This poem in entitled "Not in me" who or what am I referring to?

I cried for you but you weren't there,
you were never existent
and I made an eternal victim out of me.
Stuck, in a static frame of min
and I lost my autonomy
in a word called depression,
thought that I would cut myself but I didn't have it in me.

I called for you but you all I met was silence,
no-one heard me
because I hid my need away.
I wanted you to understand but you never could
because I know it all but better.
You never took account for me
and I could blame myself but I don't have that in me.

I cursed at you but my words were lost in the air,
you knew nothing about me and who I'd become
because you were gone
like a thief in the night.
I know to accept the truth
and not conjure up a loving fantasy
that I should fool myself with, but it's not in me.

© Lunafish 2005

Great Poem Luna.

Thanx Z4M4eva

Tell me what its about

A poem for a Lover probably ?

right. i guess.

lovely poem tho!!!

lovely!

It's not about a lover for me but if that's how you feel - good
It's nice to know that it's multi-dimensional.

It's a letter to my father. I'm saying I could have fantasies about him being great, or I could be hurt by his leaving but it's not in me anymore.

Other menaings are;
having an abortion,
a letter to God.