Ficeo:
I was a Catholic. I was once Like you. When I found out that salvation and been a practical Christian is what matters and not church, I retraced my steps.
You should have a Catholic devotional book for mass. Turn to today's mass Readings and read. If you have the right to pray for somebody who is about to die in the absence of a priest according to your doctrine, my dear, you can as well pray for yourself and conduct a mass at home with your family.
Lastly, there is no church in heaven. On judgement day, you are without the so called church.