Spoken word by me

I have been ripped apart
Stretched and contracted again
By a power greater than myself
I stand in the presence of this principality like a miniature figure
With no way of crying out for help
Because I'm paralyzed with my weakness from trying to fight
Trying to fight my way out
Sometimes it actually felt best-off to just run away
But just like a blackmail conspiracy in movies
I keep returning to the same point I was before I thought I ran
Something like a rat race kind of thing
Returning to the same point again and again
Not actually going anywhere different just going round circles
I even came to being relaxed with this principality of a man
Because I was done fighting
There was no use
I have to accept my inner demons
It's who I am
I can't fool myself
It doesn't matter what anyone thinks
Hmmmm this is what I thought
I thought this was all there was
But is it possible that there is no help at all?
I was born free
Innocent curiosity led me through this path
And now I can't get out
Man was not made to be bound
Why should I be bound
This isn't where I belong
This isn't where I belong
No!!!....
This isn't where I belong
I gatto get out
How
I don't know
But there's gotta be a way out
Out of the chains of this principality called addiction or say for our topic, bad habits
It eats into us like a cancerous cell
Killing us from within
Until we destroy ourselves
I seem to have lost control of this ship
Lost control of myself
Lord will you help?
Please can you help?
Please
I gotta get out
Can you help?
Please
Please?
I am ur child
You died to save me
From this..
I have refused your help all this while
Because I was blinded by my curiosity
Yes by my curiosity..
My childish curiousity
.. Please I need your help..
I know you hear me
Because you said for me to come boldly
Boldly before your throne
Where I can find mercy
And grace
So Lord Jesus .....
Here I am
Totally yours to fix
Only you can help me
U can't help myself
So Lord Jesus
Help me.. Please