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Whizzy080:
Greetings all, I appreciate y'all for your time
I love bringing my personal issues to this space because most are things I can't discuss with friends (besides I don't trust people that much) especially sensitive issue that has to deal with privacy. Why I choose here is, you don't know me, I don't know you but at the end we get advised and also advice

Something happen recently that has been disturbing me..let's say I was once in the world, yeah, I was. I've come across many women in my life I don't know if it's because of my look or I was an example of what many called a womanizer.. I've met crazy women who does nasty things in d name of s3x and it was damn good.. Ok fastward

I have this girl I'm currently with, I don't easily love but she's just the one for me and I made up my mind to respect her love, she's everything a man would want as a woman, we are very compatible in terms of our s3x life, but I think my past is hunting me for real..few days ago we were making out when I decided to spice things up, neither did I know she hasn't been intruced to this worldly lifestyle, while in a heat romans I decided to go down(she's very clean down there) she resisted saying she hasn't done it before but I assured her she gonna enjoy it and she agree, brethren I was there and she was laughing I ask her why she's laughing she said she doesn't feel anything its like someone tickling her armpit. I was shocked (how on earth does a woman not enjoy heads) something 80℅ of girls I met will crave for, I thought to myself, it was very strength to me aswr
I quickly stopped to continue our usual kissing n romans, immediately I opted to kiss her she quickly pushed out my mouth, stood up and asked why I used the same mouth from her p*ssy to kiss her, wft it's your own p*ssy for crying out(said to myself).. People of God my harden prick melted in the matter of split sec. I was crying inside
Since then I always see myself dirty in front of her, I've loss my self confidence, wish I can erase her memory of that incident

please in this case what should I do?