Thanks everyone for the wonderful advices and encouragement, they have gone a long way. Some of them are spot on, It's clear no one knows it all. I am optimistic my daughter will get over this, however i must admit it's not been easy facing this alone, her dad isn't even aware of this yet which i owe a part to. I'm willing to implement some of your candid advices and take another shot at managing my family not just for my sake but also that of this little innocent girl. I just hope it's not too late

I'm not new to nairaland but had to open a new account to share this anonymously. I'm prompted to narrate my story which is as real as the word real because the one thing that matters to me is suffering cause of me. My daughter of one year three months is sick. She suddenly developed this crazy seizure that has gradually grown to become more frequent despite medical attention.
A little about myself. I was raised as an only child by my mum as my parents separated before my third birthday. Mum was highly overprotective & worked hard that i never lacked the basic needs of life but as a result of my family setup which was just i & mum i grew up having no male figure over me to answer to. I developed an indifferent view about men as well as a strong opinion about what i felt about life generally. My days as an undergraduate in unilag, i wasn't really influenced by trends but had a few relationships that were short lived for reasons i can only look back & conclude were inevitable. Fast forward two years after service, working in the same average firm i did my nysc in delta state, in a long distance relationship with a friend of the family for one year eight months and finally settling down about two years ago. Had to leave work & move back to lagos to live with my husband.
To go straight to the point, after some months my family wasn't just working, with my husband using words like unyielding, adamant & unbending to describe me while on my own i concluded he's was a plain dictator and tyrant. Lots of embarrassing fights finally led to our separation with me going back home with our then nine months baby. My mum tried to talk me back but i just had my way as usual. Fast forward to today, i deliberately lost contact with my husband and can't even reach him again. Looking back, looking at others & looking at my daughter, something tells me i contributed to my situation perhaps from my upbringing. Perhaps the absence of a father denied me the opportunity to know the role of the husband and my role as a wife, it's clear i lacked the know-how and commitment to keep a relationship. As difficult as it is to admit which is why i ditched my known moniker to share this, I'll say i have no life presently. With my daughter's situation helplessly staring at me, no family life, no career life, no spiritual life and not even a spiritual family to run to as I've quite been unstable belonging to any church. Apart from my mum & a few family members which have been trying thier best, The Internet and it's faceless users are sincerely the only people readily accessible in these times. The need to have a normal family to confront life's challenges especially my daughter's issue is overwhelming. Probably a better family structure would have averted or served a better platform to face this challenge. I've lost contact with my husband & can't even muster the effort to locate him or his family after separating the way we did. The financial, emotional and physical burden is draining and something i didn't envisage. We just got back from the hospital on admission and i must confess i'm really exhausted. I don't even know what the future holds. Matured minds, please what's options should i explore? My kind of person, there are very few people i can confide in. I also need a job to ease the financial burden. I should never have been in this position. It's saddening.