Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home
from school one day. You’ve had yet another
horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go
to your room, close the door, and take out that
suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and
over and over You take out those razor blades, and
cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of
pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the
letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very
last time. A few hours later, your little brother
knocks on your door to come tell you dinners
ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees
is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re
asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to
your room to wake you up. She notices something
is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads
it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s
screaming your name. Your brother, so confused,
runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and
sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room.
He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to
her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits
him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams
and throws something at the wall. And then, falling
to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls
over to him, and they sit there, holding each other,
crying. The next day at school, there’s an
announcement. The principal tells everyone about
your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in,
and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone
blames themselves. Your teachers think they were
too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they
think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy
that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t
help but hate himself for never telling you how
beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one
that you told everything to, that broke up with you..
He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts
crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends?
They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could
never see that anything was wrong, wishing they
could have helped you before it was too late. And
your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe
it. She knew what you were going through, but she
never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for
you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything.
She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just
sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears
coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral.
The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl
with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The
one that was always there for them, the shoulder to
cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good
memories they had with you, there were a lot.
Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t
know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your
parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You
were his big sister, you were supposed to always
be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong
through the entire service, but as soon as they start
lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses
it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days.
It’s two years later. Your teachers all quit their job.
Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That
boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex
boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and
just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go
into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill
herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she
tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth
about your death. He self harms, he cries at night,
he does exactly what you did for years leading up
to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell
apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract
himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed
with depression and just lays in bed all day. People
care. You may not think so, but they do. Your
choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone.
Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for.
Things can’t get better if you give up. I’m here for
absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who
you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m
here for you. Copy and paste this as your status to
show people there are people out there that
care.let's see who actually read all of it.
For anyone that feels this way
Could 1 friend, please copy and repost (not share)?
We are trying to demonstrate that someone's
always listening.
There is still some beauty to life. Just don't get
yourself on the wrong side of the law.
# SuicideAwareness . Please know that we care.