ANIEXTY: I grew up in a compound where there were no kids, everyone was Physically and mentally mature and I was the youngest in the whole yard.... at about 13, I started seeing some things my mates did (Like playing football, or games) as childish, I was very close to the adults that I started talking, behaving and even thinking like them.
I'm 23 now and a 400L student in the University, I also have a skill which I'm making little money from while still in school.
Almost all my friends are older than me, people don't believe me when I tell them my age, they say I don't look or act my age..
I have never been in a relationship before but each time I see someone I like and start getting close I realize along the line that she's either 4 or 5 years older than I am(this has happened for about 4 times now)
Now the problem is; I only get attracted to older women who act mature, I don't want to marry and older lady..... But this thing is getting deeper I don't know if it's normal, How do I control this before it gets out of hand ?
I need your opinion please
it's not a problem for me, nothing wrong with you. What kind of skill is that?
I have different kinds of mental illness but the problem is that I'm ashamed to admit it, I have social anxiety and some times my attitude changes all the time, no stable personality, no interpersonal relationships with people around me, no one take me serious cos I always look disorganized, some times people get closer to me but when they found out my personality they withdraw from me and hate me, I find it hard socializing and concentrating with any kind of work I'm doing. I was not like this before I don't know what really happened to me as a person.
My name is nonso I'm from anambra state I do have nightmares sometimes, I don't know the foundation of my family but the story says that there some people who did agwu nsi (local herbalist) in my family hundred years ago, recently on December 2019 my junior brother have some mental issues and my mum took him to one native doctor like that where they told her the story and those people wanted my brother to keep on on with the tradition. He is okay now but I promise myself never to indulge in such kind of a thing. I want God to deliver me.
I need help my life is soo messed up, spiritually, physically and mentally, I don't know when to be serious and I have missed many opportunities, I always have quarrel with people who can help me in life, I dont have any interpersonal relationship with any of my blood, I always sense hatred from people around me. People don't see the good in me, spiritually I had soo many attacks that really messed with my knowledge and my confidence and social life. I always see myself different from the rest. But one thing is certain I believe is only Jesus can deliver me and nobody else.
Some people detest me cos I'm not being friendly to them, you know the thing is that im not too social and some think am just feeling proud not knowing I don't know what to say to them. My question is can't someone be him/herself again without making people feel insecure ?
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