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Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 11:28am On Feb 01, 2019 |
I have to avoid both My cult and other opposition cult Chai Correcting a mistake is hard |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 11:06am On Feb 01, 2019 |
Thanks all Do have a GReaT month Will try my best to turn the tides I can't move out of my current location due to some certain circumstances It's going to be difficult pulling out Am pretty popular Respected by my members I think I know how they going to react There's only one way out I know of Death Will try my best though Church , gradually reduce cult activities and time spent Slowly drift back Maybe I might go unnoticed and without represial I pray it's worth it |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 5:31pm On Jan 29, 2019 |
osothermal: Please how did you do it? 1 Like |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 9:24am On Jan 29, 2019 |
1StopRudeness: Thanks for this I just needed someone to pour out my heart to 'Nobody is normal' Thanks |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 9:22am On Jan 29, 2019 |
ValCon888: This kind of comments made me hate myself , hate other pple as well Why can't you put yourself in my shoes and comment like a reasonable fellow Few kinds words would have done a lot of good than this There are others like me out there who want to come out But pple like you are also out there frustrating their efforts 12 Likes |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 9:19am On Jan 29, 2019 |
Abjay97:Thank you |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 9:19am On Jan 29, 2019 |
sherylbakky:Thank you bro 3 Likes |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 9:18am On Jan 29, 2019 |
Athena4: You are correct Maybe I might take your recommendation |
Family / Re: Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 9:18am On Jan 29, 2019 |
jasonguru: She's going to make it worse Thanks for your input 1 Like |
Family / Help I Am A Cultist by sadtrut: 8:42am On Jan 29, 2019 |
Hello nairalanders, Welcome to my story I am a male in my early 20's I have had a not too good life Though I have never lacked financially Except cos I spend foolishly I grew up shy, lonely and afraid of everything I hated my body shape , structure ,posture and gait I still do I got ridicule for everything I did I hated my parents as well cos I felt I got all these from them I never had a friend , not close with my parents I couldn't confide in them cos they would ridicule me later with whatever I had told them And I would feel bad and cry I cried almost all the time I suffered emotional blackmail Buh I laugh whenever someone's talking to me even when I don't want to , I can't help even when it's not funny Maybe it's d anxiety As I became older I grew to love my space Gradually drifting away from the world I started smoking , drinking. Tried to get my confidence Wanted to get the ladies too But all these didn't work I grew interested in cultism and joined one I wanted to b strong, unafraid , bold But it's been years now I have grown in rank , I am feared Though I have never actually killed a person Buh I haven't changed a bit ,I have known deadly guys I should be strong now but am not I still fear , am still not bold , am still weak I still don't know how to talk to girls I still get anxious easily , anxiety still makes me laugh when pple talk to me even when I don't want to I want to please pple all the time even against my own good I still feel hurt I don't know how to stop all these cos I might b pushed to doing even greater evils All I have ever wanted is to be whole Be like everyone else Buh I can't I know I am to blame for everything I could have acted differently But I didn't I just want to be normal All these thoughts. Feelings drove me into becoming this I should have gotten over this now I went to boarding, I join a cult the beatings should have made me tough But it didn't Now it's driving me to be even worse Pls help me before it's too late 6 Likes |
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