am worried that I caused my mother to get cancer and die. When I went through a mental health break down, I told my mother in anger and frustration that I want her to get cancer and die. I also told her she won't see my future kids. Also, I bullied a woman who I believed would have bullied me, and I did not like her behaviour - so I told her that her mother would die young, as well as bullying her. Two of my past school mates who bullied me, I sent them a message saying that one will die young, and the other one should be ashamed of herself for how she treated me and that her dead father would be ashamed of her. Also, because I hated Rihanna the popstar at the time - when her grandmother died I tweeted her a horrible message saying "she is dead, she won't have to see your ugly face anymore". Also, a horrible man was harassing me as I did not sleep with him so I told him that it is good that his dad is dead, so he would not have to see his disappointment of a son. But I did apologise to my mother, I truly did not mean what I said. Furthermore, I regret all that bad things I did during the break down - that is not me and no one in real life would believe I could have done such. I did all of that in 2 years that I had a mental health break down and ended in a psychiatric hospital When my mother got cancer, I BEGGED God. I pleaded and repented. I had faith that she would be healed. I BEGGED God, constantly crying, fasting, begging, going to prayer services and so on When I said those mean things to my mother it was out of anger, I did not really want that.. but when I said by faith she will be healed and will not die it was out of truth and what I truly wanted, I BEGGED God. I repented, i fasted, I used anointing oil, I prayed, I went to different churches, we saw a herbalist, we saw doctors , we did everything... yet she still died. I feel like it is my fault. The girl I told her that her mother would die young is alive, healthy and having a great time with her daughter and granddaughter, and her daughter (the girl I told her that her mother would die young) is succeeding a lot and keeps making jokes about illness and death. Like she is trying to rub it in, she always posts images of her and her mother (but she does not know that my mother died) Please don't judge me, just advise me

Pls give yourself a break. You are not responsible for your mother's death.

how are you so sure?

did i not kill her with my words?

Benbisco:
Pls give yourself a break. You are not responsible for your mother's death.

2morogobeta:
how are you so sure?

did i not kill her with my words?

Why are you so emotionally depressed? Abeg stop all this repetition.

It's because you do t believe in God, and don't know who He is.

You don't even know how this world runs

did i kill my mummy with my words?

iamgenius:
Why are you so emotionally depressed? Abeg stop all this repetition.

It's because you do t believe in God, and don't know who He is.

You don't even know how this world runs

2morogobeta:
did i kill my mummy with my words?

How possible is that? No, you didn't. She died a natural way. Don't ask this question again.

You need to know about your Creator. Why are we created? Why are we afflicted with misfortune? Why are we created? I'm sure you do t know the answers to these questions, that's why you are thinking this way.

but i told her she will get cancer and die, and she got cancer and died?

iamgenius:
How possible is that? No, you didn't. She died a natural way. Don't ask this question again.

You need to know about your Creator. Why are we created? Why are we afflicted with misfortune? Why are we created? I'm sure you do t know the answers to these questions, that's why you are thinking this way.

2morogobeta:
but i told her she will get cancer and die, and she got cancer and died?

I think you said it out of anger. And it has already been in the will of God that she'll get cancer. Even if you didn't say it, she'll still get cancer.

Let's assume she fought with someone before she died, and the person told her she'll deal with her. People will still say the person afflicted her with cancer.

yes i said it out of anger

but when she got ill, i said with my true self she will live. i said she will live
i aplogised
i repented
i prayed
i fasted
we had a herbalist
we had churches
we had pastors
we had best hospital medication

we did everything... i even said God should reduce my future success so she can stay alive..

i remember times in church i will be begging and crying out to God, my eyes were blood shot red.. we did the most, yet she still died and now im a motherless child

iamgenius:
I think you said it out of anger. And it has already been in the will of God that she'll get cancer. Even if you didn't say it, she'll still get cancer.

Let's assume she fought with someone before she died, and the person told her she'll deal with her. People will still say the person afflicted her with cancer.

2morogobeta:
yes i said it out of anger

but when she got ill, i said with my true self she will live. i said she will live
i aplogised
i repented
i prayed
i fasted
we had a herbalist
we had churches
we had pastors
we had best hospital medication

we did everything... i even said God should reduce my future success so she can stay alive..

i remember times in church i will be begging and crying out to God, my eyes were blood shot red.. we did the most, yet she still died and now im a motherless child

You still don't believe in God Almighty. You need true faith in God, not I. Herbalist, pastors or churches or the things of this world. You are depressed coz your faith is only of this world.

I will take u serious if u can tell me what will happen to Buhari this year. Or else just stfu

iamgenius:
I think you said it out of anger. And it has already been in the will of God that she'll get cancer. Even if you didn't say it, she'll still get cancer.

Let's assume she fought with someone before she died, and the person told her she'll deal with her. People will still say the person afflicted her with cancer.

Your god is an evil genius. He dishes out cancer at free will and watches his creatures go through the pains and die horribly. what a loving god!

Religious attitude, had it been you were able to understand that curses are completely useless there wouldn't be any need for you to curse people at first,

Your ideology only goes with negative effects - Obviously useless beliefs has nothing good to offer

Benbisco:
Pls give yourself a break. You are not responsible for your mother's death.

Her mother is not dead. The girl is on drugs. She has like 5 monikers she uses to open the same threads about her dead mother.

2morogobeta:
did i kill my mummy with my words?

Yes you have. Although she is not dead now, but she will be as you keep killing her here.