I met this girl when she was 17, I was 25 then, though she didn't look her age, looks more like a 21yr old, one thing led to another and I asked her out, she rejected my proposal and told me it was never going to work out due to the age difference, I was able to convince her and she later agreed to be my girlfriend
She was a virgin then, asked her why she'd not have sex and she told me it never occurred to her to have sex and she wanted the man who'll marry her to take it, I succumbed, promised & swore to marry her, but she never agreed to that, I know I'm at fault but I forcefully took away her virginity and I'm very sorry for that, I apologised to her and promised her she'll never regret it and I wouldn't ignore her, at a point, she got pregnant and said she wouldn't abort it, I also made her abort it, which nearly took her life but she survived, she's made a lot of sacrifices for me when things went bad for me both spiritually and physically, she once carried a sacrifice at midnight on my behalf, I must confess, she's every man's dream girl but then, I've been cheating on her massively and she found out but I never apologized cause I suddenly lost interest in her and started avoiding her for no reasons, she's 19 now and I'm 26, but she's kept on begging me to keep to my promises cause I won't like what will happen to me if I jilt her
I've not been talking to her neither do I pick her calls or reply her messages but some part of me wants me back with her but my pride won't let me apologize, I know I've wronged her and she said I'll never father a child unless everything I did to her was right
Please, how can I calm her and make her reverse the curse cause I'm scared already, I've been calling but she wouldn't pick up or even see me, her mom threatened to have me arrested if she sees me near her daughter ever again.