Hello nairalanders, hope you are all good,
Didnt know the right section to drop this.

Straight to the point, I have made so many mistakes in my life... Every choice I make seem to backfire
Currently my life seems so hopeless, I used to be so happy but currently I'm just lost... It's like I don't know what I'm doing on earth

No family, no job, no formal education, no steps to something good, heck I'm super introverted that I can't even make friends... The worst of all I'm currently battling some sickness that I can't even phathom [scared to come out coz of series questions] ... It's just like everything is against me in this world.

It's gotten bad that I've been having suicidal thoughts [ don't judge me, it's not always easy as you guys make it look on paper]
But I don't want to do that.. But mennn it's not easy o...

Dunno if there is a kinda therapy I could get... Coz before I decided to bring it here.. E Don choke me.. And I just wanna find some solace coz my brain Wan burst

Seek God's face in every aspect of your life, our help comes from him, do so and see your light bursting forth on all sides, do not loose faith in Him