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Happy Sunday,

This is Adeleke an introvert a Good man(Christian) talking in religion pov.because even tho I claim to be a Christian I engage in some non Christian secret act.That has affected me spiritually and physically they are despicable one of such is watching of porn
I want to be a real Christian[b][/b].
My life as been so wrapped up in hypocrity and pretense. You see I do things in a moderate way. I don't go to parties I don't have girlfriends etc. Outwardly I seem cool.
I lost my job recently and I believed I caused it because of the way I performed on the job. Sometimes somethings I do make me myself surprised on the job to the extent that I deny(been called a lair)
I was so forgetful on that job(banking) and was timid. I was always tensed up. I was drowned by the pressure on the job.
I became the talk of the organisation that I was limiting the progress of the bank.
The bank decided to let me go last month. On this basis.
This left me depressed because of the following reasons:
-I would have left the job voluntarily(re-signed)November 2019 when I was just under a. Month on the job I had already typed the resignation letter till I thought of the poverty in my family.

-I got another opportunity of the same nature in a better grade and organisation last December couldn't go for the invite because of the circumstance of where I worked(limited staff) and timidity fear of missing a day at work and excuse to give and also the thought of the quote a bed in hand is worth more than another in the bush.
-I got a chance to move to another branch, after much inquiry from people I wasn't convinced.
I stayed
-i had already spent my savings on a failed investment (Forex)
- I had taken a loan for a special purpose (family) which is a monthly repayment of 40k for 12months.

-i thought I was building a Godly relationship with a friend.(how does a jobless person build a relationship)
This depression made down because I thought of how poor my family is. I can't even dream of going to my my parents place. I knew how they were before I got the job I lost poverty is an understatement. Where they live is a den of cultist they are so much in there. if should go there It means I have lost hope in myself already considering the shame and troubles I will face from the cultist.
Been praying lately for God's mercy

I need help and advice on how to get back up and rescind the devil's voice and my myself a great person for God

Come and write articles for me. You'll have a sense of purpose. Activities to keep you engaged so you don't think and worry much. And good Renumeration

your case seems to be internal.everyone have internal battles they face. and everyone have or may have had secret sins.it does not stop you from being a child of God.God is acquinted with your struggles.i see you have issues with phobia and anxiety disorder.but you must man up and do something to help yourself.cry to God about your secret sins,tell him to help you overcome them.then start looking for another job.or start a small business.everything would be okay with you.you can always tell God your problems,hes always there to help you.

JumpByte:
Come and write articles for me. You'll have a sense of purpose. Activities to keep you engaged so you don't think and worry much. And good Renumeration

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Aladdin1:
your case seems to be internal.everyone have internal battles they face. and everyone have or may have had secret sins.it does not stop you from being a child of God.God is acquinted with your struggles.i see you have issues with phobia and anxiety disorder.but you must man up and do something to help yourself.cry to God about your secret sins,tell him to help you overcome them.then start looking for another job.or start a small business.everything would be okay with you.you can always tell God your problems,hes always there to help you.

I have cried several times I have not been able to stop.
Searching for job now is complicated.
No money to start a business

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Happy Sunday

I was so forgetful on that job(banking) and was timid. I was always tensed up. I was drowned by the pressure on the job.
I became the talk of the organisation that I was limiting the progress of the bank

Some things are distracting you which is making you to lose focus..

Take time out, try something new, reflect about what could be making you lose focus.

Your case is spiritual. Pray hard bro and try to attend programme organize my MFM. Forgetful in place of job is spiritual, I have experienced it but God saved me.

Adeleketj:
Happy Sunday,

This is Adeleke an introvert a Good man(Christian) talking in religion pov.because even tho I claim to be a Christian I engage in some non Christian secret act.That has affected me spiritually and physically they are despicable one of such is watching of porn
I want to be a real Christian[b][/b].
My life as been so wrapped up in hypocrity and pretense. You see I do things in a moderate way. I don't go to parties I don't have girlfriends etc. Outwardly I seem cool.
I lost my job recently and I believed I caused it because of the way I performed on the job. Sometimes somethings I do make me myself surprised on the job to the extent that I deny(been called a lair)
I was so forgetful on that job(banking) and was timid. I was always tensed up. I was drowned by the pressure on the job.
I became the talk of the organisation that I was limiting the progress of the bank.
The bank decided to let me go last month. On this basis.
This left me depressed because of the following reasons:
-I would have left the job voluntarily(re-signed)November 2019 when I was just under a. Month on the job I had already typed the resignation letter till I thought of the poverty in my family.

-I got another opportunity of the same nature in a better grade and organisation last December couldn't go for the invite because of the circumstance of where I worked(limited staff) and timidity fear of missing a day at work and excuse to give and also the thought of the quote a bed in hand is worth more than another in the bush.
-I got a chance to move to another branch, after much inquiry from people I wasn't convinced.
I stayed
-i had already spent my savings on a failed investment (Forex)
- I had taken a loan for a special purpose (family) which is a monthly repayment of 40k for 12months.

-i thought I was building a Godly relationship with a friend.(how does a jobless person build a relationship)
This depression made down because I thought of how poor my family is. I can't even dream of going to my my parents place. I knew how they were before I got the job I lost poverty is an understatement. Where they live is a den of cultist they are so much in there. if should go there It means I have lost hope in myself already considering the shame and troubles I will face from the cultist.
Been praying lately for God's mercy

I need help and advice on how to get back up and rescind the devil's voice and my myself a great person for God

Send me mail on nairaland or reach me here: openyoureyes3@yahoo.com let's discuss this

Lordsonn:
Your case is spiritual. Pray hard bro and try to attend programme organize my MFM. Forgetful in place of job is spiritual, I have experienced it but God saved me.

Must everything be related to spiritual?

Na so you people get imaginary enemies?

OpenYourEyes1:
Send me mail on nairaland or reach me here: openyoureyes3@yahoo.com let's discuss this

Ok

In all your human effort to succeed, please always keep GOD Almighty at the forefront of your mind, because let's face it... without GOD, nothing! - John 15:5

God "gives you power to get wealth" - Deuteronomy 8:18

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"Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
“Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." - Matthew 6:27-34






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Adeleketj:
Happy Sunday,

This is Adeleke an introvert a Good man(Christian) talking in religion pov.because even tho I claim to be a Christian I engage in some non Christian secret act.That has affected me spiritually and physically they are despicable one of such is watching of porn
I want to be a real Christian[b][/b].
My life as been so wrapped up in hypocrity and pretense. You see I do things in a moderate way. I don't go to parties I don't have girlfriends etc. Outwardly I seem cool.
I lost my job recently and I believed I caused it because of the way I performed on the job. Sometimes somethings I do make me myself surprised on the job to the extent that I deny(been called a lair)
I was so forgetful on that job(banking) and was timid. I was always tensed up. I was drowned by the pressure on the job.
I became the talk of the organisation that I was limiting the progress of the bank.
The bank decided to let me go last month. On this basis.
This left me depressed because of the following reasons:
-I would have left the job voluntarily(re-signed)November 2019 when I was just under a. Month on the job I had already typed the resignation letter till I thought of the poverty in my family.

-I got another opportunity of the same nature in a better grade and organisation last December couldn't go for the invite because of the circumstance of where I worked(limited staff) and timidity fear of missing a day at work and excuse to give and also the thought of the quote a bed in hand is worth more than another in the bush.
-I got a chance to move to another branch, after much inquiry from people I wasn't convinced.
I stayed
-i had already spent my savings on a failed investment (Forex)
- I had taken a loan for a special purpose (family) which is a monthly repayment of 40k for 12months.

-i thought I was building a Godly relationship with a friend.(how does a jobless person build a relationship)
This depression made down because I thought of how poor my family is. I can't even dream of going to my my parents place. I knew how they were before I got the job I lost poverty is an understatement. Where they live is a den of cultist they are so much in there. if should go there It means I have lost hope in myself already considering the shame and troubles I will face from the cultist.
Been praying lately for God's mercy

I need help and advice on how to get back up and rescind the devil's voice and my myself a great person for God