greatgod2012:
Be sincere please, would you have been this remorseful if you weren't caught by her

I have never tried this before. And we have been together for 6 months plus.

Oyindidi:
I wouldn't want to see your face. In fact I'll kill you! You raped your cousin. How old is your cousin?

Go and report to the elders in your family.

Reread my post, I didn't rape her. There wasn't any penetration and I didn't even pull my cloth, though very disgusting to say but, it was my hands and I'm sorry

oshe11:



You are Writing writing episode and lamentation because she REFUSED AND NOTHING MORE......



If she had woke up and allowed you, wouldnt you have stuck in your digusting Diicck thats as small as an Hippopotamus' tail inside her vagies.....?



You are a priick and a worthless one at that......

If You really feel disgusted by your ACTIONS, then REPORT YOURSELF TO HER PARENTS

I can do this if it would make her feel better. Would this really health.. Please forget about my feeling guilty I don't deserve a pity.. I want her to feel good. She has left for lecture but, I know she's the same person again.

greatnaija01:
MOLESTING is not the issue here....

YOU DAMAGED HER MIND
YOU BROKE HER TRUST FOR ANY MAN
YOU VICTIMIZED HER
YOU MADE HER FEEL DIRTY
YOU DESTROYED HER SENSE OF SECURITY

Please is there anything I can do to make things better.

Oyindidi:
Fool

I deserve more than this. Please if you were in her shoe what do you think can make you feel better. I don't want her to forgive me if she can't but, I want her to feel better and forge ahead.

I'm sorry. I don't deserve to live anymore. I'm like a Shepherd who has eaten the lamb entrusted to his care.

I have betrayed my cousin's trust. I'm deeply sorry. I don't even think I have the right to say it was just fingering (I'm very disgusting) when she caught me. I don't think I even deserve for any human to talk to me. I'm deeply sorry. I regret everything.

She is 20 years old, and I'm a shameless 31 years old idiot. This is a girl who calls me "brother" when she woke and saw me touching her in ungodly manner, she regretfully asked me in low tone and in disappointment "Brother what are you doing?, Brother what are you doing?" I couldn't say anything other than "Sorry please forgive me", I could see she sounded looked betrayed. I don't deserve her forgiveness let alone her love
ever again. (I'm the worst cousin anyone can dream of)

She went outside and started crying, she was angry, her anger grew even worse when I approached her and went on my kneel to apologizing, seeing me makes hers furious and she told me to just get out of her sight because the pleading makes her even hate me more and she might do something stupid to me or to herself.

She was furious and I don't know what to do, she was being consumed by anger thinking of what I just deed to her but, I know it wasn't just about what happened to her but "the person that did it", As she was angry I needed her to do whatever that would make anger go away. She said she might do something stupid I was ready to take anything (other than harming herself ) so that she could put the anger somewhere. So I didn't leave her presence, I continued begging her as my presence now disgust her, my hands became filthy, my word became very irritating to her and she started slapping, hitting and pushing me, finally she broke my plastic chair into pieces and started crying.

I'm sorry sister.

She cried and lamented about her situation and how she trusted me, I was silent all through because any words from my mouth make her angry. She now hates me ultimately; it is exactly in the same measure of the love she had for me.

We were best friends/cousins, there is nothing in this life she would do without telling me or seeking my advice, I'm the only person she trusted in our whole family to the extent of feeling very free with me to sleep in the same bed with me. Actually we have been sharing the same bed since she came to my place for an academic program and I have never done a thing of this nature before.

I hate myself now because this singular act of great irresponsibility has already cancelled every good thing I have done for her and yet to do. I don't think there would ever be an ultimate remedy. What really came over me?

I know the gravity of what I have done and I have lost her love and trust forever, I know I had just caused her to hate me passionately, I hate myself. She cried and hit me with anything she could found and I let her because I needed her to put her anger on me or something.

I know I'm not worthy to write this, but please I'm not writing to gain your pity, I don't deserve it. I'm writing to beg you guys/girls to help me, I deserve lashes as I expect a lot of it but, please consider her, for her sake What can I do to make her feel better.

Is there any possibility that she would ever forgive me again? I want it so bad but, I'm ready to let her heal as long as it takes but, I just wish she could just forgive me sincerely because that's the only way she can get over that betrayal of trust.