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The illusion of victory.

Many times, I have had to face demons; some have become regular, and those naughty creatures never learn!

That win is around the corner.

Dear reader, do you ever feel so relaxed when things seem close by? There’s a challenge, but you know to win, yet you decide not to fight because you know you are already a winner. Yes, that’s the one that usually leads to many others and spreads across your life till it’s tangible and becomes a force you can’t break. Why not do it now every time?

Do it now?

That win was the hard one.

Chasing my dreams is usually the hardest; every time, I need to be snapped back to reality as soon as I begin. I have to fight back every desire to go to sleep and keep dreaming! Only that this dream is my reality, It’s easier to dream! The yearning and fighting to live a dream can be tricky because it’s like two worlds in a clash. It’s the win, a hard one!

The win, the one you never had in life.
Pheeww!

The efforts are a win, too, You will not have it all, All year, you may never see yourself get it. The win, however, is that you never stop; you chose victory, not the illusion of it; every day, every try, you hear it! The trickles, you saw it; it’s okay if it was in your dreams, too!

Hey, what can I say?

You can win every time! But you won’t win every time you try to win, yet winning is in the price; you are the price. We all are! This year, go forth and win! In the might of God, because I believe in him, he’s the only guarantor. He paid for you to be the Price that never fails!

Go.

Dear reader,
Take some time off to breathe, you need to. It’s definitely one of the things you never forget to do, but now I want you to do it deliberately, breathe!
That was too short, I want you to take a very deep breathe.
If you didn’t make the sound that comes after then I’ll advice you breathe again.
Breatheeeee…
Okay, thank you.

Prioritize your growth.
Sometimes, you have to be your own inspiration, because if you don’t, who will ? Well, I can but what happens when I am sleeping on duty ? It doesn’t mean I do that.
You need to place priority on yourself, you need to take time out to reflect, you need to recognize your strengths and weaknesses.
Before heading to bed, evaluate how well you spent your day, write down ways it could have ended better.

You are special.
You are special, you need to see yourself that way always, if you do otherwise, it can cause those who see you as special to stop seeing you that way. You have light in you, shine bright. I believe in you, yourself can’t exhaust it’s greatness so please shine! Shine! Shine!

Failure?
What we consider as failure can be subject to what you think failure is, what do you think failure is? Failure is subject to you, your mind, so broaden your horizon, you will realize that sometimes you learnt lessons and didn’t fail.

Speaking nice words
What is the first thing that comes out of your mouth when you make a mistake?
Who takes all the blame when you make a mistake?
The mind is easy to find someone/something to blame, it’s own way of finding solace and solutions.
When next you make a mistake, say nice words, and quit looking for what to hang the blame on if there won’t be a solution after you have done that.

Who are your friends?
This is probably the entirety of it all, the people around you should be deliberately selected by you! People should not sneak into your life, but it’s their choice to sneak out. Most times we fail to understand that if people choose to leave your life, it’s their choice, do not love people more than they love themselves.
Your friends are those who know who you are, if you have to constantly remind them about who you are, they are probably not supposed to be your friends because they see you clearer than you see yourself, if they can’t, then there’s something wrong with their eyes. A friend should be there for you always, a friend should know your weaknesses and strengths.
It is important to have friends, the right ones. The definition of friendship is simple, “a second pair of eyes”.


Always breathe!

Kinshtoyou�

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Life always appears to be much brighter when there are no demands, you’ll almost think life is perfect. We all know perfection is a mirage and so it’s a fallacy to say life is perfect. Society most times influences our view on life, sometimes, it creates a barrier to the heights one can actually attain and other times, it opens us to see that there are ways to reach the actual top.

There’s no wrong in hoping for the best, but the best seldom happens when we want it to happen. But do we stop hoping? No we don’t.
Life is a journey, it is created by the copulation of a man and a woman and then translates to everyone of us, a journey that involves occurrences that most times can’t be predicted.

The first phase
Life doesn’t scream it’s flaws to us, it whispers it!
When life is created, there are preparations for care by the ones who were involved in the act of copulation and these preparations are either limited or not, which is why there is the child with silver spoon and the one without. As a child matures, needs are met, you can’t expect a suckling child to care for himself/herself, so yes, needs are met according to the demands of the child.

The second phase
These dreams keep coming!
“I want to be a lawyer”
“I want to be a doctor”
But do we really become the things we said we wanted to be?
Life starts to whisper but lack of recognition is a fault one can’t blame a teenager for!
Life isn’t a bed of roses for all, life is diversified, we win and loose, we have to search consciously for truths, the way out of troubles because these things hardly come by us freely.

The third phase
How does your heart communicate with you?
The search begins, the child becomes a man, bearing burdens that seemed light and promising, but life is filled with challenges that either breaks or makes.
The men that lost the silver spoon and want to get it back.
The men that never had the silver spoon but want it.
The men that still have the silver spoon.
The men who have no clue.

The fourth phase
Do you really need it? Then come get it.
Life has to continue, so it is time once again to choose whether you’ll add a label to it or not.
Everyone looks forward to having their own children, their times however differ, there’s love, marriage, sex.
Life has to continue, some men just begin to have a clue about all the whispers that life has transmitted, there’s passion, strive, faliure, gains! This is the part where you feel it all at once, all the emotions in the world comes rushing at you like there won’t be an end.

The fifth phase
Chapters close, complete or not, they begin to shut abruptly. Old age, regrets, things which should have been done. You’re either happy or not but what can you do when all you can do is eat and sleep.
Life ends, but it goes on. The ones who leave already have replacements and by this I mean procreation.


Life won’t stop its wonders because it’s the entirety of existence at play. You either live it or leave it.


Is life not in circles?

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From the bleating goat,
To the way Bidemi called out my name.
I cannot say which was louder,
I screamed as another thorn pierced me again.
The mighty had fallen!
The mighty had fallen!!
“Bidemi” I whispered his name as my eye lids failed me,
Funmi the great woman had fallen!
Should I talk about the warnings from my parents?
Or the red signals I saw with my own eyes,
“Bidemi is going to have me killed” my mind screamed.
Hoping to get a response from someone, I moved about in the sac Bidemi had thrown me into.
A sac filled with thorns.
This man is going to give me out to some men from hell.
The ones we were warned about!
I struggled but they took me away,
From land to water and then land again tied in a sac like a goat.
I was the bleating goat!
I never saw light again and daily my soul beckons for a melody.
A melody for eternal rest.

Last night I slept on the couch and took in sips of hate
My lonely heart wondered about the room with so much rejection
I closed my eyes and gave freedom to the twin tears that awaited a blink
My heart was slaughtered and I tried to pick up the pieces left,
Hurriedly, I opened my eyes and stood up, I felt depression whisper my name.
Tunde had let my heart shatter!
I went up the stairs and picked up a book to ease the sinus ache in my head,
My stomach yearned to be cared,
My eyes read the book, pages by pages, I went on and stopped.
Races took place in my stomach again,
My heart scattered all around my body, the high pitched sound in my head continued in its unbefitting rhythm.
How was I going to start over?
My life is a mess!
Love that has been awarded with the unexplained happiness it brings has cost me pain now!
I am lost in pain!
My heart is broken!

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We entered the room and met her lying in cold blood, a shiver ran through my spine as I walked over to her bed. I held her hands,they were cold and stiff.
“Bisola why” , my heart whispered
“Why did you have to go this far?”
“Why didn’t you wait for big sister to come?”
My heart raced as tears lingered around my
Eyes awaiting me to blink
“Bisola no, come back to me”
My lips murmured the words
As I shut my eyes and the twin tears
Rolled down like it was a competition
“Oh Bisola” my mind screamed
As the text played back in my head
“Big sis, Bayo was here to see you,
I let him in innocently but he took advantage of me, her pounded my insides and took it all from me, he brought down the door sis, my life is over”
“I’m sorry.”
Bisola is gone!
Bayo you did this to me, to us.
You have brought shame to my family!
I’ll find you, I promise.


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What is love?
With so much tension
All the waves of friendship
So much kindness and goodness
How does love communicate to you?
How convenient does it become living in fear because of love?
Your fear and trust level act in line with fate
They contend and recreate love into fearful cohabitation
How much longer can you continue in separation ?
Differentiation in moves
Light heavy drops of tears
Movements tripled
What is love without content?
What is love with fear?
Do you know what love is?

https://kinshtoyou..com/2020/08/what-is-love.html?m=1

What is love?
With so much tension
All the waves of friendship
So much kindness and goodness
How does love communicate to you?
How convenient does it become living in fear because of love?
Your fear and trust level act in line with fate
They contend and recreate love into fearful cohabitation
How much longer can you continue in separation ?
Differentiation in moves
Light heavy drops of tears
Movements tripled
What is love without content?
What is love with fear?
Do you know what love is?

https://kinshtoyou..com/2020/08/what-is-love.html?m=1

The cloud over my eyes grew stronger and stronger as I tried to make out the last words that my cold heart just froze. They still weren't clear, towards the end of my soul was a box filled with memories that I never folded, scatter and tossed angrily to be forgotten. The time read nine, I tried to open the box with the passion left in me, and then tears escaped my left eye as the box came open...

My last day in high school clothed with blood and pain, my fingers trembled to the faint screams that echoed through my soul, Kunle wanted to make that day memorable, it all played again as I shut my eyes, his smile that came with assurance and innocence, my eyes came open wide...

My 17th birthday I took in breaths of peace in my room, and ate the blueberries Aunty Naya got from ilogbo market, tick said the clock, tick tick as the billowing breeze took me on a trip to the isle of dreams, and I woke up three months later, my legs had gone on a journey of no return with my parents.




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