[font=Lucida Sans Unicode][/font][color=#000000][/color][b][/b]I'm sure by now you all
know who Ese Walter is.
(Refresh your memory
here and here). She took to
her blog yesterday to write
about the aftereffect of her last post, where she
accused pastor Biodun
Fatoyinbo of Common
Wealth Of Zion Assembly of
sexual manipulation. Read
below... "The past week has ‘killed’
me. It has stripped me of
whatever ‘self-importanc
e’ I nursed in the corners of
my mind. It has broken me
and opened me up to my real self. It has brought me
to a deeper level of self-
awareness, one I am most grateful for.
When I sat with my
MacBook to type my last
blog, I never imagined it
would generate the kind of
attention it did and continues to. I have one last
thing to say on this issue
before I lay it to rest and
move on. (I also hope
others can move on too, we
have too much going on in this Country to continue to
peddle one for longer than
necessary.)
A very big thank you to
everyone that has felt it
necessary to talk about this issue and spread it
throughout Nigeria and the
foreign scene. I read every
email sent to me with awe
that people would take the
time out to reach a total stranger like me. Some
were cursing, calling me a
witch from the pit of hell
sent to destroy the church
as though one individual/
church is bigger than the body of Christ. As though
God is mere man and would
cringe in heaven saying,
“Ese don did it this time.” Or
as if the good Book didn’t
state clearly that ALL things work out for good for
those that love God. Do you love God? If yes,
trust that it will ALL turn
around for good. Some people say, ‘I support
you, you are brave and
courageous’ and I wonder
if those terms really define
me. I do not think I am
brave or courageous. I do know, however that after
decades of sleepwalking
through life, I am now
becoming aware not just of
myself but also of my
environment, my world, and the universe. Some say, put out the
evidence and we will
believe you. Hmmm, the
morning I sat to write that
post, I really didn’t expect
anyone to believe me. Well, apart from those involved.
And my motive was simple,
let one more woman be
spared. Let one more
minister of the gospel be
mindful and let the church rise up to its responsibilitie
s as God’s legal
representatives here in the earth realm. A copy of the ‘evidence’ is
with a respected minister of
the gospel should the
christian body decide to
deal with this issue now
and that becomes needful. I am not looking to have a
‘me against them’ case
where I need to prove I’m
right and someone is
wrong. I am far from right,
but I have used the only means available to me to
free myself of the bondage
I put myself in. Lastly, to all the media
people seeking interviews
and whatever else mailing
me, I have nothing more to
say on this issue. I cannot
reply every email as reading them is beginning
to seem like a new job.
I remember asking a friend
once while reading the
book of Acts, “Why do we
no longer operate in the power the disciples did in
Jesus day?” What has
changed? How do we
‘unchange’ it? God is not mocked, if we
serve Him, let’s serve Him.
We cannot continue to
grow as a Nation by
oppressing, delaying
justice, hating, having the ME ME ME mentality. As
Martin Luther King Jr said,
‘no one is free until we are
all free.’ Things have got to change
and it begins with us. It
begins with each and every
one of us borrowing
courage to stand for what
we believe in. Fela Durotoye once said, ‘that thing that
annoys you most in society
is a sign that you carry its
solution.’ (I’m
paraphrasing) Nothing has called out to
me more than people,
especially women, suffering
in some way and hiding the
pain. Whatever we cover
doesn’t go away. It grows and it finds different outlets
to rear its ugly head until
we deal with it. I am not perfect, I will
never be, but I am enough
to try what I feel might
work. I don’t know what
the entire bible says but I
am learning and applying the little I find out
daily. And I think everyone
owes it to himself or herself
to figure it out for
themselves. At the end of the day, we
agree that ‘men of God’ are
firstly men, right? This
means it’s needless
expecting them to help you
in your growth with God. I fell into that trap of
thinking a ‘man of God’ is
equated to God and it is not
new to find people fall in
that hole. How do you begin to learn
to serve a God you have
never seen? It takes
another level of faith to do
that but we live in a
generation/ Country where people don’t want to
study for themselves. They
don’t want to read the
Scriptures. Well, they don’t
want to read, period. They
want to pursue things instead and have somebody
do the praying and
studying for them. If you
fall in that category, you
need to repent. I learnt that when the veil
was torn, we all were given
equal access to the Father.
No matter how long you
may have been in church, if
you don’t know what that means you better ask
somebody. And seek a real
relationship with the God
you claim to serve. That is what I am spending
most of my time doing
these days. Praying,
studying, seeking,
knocking. The peace I have
felt despite all the hate mails and tantrums shows that
God is not angry with me
and I did what I needed to
do to the best of my
understanding. My apologies to everyone
this has affected in one way
or another.
Firstly, my family: I don’t
know how you guys aren’t
sick of me yet Secondly, ‘the body of
Christ,’ my intention was
never to cause trouble but
to stop a rot I felt might
spread and become worse
if nobody spoke up about it. Lastly, to those who said I
shouldn’t blog again, I
respect and understand
your concerns but the truth
is, writing is not just my
gift, it is also my ‘curse’. I cannot ‘NOT’ write but I
PROMISE, this is the last I will
say on this issue except the
christian body needs to see
me. God is building His church,
and the gates of hell shall
not prevail against it. No sin
is too big to wreck
anyone’s faith. If it does,
then it means it’s working out a greater good for you.
You will definitely come out
stronger and better in the
end. Like my best friend
says “in the end, it will be all
right and if it ain’t alright, it’s notthe end.” “…forgetting those things
which are behind, and
reaching forth unto those
things which are before, I
press toward the mark for
the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” Paul.
Cheers to the weekend
people

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