I am an old member of this forum. In fact, I have been a member since the days of sexkillz, idowuogbo, borntofuck, etc!
Though I opened this account newly to save "face".
I have an old account that is somewhat popular on nairaland......... at least a bit.


Since I lost my well paying job years back, for something I knew nothing about, I have been drinking alcohol(beer) a lot and smoking a lot too.


At first, it started like I was able to control it, but now, it seems I can't do without it. I just have to take it every night. The urge usually comes in the evening/night.
It has gotten to the extent that even if I don't have money, I must look for a way to indulge in it. Any money I get, goes to alcohol and cigarette. I am seriously addicted, just like junkies!


At a point I discovered I have been wasting my life all these years, and I decided to stop, for my health sake and for the money I waste on a daily.
I would stop for like 2 days! The third day, the urge comes again, pushing me and telling me to go enjoy myself and forget my worries/sorrows.
After some bottles, I go home, sleep, and when I wake up in the morning, I'm filled with regrets......oh God, why did I do this again. God, can't you just stop this for me......I ask God!


At times my shallow mind tells me I'm being manipulated diabolically. But I know its not so.........I just don't have self control.


I am not the sex freek type. I can stay for months without sex, and anytime the urge comes, I could just masturbate once and that's it. I don't do ashis or oloshos. I use to do my girl, before we parted ways!


Now, in all these I still submit CV's and I often go for tests and interview, but still no job. I often pass all my tests, but i don't get called back after the first or second interview. I have also tried starting up a business but it failed. I am not a business person.


I really need your help on how to stop completely.....both alcohol and cigarette. I need more than your advice. I need to be rehabilitated. I am killing myself gradually, but I really want to stop.
I want to live a good life. I want to settle down and be responsible.


I don't need your money.......All I need is to help me stop these addictions. Please save my soul


For the bashers, you can bash me, abuse me, say all kinds of demeaning words, ONLY if you have no sin in you. Like Jesus said; let he/she WITHOUT sin, throw the first stone at this adulterous woman!