Davizee:
My father woke up this morning to start censuring me and my bro.

I ran out of the house yesterday to watch Chelsea match against Man City just to reduce depression. I woke up this morning and my father attacked me saying that we his children are not prayerful enough that is why we are still suffering.

He does not know when we pray or the intensity of our prayer but he made that statement.

He also asked me what I want to do with my life if it's to rewrite jamb or play football. I was very enthusiastic to play football but he couldn't even sponsor it. I used to be very intelligent but now I am an ignoramus in everything due to my poor education background.

Some guys I know that don't even go to church are progressing as their parents are catering for them but my situation is different.

The pressure is becoming too much and I am thinking of carrying out any diabolic act to raise funds. I haven't been into fraud or stealing but now I am anticipating to do it. Is it not better not be born than to come to this world to suffer

My guy don't rely totally on your parents to provide all your needs, you are a man find little legal work you can get and save some money. You can write Jamb while doing this. Just schedule your time, put more effort to your studies then try to save and pay for your first year when finally got admission to higher institution.
The advice I'm giving you is what helped me. When I finished my secondary school, I worked for some years, saved and paid my 100 level school fees. Till I finished my university degree, I did menial and casual work to help my self.
Note that throughout my school, my Dad didn't support me financially. It was my mother who supported within her capacity.
I thank God how far he has brought me. Although I have not arrived yet.