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sageb:
@OP you did not add your qualification and vocational skills acquired so that any one reading this post who intends to help (job, patronage, etc) can do so.
A sad tale but even if you have to work and walk alone, don't give up. There's light at the end of the tunnel.

Like I said, I don't have any university degree. I didn't learn any skill either. I feel I wasted my 20s which should have been more utilized. It part of why I'm very depressed because I feel ashamed of myself. I do some art. I have a dream of having my own bbq spot. I've watched more than 100 videos on YouTube learning different recipes and procedures from different countries....but if you don't have the capital to startup, telling people this just makes you sound unserious

Below is my last drawing depicting light at the end of a dark road. I drew this as a kind of self therapy

I begged you people o

SisterFire:
... U will stl end up scamming him . Wicked society ...if he has sense he shud just avoid u fools and die .

Please take this energy elsewhere. I've been trying to ignore all you've been writing back and forth. No one needs to hear all that.

Emday:
My brother....I congratulate you....you're a Winner!

You may be wondering why....
1. You're a winner because you quit trading drugs. This means that you have value for dignity, honor and right living.
2. You're a winner because you have identified your immediate problems...suicidal thoughts...need for progress etc. Many people do not even know they have problems.
3. You're a winner because you're willing to seek for help. Again when many people have problems, they are not willing to seek for help. They die in their frustration.

Deceptions to Note
1. Please don't get carried away with what you see on social media. People are not as happy or successful as what they post on social media.
2. Everyone has problems. Just like you said, when a lot of people look at you, they assume all is well. The same way ...many people you're looking at and assuming all is well with them may not necessarily be doing that well.
3. It is not wise to compare ourselves with others. The grass always appear greener on the other side until you cross over and see that there is a lot of work to be done to keep it green.
4. Many people who are truly happy and/or successful are not doing it by themselves...they often have contact with higher spirits.

Way Forward
1. Realize that it is not too late for things to turn around for you. Henry Ford didn't become a global success until after age 40 years. Yes I agree that at Age 30, there should be things one can point at as accomplishments. But you know the irony of life, we are not all running the same race. And the fact that you became successful before me does not mean you will be more successful than me. You still have a long time ahead of you ...and as long there's breath in you, you can still attract and achieve outstanding feats in life. If you're a fan of football, you will understand that the fact that Team A has scored 3 goals in first half does not mean they have won. Team B can still very much win the match.
2. You do need Help. And help is available. Seeking medical help is one option and will go a long way...but the lasting solution to getting out of a depressed and frustrating life is to come over to Jesus. You will be amazed what He can do with your life in a short while. Today, I'm a doctor. But when I was in 200L in school, life became so hard and frustrating. In fact, I thought many times about just ending my own life during that period. Everything seemed so dark and hopeless. I was afraid too. But today, things are much different and better. So I'm very sure Jesus has got amazing plans for your life. There are possibilities he's going to show you on how to turn your life around. The same life you seem to hate now, you will be so proud of your life and achievements in no time.
3. Please understand that it is the Devil that wants to abort your destiny. With your writeup above, you're obviously very intelligent and gifted; but the devil wants to kill your potentials.
4. You need to discover yourself, discover your purpose and discover how to make a difference with your life on earth...The book PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE by Rick Warren will help you.

I pray for you today, that every covering of darkness and deception of the enemy around you is taken off in Jesus' name. You're coming out of this stronger, better and healthier. You will not die, but live to declare the wonders of God. You will be a light in your family and to your generation.

Please let's talk 08169464676/ WhatsApp08159581127

God bless you...this was quite uplifting. I will reach out to you soon.

Franzinni:
I bet you if you write a book about your life in the streets, drugs and all, stories that will capture the mids of your readers and detail it with all it's twists and turns from the perspective of someone who made it out of the belly of the streets ... It will become a beat seller and will help people beyond your imagination...

Let's get this out of the way bro ... From your composition, I see greatness in you, tremendous greatness is embedded in your purpose but you are like an inferno that is still in the form of a match stick or like a mustard seed which has yet to be planted but has the capacity to provide shade for thousands of beings from the sun.

Plant bro. Plant !!! Your greatness is in the service of others ... Your death won't mean a thing in a year ... But you can change your world in that time ... Quit comparison too.... Your lifeline is as unique as your fingerprint it's yours!!! Love it, live it!!!


Take the next 6 months out and write a book we are curious beings and those types of tales never fail to Grab attention.. you can write it from a fictional point of view of you like but I bet you it will at least let the world know you were somebody and you matter!!!!


Remain blessed bro that was the message I got to tell you. Weeping last for the night but as sure as the sun will rise, joy .... Comes in the morning... If she came in the night I trust you ... You would get her pregnant hahahaha bad guy 😁😁😁

Thanks bro. I have always had the propensity for writing. I also do some art but these are things that can easily give me joy but I'm not even in the right environment to maximize these skills. I lived in a HK for about two years. Boys from far and wide would bring their clients for me to talk to like I was some kind of oracle. Once I talk to your client, either by chatting or voice call (with Southern American accent even though the farthest I've gone is escorting someone to Muritala Mohammed Int'l Airport) for male accounts, the client's would be 100% convinced because I had school mates who have lived in America since secondary school days. They even travel back during 1 week mid term holidays. I understood how the American society worked without any effort on my end. Throughout the 2 years, I no collect shishi meanwhile I convinced most boys' clients for their first pick up. I've helped convince someone client to send him $2k for the first time ever. He calls me agba but me no see shishi collect.

I would have posted some art I did but it would unmask me under this moniker.

Felabrity:
Just don't give up

Honestly, I'm at the edge. I don't have the will to want to go on. It's easier said than done

I opened this account because I want honest opinions. I also posted this in this section because I believe there are more matured people here even though no thanks to this election period, it is flooded with all sorts.


I'm 30 years old. I have nothing. I mean, nothing. Nothing except my family's love. That would go away too if I kill myself. I would throw them into disarray and perpetual sadness because I'm the first child. Since 2020, I've not had 20k of my own money. Be like say I'm under some kind of curse. I I have been depressed since my early 20s because anything I do with or without effort never yields good results. I can't even point to any successful endeavor I've had in my life. If I go on social media and check all my mates from primary, secondary and college, at least 90% are doing well. I attended top class schools so it's natural for you to see a lot of success when you check your mates. Two or more have been so successful, they've made front page on Nairaland for successful endeavors in their respective fields. Here I am without a university degree (not for lack of trying), with a history of selling drugs to support my family and siblings. I even regret stopping that because the people we did that together, today they have built their own houses and drive their cars. I've never made 500k of my own money at once ever. I am currently living with my parents and siblings in our room and parlour apartment which is a fall from grace because I grew up in a 3-bedroom flat in one of the most expensive neighborhoods in Lagos mainland, visiting my dad's under construction duplex at the time which he ended up selling along with all his other properties just to meet up. I'm looking at my siblings and there's too many similarities with what I passed through. Only difference is they never turned to the streets. They're what you'd call Ajebo by face but pako by situation. I see my mates with families of their own, running successful enterprises, and loads of people proud of them. When I sleep at night sometimes, I don't want to wake up because everyday is the same. I'm afraid I will never be anything anyone will be proud of. I sold weed and crack and got out of the game as easily as I got in... something a lot of people cannot say. I guess I was too chicken because I wouldn't commit murder like drinking pure water. (If you know, you know). I know it seems like I'm rambling, I kind of am. I'm tired of everything. Nothing makes sense to me anymore. I'm a liability to myself and my family. People see me and think I'm having a good life. Women see me and smile because I'm good looking but I'm not interested. Infact, I've not been with a woman in like 3 years and it doesn't bother me. I don't go to parties, I don't do drugs, I don't socialize because of this prolonged depression.


If you understand what I'm going through, what do you think is best for me right now. Matured responses please. Id hate to bring pangs of pain to my parents and siblings due to my suicide.