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Hello nairalanders. I go by the name Aaron.
I'm currently a 200l student of the University of Benin studying microbiology. Please pardon my long post, I have to make you people understand me.

Academics: Academically I'm very certain I'm good. I have never failed once or even repeated a class. I'm smart, to some extent and I assimilate easily. Many of my peers even look up to me, they feel I'm much better than them academically and assume I know almost everything. So in terms of academics, I'm trying. Please, I'm not trying to be proud or brag.

Passion: Well, I'm very passionate about medicine. Medicine is in me, Its a course I love so much. Seeing a doctor or a student alone gives me so much joy, I want to be like them.

Jamb: I've written jamb 5 times now. The first jamb I wrote, I was offered agric to study which I rejected. Down to 2018, I was offered microbiology instead of medicine which I had to accept because of age(currently 21,to be 22 soon). The thing is I have never failed jamb, my lowest jamb was my first which was 207. Subsequent exams have been over 270, I even had 331 in one of my jamb(the one I was offered microbiology).

My problem: I decided to accept microbiology hoping to do well and possibly come back for a direct entry later on but the way things are going, I fear so much for myself. My first semester result was a total mess, I had a gp of 3.35( though I had one carryover). In my University, 100l takes only 10% out of 100% and I believe I can boost my gp and still graduate well but my problem is that my heart is not in the course. I don't even mix up with my course mates, I just do things with laxity. I just feel I'm going to school just to be a graduate. My heart is not anywhere close to the course I'm doing now. I thought I'd be able to fit in but I am finding it so difficult to.

My decision: I discussed with my mom and convinced her that I want to re take jamb this year. She didn't buy the idea but I told my elder sister and she told me to take jamb and when the admission comes I can let her know. Even my elder brother doesn't like the course I'm doing, he wants me to do something professional.

I need advise: Please my nairaland family, what do you guys suggest I do??... I'm lost and I need to find myself as quick as possible, I don't want to fail in life. I need serious advise. If anyone has been in this shoe before, the person should tell me what he/she did. Should I take jamb again or just stay where I am now??... I seriously fear for myself and my future. I'm confused.

Ps: my desire to study medicine wasn't prompted by the money or prestige in the course or peers or family. It's what I have loves to become. And please for those who will come and say education doesn't guarantee making it in life, please I don't need that sermon. I have no father, I have no connection anywhere, the best I can do for my future is attaining the peak of my education, at least I know it'll guarantee me something. Not everyone will make it in the outside world. Thanks all

Lalasticlala please help.