am an only son, grew up without a father , single handedly trained by my mum .i just made one huge mistake and my life took a very serious tragic turnaround.Right now..nobody wants to associate with me.even my close friends don't talk me.am a very smart person, once use to do hacking, based on the fact that I once worked in the financial sector.i really don't want to do evil things, everyday I find it hard to sleep.God help me.i don't want to turn to something else.i am a very strong willed person...i believe once I start that evil pathway.i might not look back.

First of all do away with that thought. I pray God answers your secret prayers