As salam laykum Brothers and sisters this is my first time doing something like this so please bear with me.Here goes so I’m a Muslim but not one of the strongest faith I honestly believe I could do better. I’m not what you would call a deeply practicing Muslim I go to mosque yes and I can read the Quran and that’s about it about my faith. Unfortunately for me I’ve delved into what I was not supposed to pornography and masturbation I know it’s Haram and it’s a sin and I’m trying my best to repent insha allah but I suspect I may have gotten spiritual afflicted typing this I’m scared and I hope I’m not afflicted.all my life I’ve always been attracted to girls even up till now never for once have I thought about committing sodomy with a fellow man even till now I wouldn’t do it.due to my consuming of porn and engaging in masturbation I’ve accidentally gotten myself HOCD which is the fear of becoming homosexual due to dirty contents I kept consuming over time.there are millions of people living with this condition.my problem is this condition of mine may not just be natural the way I look at it months prior to to this event I’ve gotten intense episodes of sleep paralysis I thought to myself it’s just a normal body function nothing spiritual I’m pretty skeptical in nature but then one day I had this episode of sleep paralysis due to this nature of this condition I was widely awake not hallucinating or on drugs while I couldn’t talk or move while awake paralyzed I clearly saw a black shadowy figure like a man with a brick red eyes subhanallah this shadowy figure was standing beside me staring at me I was terrified because it was the first I ever experienced something like this whenever I wanted to masturbate it was mostly in toilet maybe some unclean jinn have been attached to me subhanallah.Now I have hocd symptoms and I keep hearing different voices in my head wanting me to do something deep down I know i don’t want to like ohh you want to commit sodomy with this man, you are good for nothing moreso I’m depressed and I keep getting suicidal thoughts like what is the essence of my living, headaches, loss of appetite unexplained memory loss and all sorts of dirty and unclean thoughts always cross my mind prior to this I had no idea what ruqya is or if it even works or existed. skeptical at first I decided to give it a try as I said my faith is not so strong.i searched up ruqya videos on YouTube and whenever I listen to those prayers all the voices in my head just vanish nowhere to be found, I don’t feel like killing myself anymore, my head clears up like all the dirty thoughts just leave my head I feel refreshed after the prayers so my question is how likely is it I’m afflicted by something paranormal and what would you do if you were in this situation inshallah allah will guide me and save me from this tribulation.