I sincerely appreciate every one of your comments and advice. It is what i really needed to hear.

I can not reply individually to everyone but i have read all your comments and some of the things i have read i was really in denial about, but i know it is the truth!!

Yes! i have a tendency of trying to impress people not only with him this issue i have but with my fam and friends.

I am that vulnerable state right now where i know i need to seek some professional help of some kind. I hate to feel that i am the problem. But i know i am. I have moved back home with my parents and taking a break from everything so that i can just concentrate on my self and learn about my ways and why i do the things i do. I have spoken to him and despite everything that has happened(he is very disappointed) but he also wants me to seek help or just speak to someone about my issue and he has said he will support me in any way he can. I am a christian, and i am praying to God to help me because this is the thing i have been dealing with for quite some time. everything i am saying here today i have never really spoke to anyone about and i doubt anyone in this world knows me well. Besides the image i portray. I do want to change for the better.

These comments just make me realize that i ought to do something about my actions because one thing that i have picked on about the comments is that i am the problem. which i am now accepting. @ obongproff I will DM you!

Thanks all once again

LULU

OK so the thing is i just need advice and not criticism as i get quite a lot of it already.

I have been with a great guy for 2 and half years and he is probably the only best thing that has happened to me so far.

The problem is i just keep messing things up, its like we get over one problem then i create another. We recently moved in together (2months ago) and since then we just constantly argue about silly little things. Sometimes i think he takes things to seriously. I know he likes things a certain way but since moving in we just can not seem to get along. My biggest problem is i can not be open with him. I have lied to him numerous times about work, everything. The thing is he always catches me out when i do not tell him the truth and most of the time i know that he will find out one way or the other.

He is such a great guy, has been there for me through so much from helping me get into work encouraging me when am down etc. Now i got laid off work just because of one of my problems ( i can not seem to keep job either) I did not tell him for weeks until he found out. Now it has literally messed things up. Even though he is not mad with me if anything he just wishes i can talk to him whenever i am having problems. Now i have totally lost hes trust/respect and i do not know how to even get past this. I feel terrible and unworthy of his love. I feel that he now just pittys me and does not see a future together as we have planned so much but i just have ruined everything.

I do not want to loose this man and i just need advice on how i can get past it and gain his respect/trust.


PS- Any negative comments keep them to your selves, am only interested in serious advice



Thanks LULU