I am alive but not living, I am like a drowning man with no help and respite in place and dying seems like the escape from these bouts of depression that I have been through and still going through.

I look left,right,back and center I see no hope and there is even no tiny straw I can hold on to.

I used to be an happy, sociable person but life had made me a recluse, locking myself inside,sulking and looking for headway.

For so long nothing has changed and I cease to live in despair and realize life will never be fair to everyone. I really want to end it all coz I am afraid life could even be worse than now.

Life is transient and fleeting, is it not better get solace in death where there is immortal peace; no struggle, no strife,no competition and no life's trauma.

I am in the worst place in my life now and dying or assisted dying seems like it for me.

My has no Honor or Color.

I am at the end of the tunnel and it's almost too late to turn back. My life is awful and shameful.

Thanks for reading my rants.