickandLace(f): 10:22am On Jul 14
Someone gave me a challenge on Sunday.

She said , as your falling asleep I mean your eyes are about to close from your exhausting day, say

Dear universe,
"Show me how wealthy, rich and lucky I can get."

Do this for the next 5 nights.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by SeeWahala: 10:40am On Jul 14
BrickandLace:
Someone gave me a challenge on Sunday.

She said , as your falling asleep I mean your eyes are about to close from your exhausting day, say

Dear universe,
"Show me how wealthy, rich and lucky I can get."

Do this for the next 5 nights.
So you want him to be only DREAMING of being rich? shocked

Some Nigerians can be unknowingly wicked with their advices sha undecided
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Sonnobax15(m):
lipsrsealed
Bro sirchiboy,tho you're way older than me cuz I'm just in my early 30's but the only thing I've got to say to you is that--"Please don't give up"

Back in 2018,there was this man who was in his early 40's then that was working with us in the bakery I used to work at back then. This dude happened t be a graduate and everytime he spoke up, y'all need to see how he was disrespected by the other workers. Some were even mocking him for wasting away his time by going to school. Personally,I never joined them but I was always around him to console him and gave him reasonyto believe all hope was not lost.

Last time I saw him was last year,the dude was already looking okay as he was lucky to find his feet and was working with MTN already. We spoke for few minutes and reminisced on the old times we spent together.

So,my brother sirchiboy,no give up.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by SirCloudControl: 11:00am On Jul 14
Congratulations brother, the main purpose of life is to be born. But some people bother themselves with so much rat race as if they are going to make it out of life alive with all the earthly wealth.

When it's time to leave, earth takes everything back except your consciousness.

Please don't hustle for wealth, inspiration or any earthly riches! leave all the inspiration, riches and wealth for me
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Mattswaggz: 11:24am On Jul 14
Provided you haven't given up then you're good to go....where there is life, there is hope.

The most important thing in life is having what you need... living a good, peaceful and impactful live and progressing with time....it isn't too late for you and you should keep your fighting spirit intact "NEVER GIVE UP!!!.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Mattswaggz: 11:25am On Jul 14
MONEY247:
What do you need to upgrade your current status....


My advice...
Forgive yourself
Forgive everyone who has hurt you... even if it pains you alot...
Embarce a new identity....Read the bible,... Read an inspiring book ...

Try to remove your mind from your flaws and focus on your best areas...

Lastly go to youtube, or facebook create a channel and start posting videos you video yourself talking it would ease whatever pressure you are going through for now..

Remember jesus christ loves you
He needs real life solutions and not fairy tales. undecided
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Ifexibe(m): 11:26am On Jul 14
Only you, all these?

Come and be my friend let me change your life. grin cool
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Dogalmighty17: 11:26am On Jul 14
Jeez. Looking at your list.... your number 14 is a huge red flag! You wasted 45 years without drinking alcohol? Who do you expect to drink your share of liquor for you? Why are you people like this? Why?
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by MONEY247: 11:26am On Jul 14
Mattswaggz:
He needs real life solutions and not fairy tales. undecided
So what I wrote is fairy tales...

Ok suggest a solution
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Gbadugbakun(m): 11:27am On Jul 14
Become a pastor or a politician. And money wouldn't be your problem anymore.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by MrBadNews: 11:27am On Jul 14
Sirchiboy:
I’ll be turning 45 in October, and I’m not ashamed to admit that….

1. I can’t drive.
2. I don’t have a car.
3. I’ve been single for years.
4. I’ve never been on a plane.
5. I don’t have an international passport.
6. I run a business, but I still struggle financially.
7. I’m still scared of marriage and commitment.
8. I’m not a “baddie” (I tried, but it isn’t me).
9. I still battle with my weight and body image.
10. I love staying indoors and enjoy my own company.
11. People have judged me before they got to know me.
12. I’ve been on my own since I was young, and life has taught me hard lessons.
13. I’ve never been to a club.
14. I’ve never drank alcohol.
15. I’m so scared of relationships that I walk away as soon as I see serious red flags.
16. I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and self doubt.
17. I’ve cried myself to sleep more times than I can count.
18. My immune system isn’t the strongest.
19. I cry easily, especially when I’m overwhelmed or frustrated.
20. My English isn’t perfect, but I keep learning every day.
21. I’ve lost my hope, and life has never been the same.
22. I take care of my mother as much as I can.
23. My business has crashed before, and I got into millions of naira in debt. I’m still fighting my way out.
24. I’ve been betrayed by people I genuinely trusted.
25. Since my last relationship, I’ve never really been someone’s priority. I always seem to attract emotionally unavailable men or men who are already committed. I RUN.
26. I questioned myself more times than I’d like to admit.
27. I pray more than most people know.
28. I’m in my final year at the university, and I’m proud I didn’t give up.
29. I started my business with very little and kept pushing despite setbacks.
30. I don’t own my dream house yet.
31. I don’t have everything I want yet.
32. I still dream of owning my walk in store.
33. I still have dreams that keep me awake at night.
34. I choose peace over relationships that cost me my self worth.
35. I’m learning to love myself, even on the difficult days.
36. I'm broke, discouraged, exhausted, and heartbroken, but I never stopped trying.
37. I’ve survived seasons I never thought I’d make it through.
38. My journey has been messy, but it has made me stronger.
39. I know my story isn’t over.
40. I recently told God that the best gift He will give me now is the gift of REST. I mean the kind my father is having right now.
41. So im currently working waiting to pay my debts off so I can cross.
42. That might actually be the end of my story but for now im still here so I write as much as I can.

At 45, my life may not look the way I imagined it would, but I’m still here. Still fighting. Still building. Still healing. Still believing. Still growing. Still trusting God. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
The most important thing is that you're still alive.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Pootle: 11:27am On Jul 14
all you need is one one kilo of cana all your life problem will be solved
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by anonimi:
Is the OP below your reason for being scared of marriage?

Meanwhile the 25 in your above OP indicates you are a woman despite your SIRchiBOY moniker. How do we know you are not just a balablu, bulaba attention seeker huh

Sirchiboy:
You see poor married people blaming God or devil for their problem.
They are the cause of their poverty.
I know a man that started working at the age of 25.
He worked for 12 years before he married.
He had only NCE.

Instead of him to upgrade to degree for better opportunity.

He remain in that position.
That 12 years working as a single man.
He didnt buy any single assest to his name.
I dont blame him because he is from a polygamous family.
Instead of him to marry someone much better than him.
He still went to marry a 21 or 23 years old girl from the same polygamous with no job or handwork.
or education ....
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by deebrain(m): 11:29am On Jul 14
You are like 70% of people of that age. And it is generally not your fault.

This country and it's policies have a lot to play.

But keep grinding. You will get there.

If I tell you that there are people you think are in millions of naira that are having this same situation.... You go shock. Dem dey for banks plenty.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by kpankpangolo: 11:29am On Jul 14
Today 45, tomorrow 36, another day 29. I don’t know your age and don’t care to. If you truly are 45; you, MrCork and Kalulu44 should battle things out to win the crown of Agbaya 1 of Nairaland. As them born una join this forum, una suppose wear crown.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by BrickandLace(f): 11:29am On Jul 14
SeeWahala:
So you want him to be only DREAMING of being rich? shocked

Some Nigerians can be unknowingly wicked with their advices sha undecided
Na wa oh...
Please educate yourself about accessing the quantum field.
The quantum field is more real than your waking hours simulation which you call your reality.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Mattswaggz: 11:30am On Jul 14
MONEY247:
So what I wrote is fairy tales...

Ok suggest a solution
Yep...that character you added with the inscription in it on your last line only exists in fairy tales.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by IamAtAnger: 11:30am On Jul 14
You dey call am brother?... u nor read number 8? Man dey be baddie?
Sonnobax15:
lipsrsealed
Bro sirchiboy,tho you're way older than me cuz I'm just in my early 30's but the only thing I've got to say to you is that--"Please don't give up"

Back in 2018,there was this man who was in his early 40's then that was working with us in the bakery I used to work at back then. This dude happened t be a graduate and everytime he spoke up, y'all need to see how he was disrespected by the other workers. Some were even mocking him or wasting away his time going to school. Personally,I never joined them but I was always around him to console him and gave him reasonyto believe all hope was not lost.

Last time I saw him was last year,the dude was already looking okay as he was lucky to find his feet and was working with MTN already. We spoke for few minutes and reminisced on the old times we spent together.

So,my brother sirchiboy,no give up.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by QuinModah(f): 11:30am On Jul 14
I'm really glad you shared this. Reading your list hit me hard—in a good way—because it's so raw and honest. At 45 (almost), laying it all out like that, the messy parts right next to the resilient ones, takes real courage. Most people your age are still pretending on social media that everything is perfect. You didn't. You just told the truth.

You're not "behind." You're not a failure for still carrying debts, fears, or unfinished dreams. Life doesn't hand out report cards at certain ages. Some people hit the "traditional" milestones early and still feel empty inside. You've been through real fires—betrayal, business crashes, depression, anxiety, raising yourself while now caring for your mom, pushing through university in final year while rebuilding. That’s not weakness. That’s steel most people never develop.

The fact that you still pray, still dream of that walk-in store, still choose peace over toxic relationships, still learn English daily even when you're exhausted… those aren’t small things. They’re proof you haven’t given up on yourself. You run from red flags because you’ve learned the hard way what they cost. You love your own company because you’ve had to become your own safe place. That’s growth, not flaw.

And yes, being broke, discouraged, heartbroken, and still showing up? That’s the part that makes me respect you. A lot of people quit when it gets that heavy. You’re still here, still fighting your way out of debt so you can “cross,” still believing your story isn’t over. That matters. Deeply.

You don’t have to be a “baddie,” a world traveler, or someone’s priority right now to be worthy. You’re worthy exactly as you are—someone who keeps choosing to build, heal, and trust God even on the days when hope feels lost. Rest is a beautiful prayer, and I hope you get seasons of it without it having to mean the end. You’ve already survived seasons you didn’t think you would. That same strength is still in you.

Your journey is messy, yes. But it’s also meaningful. Keep writing it. Keep pushing. The next chapter can still surprise you—in good ways.

You’re not alone in this, even if it feels that way sometimes. Rooting for you, truly. One day at a time. 💛
Sirchiboy:
I’ll be turning 45 in October, and I’m not ashamed to admit that….

1. I can’t drive.
2. I don’t have a car.
3. I’ve been single for years.
4. I’ve never been on a plane.
5. I don’t have an international passport.
6. I run a business, but I still struggle financially.
7. I’m still scared of marriage and commitment.
8. I’m not a “baddie” (I tried, but it isn’t me).
9. I still battle with my weight and body image.
10. I love staying indoors and enjoy my own company.
11. People have judged me before they got to know me.
12. I’ve been on my own since I was young, and life has taught me hard lessons.
13. I’ve never been to a club.
14. I’ve never drank alcohol.
15. I’m so scared of relationships that I walk away as soon as I see serious red flags.
16. I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and self doubt.
17. I’ve cried myself to sleep more times than I can count.
18. My immune system isn’t the strongest.
19. I cry easily, especially when I’m overwhelmed or frustrated.
20. My English isn’t perfect, but I keep learning every day.
21. I’ve lost my hope, and life has never been the same.
22. I take care of my mother as much as I can.
23. My business has crashed before, and I got into millions of naira in debt. I’m still fighting my way out.
24. I’ve been betrayed by people I genuinely trusted.
25. Since my last relationship, I’ve never really been someone’s priority. I always seem to attract emotionally unavailable men or men who are already committed. I RUN.
26. I questioned myself more times than I’d like to admit.
27. I pray more than most people know.
28. I’m in my final year at the university, and I’m proud I didn’t give up.
29. I started my business with very little and kept pushing despite setbacks.
30. I don’t own my dream house yet.
31. I don’t have everything I want yet.
32. I still dream of owning my walk in store.
33. I still have dreams that keep me awake at night.
34. I choose peace over relationships that cost me my self worth.
35. I’m learning to love myself, even on the difficult days.
36. I'm broke, discouraged, exhausted, and heartbroken, but I never stopped trying.
37. I’ve survived seasons I never thought I’d make it through.
38. My journey has been messy, but it has made me stronger.
39. I know my story isn’t over.
40. I recently told God that the best gift He will give me now is the gift of REST. I mean the kind my father is having right now.
41. So im currently working waiting to pay my debts off so I can cross.
42. That might actually be the end of my story but for now im still here so I write as much as I can.

At 45, my life may not look the way I imagined it would, but I’m still here. Still fighting. Still building. Still healing. Still believing. Still growing. Still trusting God. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by peleson1: 11:31am On Jul 14
Sirchiboy:
I’ll be turning 45 in October, and I’m not ashamed to admit that….

1. I can’t drive.
2. I don’t have a car.
3. I’ve been single for years.
4. I’ve never been on a plane.
5. I don’t have an international passport.
6. I run a business, but I still struggle financially.
7. I’m still scared of marriage and commitment.
8. I’m not a “baddie” (I tried, but it isn’t me).
9. I still battle with my weight and body image.
10. I love staying indoors and enjoy my own company.
11. People have judged me before they got to know me.
12. I’ve been on my own since I was young, and life has taught me hard lessons.
13. I’ve never been to a club.
14. I’ve never drank alcohol.
15. I’m so scared of relationships that I walk away as soon as I see serious red flags.
16. I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and self doubt.
17. I’ve cried myself to sleep more times than I can count.
18. My immune system isn’t the strongest.
19. I cry easily, especially when I’m overwhelmed or frustrated.
20. My English isn’t perfect, but I keep learning every day.
21. I’ve lost my hope, and life has never been the same.
22. I take care of my mother as much as I can.
23. My business has crashed before, and I got into millions of naira in debt. I’m still fighting my way out.
24. I’ve been betrayed by people I genuinely trusted.
25. Since my last relationship, I’ve never really been someone’s priority. I always seem to attract emotionally unavailable men or men who are already committed. I RUN.
26. I questioned myself more times than I’d like to admit.
27. I pray more than most people know.
28. I’m in my final year at the university, and I’m proud I didn’t give up.
29. I started my business with very little and kept pushing despite setbacks.
30. I don’t own my dream house yet.
31. I don’t have everything I want yet.
32. I still dream of owning my walk in store.
33. I still have dreams that keep me awake at night.
34. I choose peace over relationships that cost me my self worth.
35. I’m learning to love myself, even on the difficult days.
36. I'm broke, discouraged, exhausted, and heartbroken, but I never stopped trying.
37. I’ve survived seasons I never thought I’d make it through.
38. My journey has been messy, but it has made me stronger.
39. I know my story isn’t over.
40. I recently told God that the best gift He will give me now is the gift of REST. I mean the kind my father is having right now.
41. So im currently working waiting to pay my debts off so I can cross.
42. That might actually be the end of my story but for now im still here so I write as much as I can.

At 45, my life may not look the way I imagined it would, but I’m still here. Still fighting. Still building. Still healing. Still believing. Still growing. Still trusting God. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
As far as you are grinding, continue and some day ,you will have everything you dream of.

Crossing is not even the best because you really do not know how worse that place is if it's even worth it or not.
Mind you , the angels came to this earth and refused to go back so there must be something here on earth for everyone .

Get pregnant and give birth .


I thought you were a man ,I wanted to advice you differently.


Also location matters . Look for a suitable location if you are in a not too good location or city
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Image123(m): 11:31am On Jul 14
What do you mean by rest? Hope it's not death? Na person wey give up lose oh.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by tonididdy(m): 11:32am On Jul 14
Sirchiboy:
I’ll be turning 45 in October, and I’m not ashamed to admit that….

1. I can’t drive.
2. I don’t have a car.
3. I’ve been single for years.
4. I’ve never been on a plane.
5. I don’t have an international passport.
6. I run a business, but I still struggle financially.
7. I’m still scared of marriage and commitment.
8. I’m not a “baddie” (I tried, but it isn’t me).
9. I still battle with my weight and body image.
10. I love staying indoors and enjoy my own company.
11. People have judged me before they got to know me.
12. I’ve been on my own since I was young, and life has taught me hard lessons.
13. I’ve never been to a club.
14. I’ve never drank alcohol.
15. I’m so scared of relationships that I walk away as soon as I see serious red flags.
16. I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and self doubt.
17. I’ve cried myself to sleep more times than I can count.
18. My immune system isn’t the strongest.
19. I cry easily, especially when I’m overwhelmed or frustrated.
20. My English isn’t perfect, but I keep learning every day.
21. I’ve lost my hope, and life has never been the same.
22. I take care of my mother as much as I can.
23. My business has crashed before, and I got into millions of naira in debt. I’m still fighting my way out.
24. I’ve been betrayed by people I genuinely trusted.
25. Since my last relationship, I’ve never really been someone’s priority. I always seem to attract emotionally unavailable men or men who are already committed. I RUN.
26. I questioned myself more times than I’d like to admit.
27. I pray more than most people know.
28. I’m in my final year at the university, and I’m proud I didn’t give up.
29. I started my business with very little and kept pushing despite setbacks.
30. I don’t own my dream house yet.
31. I don’t have everything I want yet.
32. I still dream of owning my walk in store.
33. I still have dreams that keep me awake at night.
34. I choose peace over relationships that cost me my self worth.
35. I’m learning to love myself, even on the difficult days.
36. I'm broke, discouraged, exhausted, and heartbroken, but I never stopped trying.
37. I’ve survived seasons I never thought I’d make it through.
38. My journey has been messy, but it has made me stronger.
39. I know my story isn’t over.
40. I recently told God that the best gift He will give me now is the gift of REST. I mean the kind my father is having right now.
41. So im currently working waiting to pay my debts off so I can cross.
42. That might actually be the end of my story but for now im still here so I write as much as I can.

At 45, my life may not look the way I imagined it would, but I’m still here. Still fighting. Still building. Still healing. Still believing. Still growing. Still trusting God. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
If you willing to have a serious relationship with a committed bini boy.
DM me
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by CapitalLens: 11:33am On Jul 14
You attract unavailable men or men who are already committed. Seems you copied and pasted without editing or you be Gabriel?
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by fati2001(m): 11:34am On Jul 14
Make I just add 5 for you make u enter 50 years old man.
Don't worry maybe the Lord is preparing you to be the Abraham of this generation.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by fati2001(m): 11:34am On Jul 14
That's a man with airy balloons below the waist.


CapitalLens:
You attract unavailable men or men who are already committed. Seems you copied and pasted without editing or you be Gabriel?
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Kevineleven(m): 11:35am On Jul 14
Life is enough, money cannot buy that.
Check the hospitals , you will be grateful to God.
Force yourself into relationship, get a lady in her 30s to 35.
Stop overthinking, you only live once ,
Get close to God, Christianity recommended.
Finally, exercise every morning, do push ups and squats, eat well , love and take care of yourself, the devil will send people to trigger you into depression every single day, set boundaries, protect your energy.
Meditate and clear your mind.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by socoharley: 11:36am On Jul 14
Sirchiboy:
I’ll be turning 45 in October, and I’m not ashamed to admit that….

1. I can’t drive.
2. I don’t have a car.
3. I’ve been single for years.
4. I’ve never been on a plane.
5. I don’t have an international passport.
6. I run a business, but I still struggle financially.
7. I’m still scared of marriage and commitment.
8. I’m not a “baddie” (I tried, but it isn’t me).
9. I still battle with my weight and body image.
10. I love staying indoors and enjoy my own company.
11. People have judged me before they got to know me.
12. I’ve been on my own since I was young, and life has taught me hard lessons.
13. I’ve never been to a club.
14. I’ve never drank alcohol.
15. I’m so scared of relationships that I walk away as soon as I see serious red flags.
16. I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and self doubt.
17. I’ve cried myself to sleep more times than I can count.
18. My immune system isn’t the strongest.
19. I cry easily, especially when I’m overwhelmed or frustrated.
20. My English isn’t perfect, but I keep learning every day.
21. I’ve lost my hope, and life has never been the same.
22. I take care of my mother as much as I can.
23. My business has crashed before, and I got into millions of naira in debt. I’m still fighting my way out.
24. I’ve been betrayed by people I genuinely trusted.
25. Since my last relationship, I’ve never really been someone’s priority. I always seem to attract emotionally unavailable men or men who are already committed. I RUN.
26. I questioned myself more times than I’d like to admit.
27. I pray more than most people know.
28. I’m in my final year at the university, and I’m proud I didn’t give up.
29. I started my business with very little and kept pushing despite setbacks.
30. I don’t own my dream house yet.
31. I don’t have everything I want yet.
32. I still dream of owning my walk in store.
33. I still have dreams that keep me awake at night.
34. I choose peace over relationships that cost me my self worth.
35. I’m learning to love myself, even on the difficult days.
36. I'm broke, discouraged, exhausted, and heartbroken, but I never stopped trying.
37. I’ve survived seasons I never thought I’d make it through.
38. My journey has been messy, but it has made me stronger.
39. I know my story isn’t over.
40. I recently told God that the best gift He will give me now is the gift of REST. I mean the kind my father is having right now.
41. So im currently working waiting to pay my debts off so I can cross.
42. That might actually be the end of my story but for now im still here so I write as much as I can.

At 45, my life may not look the way I imagined it would, but I’m still here. Still fighting. Still building. Still healing. Still believing. Still growing. Still trusting God. And for that, I’ll always be grateful.
Please clarify number 25?
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by Godfullsam(m): 11:37am On Jul 14
You are not alone in all that you mentioned.

Me sef no get international passport. I don't even think I will be needing it anyway.

Don't see yourself as been worst off bro, there are older people going through lots of more depressing challenges.
You should even thank God you have good health.

I wish you everything you wish yourself sirchiboy.
Re: I’ll Be Turning 45 In October, And I’m Not Ashamed To Admit That…. by iwaeda: 11:37am On Jul 14
No problem sir. The man that started kentucky fried chicken, started at 68. God's time is the best. grin grin grin grin grin angry
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