I have repented many times to God and apologised.

Does that mean God does not forgive?

When I was younger I was a fairly good person, however I did talk carelessly.

When my uncle had terminal cancer, I was going through a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics and I would say "I want him to die" when arguing with my dad. Eventually he died. But I did not mean it, I was mad.

I also said to my mum "I want you to have cancer and die", a few years later she has now been diagnosed as "terminally ill".

I have said to the following people KR, TC, RF that I am happy that their parent (2 were father, 1 grandmother) is dead during an argument/frustration of what they did to be/what I thought that they did to me.

I said to another girl RD, in an argument/angry because of what she did to me, I said to her "you will die young" because she has sickle cell. Also, I told another female (during my period of madness) that her mother will die young.

I was age 19 - 20 when all of this happened, I am 23 now and would NEVER say anything like that under the age of 19 or over the age of 20 - I was going through a mental health breakdown and although it is no excuse I was mad and did not really mean it.
I have done so many "good" things and was always known as a good person, just that I had a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics / going to a psychiatric hospital and that is when I said those things.

I repent to GOD and to you my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Can God forgive me? Because now my one and only mother has terminal cancer, and my life in general is just struggle.

Help me please.

God forgives all sins no matter the magnitude. Paul was a murderer but he was called by God at the end. The man Jesus promised paradise before he died was no saint. Cheer up and stop putting yourself under unnecessary condemnation Romans 8:1. Once you ask for forgiveness, God hears and forgives. No need to ask a second time.

There's no god cursing u. What u need is just a month or two in yaba left...all dt craze n madness will disappear into thin air. As for ur fake prophecies, d people were dying already so all u did was affirm to it. There's nothing special about u, jst stop taking those hard drugs.

Death is not that much of a big deal,

Besides, it seems you told them the truth.

God is quick to forgive. It's you that needs to forgive yourself, if at all there is anything to forgive. You really think you have power over life and death? I doubt

Thank you

I thought you would all tell me there is power in the tongue and I killed them, I thought it was too harsh to be forgiven by GOD...
But now I see GOD has forgiven me and all that remains is for me to forgive myself...

Listen, I'm into stuff like this and I can listen and advise more than you'll get on Nairaland. Inbox me if you want.

Is your name clinton?