Say NO


By the time you finish reading
please don't judge me
I never meant it this way
and I can never blame my shame
I am known to be brilliant
my smiles are always gallant
but it was all a disguise


This is the last year in school
I'm almost done with my books
but all that changed with my mood
I was feeling unwanted; hated
when last did I get a missed call
when last did a knock caress my door
I have friends but they seem gone

Family was supposed to be close
but they are also part of the show
fake smile adorn their face
like they are high on a codeine dose
Dad was having an extra affair
Mum knew of the current affair
the dirt came tumbling of the stairs

I used to have a girlfriend
but she never understood me
she referred to me as weird
the only option was loneliness
so I took the ring and did wed
I am supposed to be in school
I think I'll stay home and be cool

I look at all my results
and weigh in my mind all the reports
I will never have this friends If
I was dull or am I wrong?
I still don't know why I did it
but it was my last solitude

The headlines will read horror
people will blame me and God
people will question my sanity in all
they can never understand it all
this world is a farce
you leave and you become the past
nobody looks back at your path
it grows thorns and weeds
until it is cleared and replaced
people's priorities are displayed
the message is lies and love misplaced
this is my will and testament
live life; my will, love truly; my testament
First class scholar commits suicide.

Dedicated to the 500level scholar of Computer Engineering UNIBEN.