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Just gotta act like all is well. Nobody knows the pain behind every smile

Maybe some days I'll get out of it.

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God is the answer... i rather turn to God that tell man a thing

Its the suicidal thoughts though, i keep feeling like a failure and somehow end up ruining every good thing that comes my way, shut everyone out and put on the most beautiful smile to get people to thinking "oh this dude has the best life"

No one really truly knows me and i guess loosing my mum compounded everything, I would be crossing the bridge on my way home and be like "what if i ended it now?". The number of times i tried stabbing myself with a knife at night, I'd go 5 maybe 6 days and not eat anything i thought "maybe i'd starve to end it".The serial movies became my best friend, my life was all about the fantasy,felt i was going to sleep and never wake up sometimes i try not to, everyone else around me seemed to have happy lives, and no one cared enough to even ask how ur day was

But i maintained that smile every single day because to the outside world, my life was perfect and only my mind knew how sad and lonely and messed up the thoughts in my head were

A lot of folks are depressed, more so the ones you think live this fulfilled life, posting pictures daily on social media of what looks to be the "perfect" life

Say hi to someone today, try and put a smile on someones face cus you never know how a good gesture can save a life

Tanks man....nice 1

stan241:
Its the suicidal thoughts though, i keep feeling like a failure and somehow end up ruining every good thing that comes my way, shut everyone out and put on the most beautiful smile to get people to thinking "oh this dude has the best life"

No one really truly knows me and i guess loosing my mum compounded everything, I would be crossing the bridge on my way home and be like "what if i ended it now?". The number of times i tried stabbing myself with a knife at night, I'd go 5 maybe 6 days and not eat anything i thought "maybe i'd starve to end it".The serial movies became my best friend, my life was all about the fantasy,felt i was going to sleep and never wake up sometimes i try not to, everyone else around me seemed to have happy lives, and no one cared enough to even ask how ur day was

But i maintained that smile every single day because to the outside world, my life was perfect and only my mind knew how sad and lonely and messed up the thoughts in my head were

A lot of folks are depressed, more so the ones you think live this fulfilled life, posting pictures daily on social media of what looks to be the "perfect" life

Say hi to someone today, try and put a smile on someones face cus you never know how a good gesture can save a life

Nice one

priiince:
Mtchwww! This one na oyinbo thing o jare, I can't fit imagine say somebody like akpos go get depression.

You can just imagine what this one is saying? With the many others that will agree and comment like wise

This is one of the things keeping people suffering from depression to come out.It is not easy especially here in Nigeria, with many people still in the ice age.

chrystalz:
I know this is a very serious case but with tv series men,depression go run,just mk sire i hav enough battery on ur laptop/phone download loads of tv series,most esp comedy watch till you sleep,wake watch sleep again,depression go run,it has helped me i know this because i suffer from it as well,it cud be of help to you out thee reading

hmmmm movies don't solve depression,if you run. Out of battery,what else.

Charlie Brown, the cartoon character said , " My depression is having depression"

That should be clinical depression

Bn battling my depression behind closed doors' of course have had series of attempted but failed suicide wen I got to my breaking point''

Yes, the blanket of terrible fear and despair closes in and suffocates me regularly, and at times I feel like a dark and deadly poison is coursing through my veins tainting every cell in my body, but there are in between times which are not so bad. After all I am still going to work, still smiling, still laughing, sleeping fine. Sometimes things feel okay and the weight upon my chest seems to ease a little. I start to think positively; dare to imagine things I could do to make life better, to become the person I would like to be.
But this glimmer of hope is what my inner demons have been waiting for. They seize upon my transient happiness, transforming relief into guilt as they gleefully brandish at me this clear evidence that I am fine, and I feel so foolish and ashamed for letting myself think I was depressed, for feeling so desperate.

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I think at a point in tyme, we go through that depressive stage,the funniest part is nobody sees it,just u, that feel it alone,fine we smile act like all is well,but when I loose sleep, then I know it's on,no amount of movie or empathy,its just u comforting yourself,soothe yourself with the adage all is well. It is well thou.

nice one

Hmmmmmm, nice one, have been there before, thank God I got over it with the help of my friends and family

Depression comes with the feeling of being unfulfilled most of the time. At a younger age, one has got this dream and fantasies about how one's life will pan out but the reality may not be the case and then you realise time has gone and you really haven't acheived as much.

The Nigeria economy and situation is not helping much.

But I think keeping busy kind of ameliorates the situation.

maryhaam:
I think at a point in tyme, we go through that depressive stage,the funniest part is nobody sees it,just u, that feel it alone,fine we smile act like all is well,but when I loose sleep, then I know it's on,no amount of movie or empathy,its just u comforting yourself,soothe yourself with the adage all is well. It is well thou.

just spoke my mind' its been a terrifying and excruciating battle though..I got to a point where One mindset morphs seamlessly into another. Fear,
terror, the gut-wrenching certainty that life cannot go on, that I cannot exist anymore through the pain, give way instead to the terrible guilt that gnaws at me all the time, to the slightly more subtle but constant sense of dread that is so familiar I can’t imagine life without it, to the knowledge that I will just carry on because that’s what I have been doing for so long... Most times I will take pills and resolve to fate' my room is filled with anti depress ants

Nice one OP, thanks for sharing...

stan241:
Its the suicidal thoughts though, i keep feeling like a failure and somehow end up ruining every good thing that comes my way, shut everyone out and put on the most beautiful smile to get people to thinking "oh this dude has the best life"

No one really truly knows me and i guess loosing my mum compounded everything, I would be crossing the bridge on my way home and be like "what if i ended it now?". The number of times i tried stabbing myself with a knife at night, I'd go 5 maybe 6 days and not eat anything i thought "maybe i'd starve to end it".The serial movies became my best friend, my life was all about the fantasy,felt i was going to sleep and never wake up sometimes i try not to, everyone else around me seemed to have happy lives, and no one cared enough to even ask how ur day was

But i maintained that smile every single day because to the outside world, my life was perfect and only my mind knew how sad and lonely and messed up the thoughts in my head were

A lot of folks are depressed, more so the ones you think live this fulfilled life, posting pictures daily on social media of what looks to be the "perfect" life

Say hi to someone today, try and put a smile on someones face cus you never know how a good gesture can save a life

wow, nice one

Georgekyrian:
Weed @ work...

weed kills the depression

amaraedec:
just spoke my mind' its been a terrifying and excruciating battle though..I got to a point where One mindset morphs seamlessly into another. Fear,
terror, the gut-wrenching certainty that life cannot go on, that I cannot exist anymore through the pain, give way instead to the terrible guilt that gnaws at me all the time, to the slightly more subtle but constant sense of dread that is so familiar I can’t imagine life without it, to the knowledge that I will just carry on because that’s what I have been doing for so long... Most times I will take pills and resolve to fate' my room is filled with anti depress ants

I feel your pain, mine is frustration life and al,i look so happy,that you won't believe am depressed,my course actually made me believe a doctor can't treat itself,the only thing that make me smile is been alone,sleep n continue thinking,am actually getting out of it,just ok again,maybe when I see situation, I will just be grateful for no cause.i can't still pinpoint why am depressed,that the baffling part.may we all be happy like we pretend to be.

ikechukwu354:
weed kills the depression

Where is the source of your claim? Has it been scientifically proven?

Please don't misinform people on the thread.

Thanks!

Depression is a bastard. It made me suicidal at a stage in my life but God helped me. What pains me is my occasional relapse into it, though not strong enuf for suicidal mood. I hate depression

Seun:
The most important message is to see a psychiatrist.

Not Nigerian psychiatrist. I don't want them asking who broke up with me.

maryhaam:
I feel your pain, mine is frustration life and al,i look so happy,that you won't believe am depressed,my course actually made me believe a doctor can't treat itself,the only thing that make me smile is been alone,sleep n continue thinking,am actually getting out of it,just ok again,maybe when I see situation, I will just be grateful for no cause.i can't still pinpoint why am depressed,that the baffling part.may we all be happy like we pretend to be.

I think we need each others help especially knowing that someone else feels your pains.. Kindly chat me up on amaraedec@yahoo.com I got a lot to share with you while I solicite for help

eleojo23 please can I copy your comment to facebook?

amaraedec:
I think we need each others help especially knowing that someone else feels your pains.. Kindly chat me up on amaraedec@yahoo.com I got a lot to share with you while I solicite for help

have sent you a mail.

joywendy:
eleojo23 please can I copy your comment to facebook?

You can. Just link it back to Nairaland.

THE PROBLEM IS THAT WHO IS WILLING TO LISTEN TO YOU?

EVERY BODY THINK THAT YOU ARE ONE HAPPY PERSON WITH NO PROBLEM AT ALL AND THE WORST OF IT BRING THERE OWN PROBLEM ON YOU ( ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE THE LISTENING TYPE)

WHEN I AM DEPRESS, I TRY TO BRING IT DOWN BY EITHER OBSERVING NATURE, OR TRYING TO KEEP MYSELF ACTIVE, BY STAYING LATE AT WORK OR EVEN PLAYING VIDEO GAMES AND WATCH SOME COOL FIRMS ( ANIMATION IS ONE OF THE BEST,)

BUT YOU CANT JUST GET RAID OF DEPRESSION,

maryhaam:
have sent you a mail.

alright' you may check your mail as well' v replied

Nice one. Thanks

After two pages the thread dies again...

joywendy:
After two pages the thread dies again...

Yea cos it's not about giving a head or....... That's Nairaland for you