Good day nairaland.
As I write this... I am depressed, simply depressed.. If suicide led to heaven mayb i would have been a victim.
Truly itz nt everyone who smiles that is happy.
MY story
I was born into a deeper life family 20yrs ago.. And I can say i regret being born into deeper life.. I would ave preferred been converted there than being born there.
My travails started in secondary school.. Wen i failed to attend a fellowship, my mum talked harshly, slapped me an said i was a dishes disgrace.. Just because i failed to attend a school fellowship.. And I knew that I wasn't a bad kid.. Jes the gentle type.. Since then it has been bad... When others celebrate their mum.. I can't.. I am as far from my parents as anything.. Jes because they are deeperlifers.. I can't seat comfortably with my parents.. Cos of principles. Next was the battle concerning trousers.. She woke me up one black night with a thundering slap over a slim trouser.. Imagine dat was @16.. I cried and cried dat day.. Dat God made a mistake borning me in deeper life... Jes because i walked with a girl.. She banned me from going out..
Even at a young age... Threatened me that she"ll disown me if I marry a lady who wears wigs, trousers.. Omg.. Now.. I am in the university.. I never want to go home. I hate home.. I am depressed.. So so depressed.. My dad didn't send me any cash for a month cos a friend told him I failed to attend a midweek service.. Imagine.. Yet i am not rebellious. I know fellow guys like me who had big problems with their children but they were rebellious.. But i am not
I feel depressed writing this.. Spirituality without love is a disaster.. Aw i wish i wasn't born to a deeper life's family.. Itz a curse.. I am tired.. Itz threat all the time. I am not close to my parents.. Imagine.. Seems i should just die.. I now see my mum as a enemy.. Anytime i see her i am sad.. Talks too much about simple things in a bad manner quoting Bible over needless things.. Watching ball outside is a sin.. Visiting friends is a nono.. Cos they are highly placed in the church.. Yet no one to share my burdens with.. So sad... Yet they think i am happy..i know many out there experience something similar but are helples.. Oh God have mercy on me.. Itz calamitous to be the child of a fanatic especially if you don't wanna be a fanatic also.... Advice pls.. What can I do? So so depressed.. Feel like dieing to be reborn elsewhere

Sorry about your predicament bro, my only advice to you is to report your parents to the pastor in charge of the deeper life branch day attend, lay all your grievances to him so dat he can talk to your parents on your behalf, hopefully they will treat you wit respect, but if they don't you have to do it in a rough way by your self, you let's dem kno dat you no more a baby, it's not gonna be easy but trust me you will get your freedom from dem...

O.p take heart, family sometimes can be a cursel. What I would advise you is to stand for your right, religion is not suppose to be a do and die affair. Is not about rigorous worshiping that will take you to heaven but rather by your heart.

You have a life of your own, dont not let you're parents kill your happiness. Cos the truth is, everybody will carry his own load. Be couragoues and live your life, dont live for anybody discrediting your life or dictating how you should live it.

God doesn't know religion, all he knows is a loyal and faithful servant. Sit your parents down and explain things to them. If they disown you, what makes you think God won't take you in? Look at the tiny birds in the heaven, they dont work for food or shelter but they are well taken care of. Follow a rightful path and God will lift you up. I understand your pains perfectly my dear, but I think its high time you stop existing and start living.
I pray God gives you the wisdom and strenght to overcome your depression.

Op I know how you feel, your story is just like mine, except it's my dad that bothers us about going to church. He literally took out the fun in serving God . I use to be suicidal too. My past posts on nairaland can prove it. All these has changed for me since I found a new church where there's no condemning, but love, pure undiluted love from christ.a place where my spiritual eyes has been opened to see spiritual realities and all the wonderful plans God has for me. The best thing to do right now is pray. Cus prayer changes everything. But you'll have to be equipped effectively for that. Can you drop your number so that I'll contact you? There's a solution for you my dear. Don't give up.

Op try to endure till you graduate then when you know you can stand on your own, give them your terms and don't let the threat of being disowned scare you. No reasonable parent does that.

blueandbirds:
Sorry about your predicament bro, my only advice to you is to report your parents to the pastor in charge of the deeper life branch day attend, lay all your grievances to him so dat he can talk to your parents on your behalf, hopefully they will treat you wit respect, but if they don't you have to do it in a rough way by your self, you let's dem kno dat you no more a baby, it's not gonna be easy but trust me you will get your freedom from dem...

tanks alot... The first option.. Is a no no.. It seems itz normal.. Spoke with youth pastor.. Only said itz "out of fear".. But i wonder.. I dnt look like a badboy or one who will

I suggest you try to play along for a while if all other means fails; Because in they are your parents and to some extent they cater for you. Just like you said that they denied you of your regular allowance in school.

God forbid, if they choose to disown you , how would you complete your education. inotherwords , since you still remain under their caprice sand authority, I think it is prudent to submit to them will.


However, when you've become fully fledged you can toe your personal religious inclinations.

Mind you, that is only if they remain adamant and all attempt to bring them into understanding fails.

Hmmm

This is babaric

Am Lucky

Pray about about it. fast and pray for at least 3days. Cry to God about it and i tell u, he will answer.

Sorry about that man, the only way now since you never revolted long ago is to endure a little more, finish your university education, get a job, then you can start up a new life.

One more thing, don't do anything you might regret in future, just be patient...

Pele

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Hmmmm

Op..parnts wahala cn be annoying...bt plss suicide is not an option. If only u cn raise money by urself, wuld advise u to ignore dem for atleast a month nd u will see only dem will cum lookng for u nd dey will be in the right mood for u to pour it out 2 dem.

This is serious but bro, you need Grace

Embrace the pain and sorrow. If u can't rebel against them then you have to play to the gallery to get what you want. Either of these 2 ways is the only way...

Cry to God about it and i tell u, he will answer.

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Ginaz:
O.p take heart, family sometimes can be a cursel. What I would advise you is to stand for your right, religion is not suppose to be a do and die affair. Is not about rigorous worshiping that will take you to heaven but rather by your heart.

You have a life of your own, dont not let you're parents kill your happiness. Cos the truth is, everybody will carry his own load. Be couragoues and live your life, dont live for anybody discrediting your life or dictating how you should live it.

God doesn't know religion, all he knows is a loyal and faithful servant. Sit your parents down and explain things to them. If they disown you, what makes you think God won't take you in? Look at the tiny birds in the heaven, they dont work for food or shelter but they are well taken care of. Follow a rightful path and God will lift you up. I understand your pains perfectly my dear, but I think its high time you stop existing and start living.
I pray God gives you the wisdom and strenght to overcome your depression.

luv u plenry 4 this