₦airaland Forum

Hi nl,
Am a young lady of 20 yrs and until now, I never knew spiritual attack existed..I just completed my ND program. I live with my dad and stepmum. my mum is late and she only had two girls for my dad..am the second and last born.

I come from a Muslim background but my dad never forced me to go to mosque besides I never liked being a Muslim.
When I got into polytechnic, I started going to church but not often and I didn't know attending church is different from accepting Christ and doing the will of God.

Two months ago I was asked to come for interview for my IT ...I was supposed to go for the interview the next day and then sickness started. But before the sickness, i remembered i had a dream that someone gave me a black substance to swallow that i had to die cuz i have something to do, i took it and swallowed it and i was holding my neck and struggling for breath , then i woke up from the dream...i prayed about it and continued with life .

a week later ,I was complaining of my body shaking and dizziness.. It was like I wanted to faint, I was rushed to hospital and I was told it was malaria..I got better for like two days, and then it started again ..I was taken to another hospital but didn't get myself still...then I was referred to general hospital... Still they didn't find anything wrong with me,,am always in pain and agony every night and I couldn't sleep...it was like someone was holding my neck and about to break it into two and my heart is always Beating fast like it was about to come out of my chest...I couldn't even explain to the doctors how I felt cuz its unexplainable....

When the doctors didn't know what else to do..
They gave me different sleeping pills and injections..still I couldn't sleep..
Then I was taken to a cherubim church but it only got worse... I was always crying and shouting every night and couldn't sleep for two weeks...
When I wasn't getting better.. I had to call my mum younger brother tho he was a Muslim... Then he took me to one Alfa,he recited Quran on me and that day I felt better and slept well but then it started again the next day..I couldn't breath well and its like something was walking in my whole body...

Then my dad picked me from there to my mum elder sister's place... She is a Christian and attends deeper life church.. She called her pastors and they did deliverance for me though they were in haste cuz they were going for retreat or something and I accepted Christ right there.. Infact i was asked to take of my earring and no more attachments or anything but to live like a deeper life christian and i looked like a shadow of myself after taking them off...

After that the sickness was still happening but its like its fading away gradually... Have been trying my best since then to stay away from sin and serve God.. And have been living with my aunt since then...am now okay but not completely... I could still feel that thing walking in my body but just suppressed... The pastors told me the sickness would go completely if I fast and pray at least three times a week and have faith but I haven't been able to do that since one month ago...reason is I can't fast at my aunt place cuz am always working...I can't even pray or sit for 20 mins without being sent on errand... Am always looking dirty and I looked like a maid...sometimes I get insulted if I make a mistake and am very scared of her...I called my dad and my elder sister to tell them everything and he said he is coming to pick me but I told him no cuz the pastors told my aunt I have to be spiritually strong before I Leave there so I won't be attacked again but I haven't been fasting and praying as am supposed to.

..but my aunt told me a lot of things I never knew before...she said my mother's family is not what I think and have noticed it too...almost all of them are dead including my mum and they all didn't go to school...she told me it is a generation curse that it was Christ that saved her...she said they wanted to kill me since I wanted to go further to school...she said I still have a lot of battle to fight against that family... But how will I do that when am only there to live like a maid...her daughter is always there doing nothing and I get shouted at after doing everything.... Sometimes she is nice to me and most times she is not...now I want to leave her place and go to my sister place to start the fasting and praying and attend church programs at mfm but am scared since the pastors told her I shouldn't go yet.I really appreciate her but I can't continue like this....am still not fully okay and I want to get closer to God but I can't do so where I am .I could sleep at night but not how I used to...I can't even wake up to pray in the morning most times since I have to start working immediately I wake up...am fed up and I don't know what to do....please kindly advice...