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erico2k2:
your last Log in feb 16 and you post on feb 19th well done ohhhhh

My dear this one don pass me. I wouldn't be here if I had alternatives

eallstar:
And u are using Samsung?
U want people using tecno to help u?

It was a gift from my elder sis. Moreover the phone is 3 years old.

With hot balls of tears streaming down my cheeks I write because I seek help from any who's been through a similar occurrence. What I'm about to say may seem funny or sound stupid but I'm all kinds of bleeped up emotionally right now that if I do nothing about it I fear it would tear me up me from inside out... I mean its almost 1 A.M and I'm alone in my room crying my eyes out for bleeps sake. I'm a 24 year old Male with 3 badass girlfriends, big dreams and aspirations, who's also in his first year in the university. Although I noted having 3 girlfriends, I for one do not — or aptly put, did not believe in love. For me it's quid pro quo, something for something. Not until I met this girl a month plus back, while home after the end of the semester that I began to see otherwise. She came all the way from Ibadan to PH to spend some time off with her big sis (who so happens to be my tenant and big anty). We saw barely a day in my return and God! I was drawn to her big ass and hour glass figure. As with any guy I instantly desired her; my wish to have her sourced from lust. For days I tried but she proved difficult. Though she accepted to be my 4th (unknowingly) after being spoon fed numerous lies. Yes our relationship is founded on lies—my lies. I lied about my age, lvl and several other things just to break through and ya know get a meal out her honey pot. But here now the problem starts. After getting to know her, I'm so freaking addicted to her these days that my other girls don't so much matter, including the one I'm dating for over a year now. She comes first in everything I do. It is almost as if she's the only one I'm seeing and that sexual urge that drew me to her initially has died down.

It is interesting to note that the only thing this new girl got going for her is her honesty, character and banging body. She's average in looks, speaks poor English, is bland and very local. A stark contrast to everything I am as well as my other girls. Yet she's the first girl I've fallen this deep for. Even so much that I've refused to go back to school; an A student reduced to a clown. She told me she'd never had it (love) like this before that she'd like to get married to me in the next four years. So much so that I can get my shit together within said deadline. TBH she's my motivation for wanting to be rich.

Now the issue. Just this evening while we were chatting, she told me of some bloody contractor dude came who came over to her sis place to ask for her hand in marriage. Same dude she had refused his advances severally prior. She told me not to worry though that she doesn't love him but would only play along cause he's willing to spend for her. I on the other hand coated my visage with steel but between us that shit got to me. In my 24 years on this Earth, never have I felt so insecure in my life. Even though she's always been so honest with me I feel it's only a matter of time before she gives me the bad news. So now I cry, thinking that if this work out I may end my life.