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how does one feeling waking up to nothing to be happy about.Life has been full of up and down.....having parents that r rarely around or willing to listen to you or ever check up on u at school....i will say my problem started when my parents wanted to fulfill their dreams in me...I'm an extreme introvert n don't warm up to strangers easily, I changed school three times during my primary and secondary school, each one after I'm just trying to settle in.... back to my ss1 I wanted to be a psychologist but you know African parents-doctor or engineer.. I'd to follow their dream...i cleared my waec once n jamb same year I was offered admission in unilorin to study psychology bt my parents made me to go funaab-soil science and land management cuz they felt unilorin was far away for a 16years to live away from.... I'm now left with no choice and that was my beginning of my depression having to study a course I never heard of b4.. my first semester was okay, I'd a strong 2.1 bt second semester was poor due to my broken hands.. I missed a lot of c.a.t n practicals n I'd a carrier over in a course and 2 practical courses.....bin a loner I couldn't open up to any.. I lost interest in everything I loved n those I loved n I was withdrawn from people..the only time I leave my room was to attend class..had few casual friends n no close friend... I was lost in my own little world bt outside everyone sees me as a the perfect friendly guy but I'd low self esteem... fast forward to 200level I'd to to drop 2 courses to register my carryover.now to my final I couldn't bring my self to sitting down n doing lower courses.leading to an automatic xtra year... my grades dropped rapidly to 2.2.....my parents never asked about my results all through the last 5years.... they believed I was a First Class student....now I'm lost, withdrawn n suicidal I feel like a complete failure with nothing to wake up to...i av contemplated on coming suicide but I'm thinking about it effects on them... I'm tired of living and feeling worthless from a brilliant shy kid to absolutely nothing all I do now is lock myself indoor n cry everyday ...a lot of people will think I'm lazy put I dont get the zeal of doing anything I just want to be alone.....I'm thinking about moving far away from home and people that make know to start a new life afresh away from my demons..... feel free to share your teenage depression stories

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I just got to read your post now, we are the same in every aspect, the only mild the difference is that i dropped out from two schools and am about dropping from the third one......i cant stand being around people, it drains my energy(have also been contemplating suicide) but am afraid of the effect is gon have on my mom....
........my depression is killing me cuz i dont even know the cuz.. am handsome,brilliant (used to be), am intelligent, am ambitious (used to be) but still my thought has been the only i have an open talk with......sometimes when i wake up i have that feeling of; uh another day i have to cope with........conclusion is depression is killing ne also anyone that knows how to help please help!! My soul is crying for help!!!

I just got to read your post now, we are the same in every aspect, the only mild the difference is that i dropped out from two schools and am about dropping from the third one......i cant stand being around people, it drains my energy(have also been contemplating suicide) but am afraid of the effect is gon have on my mom....
........my depression is killing me cuz i dont even know the cuz.. am handsome,brilliant (used to be), am intelligent, am ambitious (used to be) but still my thought has been the only i have an open talk with......sometimes when i wake up i have that feeling of; uh another day i have to cope with........conclusion is depression is killing ne also anyone that knows how to help please help!! My soul is crying for help!