22o62021:


I resign to Fate

Hmmm,

Reggaemich:
With great power comes great responsibility

If u know your strength and capabilities Op, u will still hold ON to God

U started hustling from young age to this point and graduated.

I don't think anything can pull u down again, because u have a great will-power and endurance (u are a made man)

U won't Die, because God knows you are all your mother have and your death will break your mother mind, so God will never allow that to happen

Remember, Don't give your will-power to satan,

Hold On to God, breakthrough is near

Hmmm

22o62021:
There is God but HE doesn't have any business with us.

If you are praying to God for money and life

It's a waste of time

I pray because it's already part of me

But my prayers has never been answered

I've been conditioned to believe right from small that I can't even move a finger without God's will.

But it seems he might really not have business with us or he just doesn't like me.

But how do you manage your day to day activities?

randymirrors:


Haha🤣🤣. I reject monetary gifts as well. The only thing I don't ever say no to is chocolates. I can even collect your children's own and add to mine. I don't like free things esp when it comes from men.

I know men do not give without expecting something in return, like saying no to favors like "you can stay with me pending when you get a place of your own". I say no to free lunch as well, send me your account details,.... cos when all these favours pile up, they begin to feel entitled. I feel that when you collect things from people, you give away your power.

Again, I don't eat other people's food, I don't know how people do that.

Someone was even angry with the OP and said he's suffering from mental pride🤣🤣

Ah. The job. Thanks. It happened in 2019.

Thank God there is at least someone like me. I thought I was crazy.

And thank God for your job, and thank you as well

FRANCISTOWN:

You know many people are used to begging, so they can't relate to the OP and they thought maybe he is arrogant.

I got a friend back in the days. This guy would never ask you for anything, even if his life depended on it.

When we were in school, the idiot didn't eat for 3 days yet when he came around and we offered him food, he still politely declined.

One day other guys them shout for him head before he started eating with us in out first year. All of a sudden we noticed that whenever he ate with us, we wouldn't see him for like ,2 weeks until we would go to his house and drag his ass out.
So one day I asked why he was always like that and he said "He doesn't know how to act around someone he has received from, that being around those people is always awkward".

This guy was so down to earth, very humble nevertheless even if you gave him something he would still reject .

Me I'm kinna like that too, but I don't reject money please 🤣🤣🤣.

Sadly this guy dropped out of school. It was later on we finally realised that he dropped out because he couldn't afford education and he couldn't seek for help.

It's not pride, but because some people are used to begging they'll never realise that there are people who feel like dying rather than to do it.

So there are people like the OP, I've met them face to face.

By the way, congratulations on your new found employment

So was your friend able to get done with his degree later on?

randymirrors:


This is me. I can't ask anyone for help. Let alone money. I'd rather die than ask even my parents for money. I remember a time when I was dead broke, I had left my job and my savings was running dry. Believe it or not, Eba without soup was my gotto. I'd stuff myself with it with water cos 1. I didn't want to lose weight so that people won't start asking what the problem was and 2. I didn't want to beg.

Not once, did I ask my bf then for one kobo. I never asked and he never gave.

I was already on my last card when God answered my prayers. I got a job at that point when it was almost done for me. And the offer was exactly double of my previous net.

😢But many people think it's pride. How I wish they would just understand

Jacksparrow7:
Can I have your contact?
I will send something.
Please, how can I get your contact?

Thanks so much sir😢, I sent you a PM sir.
My email is smileberry50@gmail.com
Thanks @ Jacksparrow7

LuQuLuQu:


My friend you are suffering from mental pride. You are sick and dying, you are soliciting for funds to help your mother before you die, yet you are too proud to beg and can't disclose the so called illness. Either you're a scammer or you are just one of the dimwits on Nairaland
Abeg go and die in peace and leave us the Bleep alone with your fake sob story

Thank you so much

FRANCISTOWN:
Man! I was already covered in sweat before I ended reading your story.
Bro! Some of us are very lucky in life I must say, if I had been thru half 'the shit you 'been thru bro, I fit don craze by now so, I may not really understand how you feel.

The most painful part of your story was where you said you sowed a seed of #250k into some churches so that God could heal you miraculously.

I'm sorry to break it out to you my brother, but there is no God anywhere that answers prayer. Think about it, if after you've prayed this much and sought your God this much and yet you couldn't catch his attention then it could only mean 4 things:

1. Either there is no God
2. There is God but he doesn't have the power to help therefore not omnipotent
3. He has the power to help but he doesn't give a bleep therefore not Omnibenevolent
4. He is busy with other people therefore not Omnipresent.

I read some dumbass people who were giving you some dimwit comments like "don't allow the devil to win you over. " So, I asked myself, if you really did all of that to get God's attention but you ended up getting the devil's attention then, anyone with at all half a fish brain should know that the devil cares about you more than the so called God.
By the way, there is no Devil anywhere the same way there is no God anywhere. At least you've seen it for yourself.

Religion spoilt your life, the God's ideology spoilt your life. If you had invested all the time you spent doing God's shit in other productive stuffs, your life wouldn't be as spoilt as this.

Though you didn't mention this , but seems like the marathon fasting worsen your health condition. You see, the Christians on this forum won't do shit. They'd rather they offer you one stupid faith ass shit that you've tried for almost 30years of your life that didn't work. They love acting like they see their imaginary sky-daddy on a steady.

You see, no one will save you. No God will save you.
@ Jaephoenix , the enjoyer of white wine, this is the same thing I was telling DtruthSpeaker and Kobojunkie in one of my threads.

@OP you see in Luke 4:25-> According to the Bible, fictitious Jesus himself speaking said
"“Listen to me: it is true that there were many widows in Israel during the time of Elijah, when there was no rain for 3.5 years and a severe famine spread throughout the whole land. Yet Elijah was not sent to anyone in Israel, but only to a widow living in Zarephath in the territory of Sidon. And there were many people suffering from a dreaded skin disease who lived in Israel during the time of the prophet Elisha; yet not one of them was healed, but only Naaman the Syrian.”

Using the above bible verses' excerpt, know that not everyone will support you or even believe you, and it's not their fault. There have been to many fabricated stories like this just to get funds.
Don't get me wrong, there are Billionaires on NL, Otedola, Dangote, Abu Abel, Mr Eazi, Adenuga, General_vibez and all could be on this forum and they could be not. Even if they came across your story, they might not be moved to help. That's how life is

There was a thread I came across some months back, a guy posted that he was about to commit suicide as life was too difficult for him. Many people entered the thread, bashed him and called him fake, cheap scammer and all sorts, some told him to Bleep off that life isn't fair. Months later, the same guy created another thread and mentioned how he was saved by just was it #7,000 or #9,000.
I really can't remember the exact amount. But the guy said someone or maybe 2 people from NL sent him that money and that was what stopped him from commiting suicide. Imagine how happy those people would have been for saving a person's life.

That's why atheism is the best mental positioning. You can't tell someone who had not eating for days that God loves him and start quoting some stupid bible verses. We've got to eat in these streets, and that's why atheism will offer a real life help because they know those nonsense don't work shit.
By the way, please reconsider going into fraudulent activities.

You do not see the reason in living because you've not enjoyed life, enjoyment starts with eating good food.

I'll send you a PM immediately I submit this comment, let's see what we can do to help from there first. I understand that some people are so uncomfortable with receiving help from people. I have a mandem like that so see it like you did not beg for it, I'm the one who wants to do it for free.
So stand tall bro.

I'm so sorry I'm just getting to reply, these past few days have been somehow... Thanks so much, I appreciate

frozen70:


Even if you have 24hrs to live,
What exactly is wrong with your health

You were specific about your mums health condition, so why are you keeping your health condition secret

Your story is touching, but how can one help in a situation where you are reserving some vital information about you

You mentioned EFCC, why should they come for you when you are just telling us about your life history, is life history now a financial crime

Anyway post your medical report here if you have any

Drop your phone number here if you are real

Drop your mum phone number here for us to reach both of you

We need to be very sure that your claims are real, then before one can request for your account details

Scamming is another soft yahoo

I believe your story's but I need prove to be very sure of all you said

Even if you have few months left as you claim by your Doctor, let us still touch your life

People are here and willing to assist you

Thank you so much ma, I appreciate that you are really concerned about me. If I really wanted to solicit for funds, I would have gone on a radio broadcast, or on Facebook or on any of the other social media where I can easily post all documents for verification.

Probably you were not from a house of polygamy. Everyone is looking for everyone's mistake to tear everyone down. If my half siblings knew I'm begging for help, there is no way the step moms won't know.

Do you want them to tell my mom she gave birth to just a child only for him to become a beggar?

I don't know how old you are, but if you were a mother yourself and someone says that to you, will it make you feel honoured? There is no honour among beggars. This is a faceless forum, no one knows, I could actually be your next door neighbor, or an old school timer. Let's reverse the case, if you were in my shoes, which you can never be. Is death not better than disgrace and shame?

I'm sorry ma but I'd like you to remember that, I might have been thru alot, but there are people who are having it worse than me, of course I can't be the most unfortunate.

Nowhere have I ever said anything in this message that I was looking for anyone to send me money.
If you gave me the money, what would I give to you in return? Or how will I work for the money you want to give me? Or how can I repay you? Obviously there is no way.

Would I just ask people to give me money without working or selling stuffs to them? To me it seems like stealing.

I heard Yahoo boys are always willing to teach other people, and they don't discriminate. I knew what I was looking for, and that's the only thing I'm focused on.

You also wanted me to drop my mum's phone number. Ewo! E je kin rora ma ba kadara mi lo bai

CarlosTheJackal:
Two things you refused to do here

The ailment that you are afflicted with that wants to kill you

Another is that your private details are being held tightly and the sob story looks 😏😏😏😏

I'm deeply ashamed of the ones I shared and I'm even wary because anyone who knows me face to face might connect the puzzle

iyke484real:
You are taking this too far...brotherly.

most of us are passing through similar or even worse situations yet we are not giving up, we keep pushing further as we believe in God for a better day ahead...

In as much as I like to applaud you for your doggedness, tenacity and resiliency as you struggles for survival, I also would love to call your attention or make an observation on something...

You need to know that life is not a bed of roses, the great 2pac Shakur was trying to explain this in his legendary line "me against the world". He was basically explaining what it feels like struggling for survival... especially for some of us who, should I say; weren't lucky enough to had come to this world with silver spoons in our mouths.... I know it's really hard for you but I want to encourage you to hold on a little more, don't give up yet bro. Keep believing in God he is your best plug in times like this... don't be deceived , there is God (a supreme being who answers prayer). I am a living testimony....

You are almost at the end of the tunnel...I encourage you to hold on a little more and believe in God for a permanent solution to all what you are passing through.

Thank you so much for your concern. The way you people talk about God is making me start to resent him. Let's leave God first

Lvgirl:

My brother spiritual help doesn't mean you wil bring the person u love as u watch it in movies. It's not so. It's just things dey do for u to enhance progress
You are a core novice

Oh! But what will I give in return?

Gaspardd:
Nobodies dies.... Birth is a death to the baby in the womb, while death is a new birth when the body can no longer function. So rejoice my brother.
Instead of focusing on ur mum, focus on ur new journey ahead. Your mum is in safe hands. She will soon be free too.

somehow, this is comforting... Thanks

Emmanuel30a:
Practically, logically, "BIBLICALLY",pragmatically,scientifically?,etc; ur story/stories, isn't believable let alone reliable&adorable... But, nothing is most adorable,honourable, reliable,believable, acceptable,etc; THAN GOD& LORD JESUS CHRIST... By d way, u can't be so ugly,etc; dat u won't want/b able 2 hold a Tphone conversation, gives ur whatsapp informations&or declarations,etc; 2 pple who may wants 2helps u... Don't be so naive,unbelievable, incredible,&gullible,etc...U can or shud b valuable&tangible... U&ur stories,etc; sounds/are sounding like some gullibles "nobles"from Grenoble, or lyk d gullibles from Grenoble(who are calling demselves nobles),etc; dat wants 2...troubles... Seems u aren't affable/humble...,etc? Is dat because are using/wearing goggle...? U probably av...,or don't need a preamble...? Dis...trouble dat erupts, wen pple who don't av quadruple of apple&P'apple bcoms couples...

Oh I understand, I guess you are not a Nigerian and English is probably not an official language in your country. You mentioned WhatsApp? You want my WhatsApp number? I'll send it to you Via mail , I can't just post my WhatsApp number here on a public forum. FBI and EFCC can track me down with it, even now that I've not started anything. I don't want to spend the rest of my days in detention please. You are not a Nigerian so you may not understand that in Nigeria you can be jailed for a crime you will be commiting in advance.

Emmanuel30a:
Scam? Let d dead buries dead... Carry ur cross/crosses(don't play a cross...),etc;& follows, or & continues 2 FOLLOW GOD& LORD JESUS CHRIST... Don't be so shallow..., or don't be such a shallow yellow fellow,etc; because u don't know/don't av wat 2swallow... Don't wallow in sorrow, or with sorrows,etc; wen u can b in D HOLLOW OF GODS&OF D LORD JESUS CHRIST PALMS... Allow GOD& LORD JESUS CHRIST, ETC; 2takes away ur sorrow... Wait with faith,dance away ur sorrows,etc; while u allows GOD&THE LORD JESUS CHRIST,ETC; 2takes away ur sorrow... U won't borrow/u won't av 2 borrow(or take a loan,etc),etc; with GOD& LORD JESUS CHRIST..., wen u are in D HOLLOW OF GOD& LORD JESUS PALMS, &wen GOD& LORD JESUS CHRIST TAKES AWAY ur "sorrows"... Don't do&don't say nonsense, "get sense",etc; 2 av access/D ACCESS,etc; 2D PRESENCE OF D OMNIPRESENCE, ETC; WHO ARE GOD&JESUS-DAT CAN/WUD GRANTS/GIVES u access 2 excess or excesses... Read...Bible...Genesis...

I don't quite understand

Lifeangel:
I must confess,i am down after going through this epistle of yours. Nonetheless,there's hope young man. All you're passing through in life is to build you and make you a better person who would be able to help people in the nearest future.
I want to assure you that you're not going to die and all wìll be well soon.
Please,i know you're in a desperate and tight corner,never engage in yahoo.
Whether you believe it or not,you will see the glory of God.
What's was the drug/medication prescribed by the so called medical experts? Perhaps someone on this platform can help out or better still i may consult my medical expert pal on what to do.
Please,how can i reach you privately?
Put yourself together and see what is gonna happen positively to you.
As for your dear mum,high blood pressure can be controlled,all she needs is to be sentisized on what to do.
I await your response on how to reach you.

Thank you so much, I know you are sincerely concerned about me. I used to be in the outreach department myself and there is probably nothing you want to tell me in christiandom that I do not know or have not tried. If it is anything about God or religion? I'm sorry, I'll have to politely decline. That is what spoilt my life to this extent. I don't have any more energy left to travel that path

MONEY247:
So sorry dear, 😭😭😭
So sorry.... life is war, life is painful,
And just everything we do revolves around money.....

I am also in dying need of cash, nobody available to help......
The struggles everyday, it's not easy

If you can go to any church, and ask for help, maybe something will come out....
But if it's gods will for you to find rest, The Lord be praised...
This world, this life is tiring.....

It's not easy

Which church I never go? Which mountain I never climb? Which prayer I never pray? I don't think there is anything out there watching over us

Lvgirl:





In Ur long epistle . You said the Dr said you have 6 to 18 months to live.
Now if I teach u Yahoo shey na for heaven info dey bill client. You sef think about it.
Since you are dying soon my brother , what you need is money ritual.
No tell JuJu man say u go die soon oo.. this way you will carry the gods on handicap/goal goal

But I heard they usually cash out within 6 - 12 months or was I wrongly informed.
As for the ritualism stuff, what if the baba said I should bring the person I love the most, which definitely is my mom.
And by the way, I'm not sure I believe in anything spiritual anymore

ghettochild4u:

To live?

Yes sir

joe4christ:


From what he wrote up there I think the damage has already been done. Niggar might not survive it just the plain truth. From a chest pain to crack on the rib before it degenerated to vital part of his body with pain in the abdomen and a professional doctor telling him he has between 6 months to a year max to live. It's obvious the damage is beyond repair and his health is fast deteriorating. Except by miracle brotherly has deadline!

I'm not even scared of death, but the person I'm living behind is my great concern

joe4christ:
I actually feel your pain bro. Life is not fair but we all come and go. Nobody ever comes out alive. Wish you the very best!

That's it .

AliEzeOlu:
Meaning, problem shared is half solved. What exactly is the health challenge?

There are a lot of health professionals on Nairaland, both traditional and conventional, who may have an easy medium for healing.

I practically shed tears reading this story. May God bring a total restoration and turnaround your way as soon as possible.

Even if anybody can help, it is probably too late by now. I'm just holding on until I'm able to do something grand for my mom. I'm already too tired

ibechris:
What exactly is the health challenge?
Tell us what it is,u simply don't know who might help u out.

Honestly speaking, it's not what anybody can help out. Plus I'm tired self, I think I've had my own share of life

Beverlyjean:
Y have served God all ur life... now that u are closer to seeing him, u want to allow the devil to win u ahead of God with months to go... The devil has planted the idea of sin just b4 u depart this world so he can win u... u hv suffered enough on earth, don't worsen it by going to hell as well ... ur mom will be fine regardless

I'm sorry ma, but these kind talks no dey enter my ears again.

MisteerConcord:
Which state are you living?

Ondo State at the moment sir, but I'll soon return to Ibadan

OloYeOfEgbE:
See speesh...Lonnng but I finish am.

GOODMORNING

Good morning sir

ofor1:
May God locate you. He can still turn things around for you bro.

Well I have just 6-12 months

six month. So I thought about it. The only way out is Yahoo. The Yahoo I had the privilege to learn so easily 10years ago is the only thing that can save me now. As much as we are in my family, no one is really that successful, everybody is still hungry, apparently there is no one to run to for help.
When I saw someone send $111,000 to a girl on OnlyFans just for a video of her playing with herself, I'm deeply convinced in me that, since they can't put their money to good use, Yahoos are helping them by taking from them what they would have wasted to begin with.
Why not pray? I'm sorry, I can't pray again, I've probably prayed and fasted more than 20people joined together, as it is, I've lost belief in any spirituality, whether God or Satan of anything, I just don't have the energy for that anymore. Whether there is God or not, I honestly don't know, but I'm sure if there is, he probably doesn't remember he made someone like me or he just doesn't like me much, maybe because I'm not that good to look at, maybe I'm my own God.
Why not beg? Everyone is going thru one or two, how much can I possibly earn from begging that can make my mom's life easy??
Why not give your mom a grandson before you leave? Well, I cannot our someone's daughter into a life of misery knowing fully well that I may not even get to see the kid. I am very dark , so dark that I stain a white material plus I'm very short, no woman would even want me, so I avoid them too.

So please I beg you, you will not die in Vain, come and teach me Yahoo, please teach me Yahoo, I can also push drugs, I can do anything, lemme just treat my mom and put her in the right way of life. Anything you want me to do, I'll do, please just teach me this Yahoo. I'm sorry if this post is offensive, I just don't know what to do.
Please do not mind the errors, my eyesight is also blurry as I type this.
Please here is my Gmail ' smileberry50@gmail.com. I grab things very quickly, we may not even need to talk on WhatsApp

All I had was #250k , and since we were all brought up as Christians to believe in the healing power of Jesus, I said to myself , I've been studying the Bible since all these days and I've tried as much as possible to avoid intentional sins, I'm sure His would heal me because I am a chosen generation, a peculiar person , called forth to show his glory. I downloaded almost all the healing messages in this world, from Oral Roberts to Smith Wigglesworth, Kenneth Hagin, Kenneth Copeland, Bishop David Oyedepo, Daddy Adeboye, Rev. Chris Oyakhilome,Apst. Joshua Selman.

and I fasted for good four months straight with vigils every night, 4hours prayer during the day and 30mins praise everyday. for a whole day I kept giving thanks,
and during the time that I was not praying, I was listening to those sermons
I withdrew all my savings, sold every tangible thing that I had, tied the sickness with it and I sowed them all together as a seed into a church. I was really desperate to live, I'm the only one my mom has, If I died today , it would be a waste bringing me into this world to begin with. She went thru a lot to have me, I heard she spent days on mountains of prayers before I was born.

After my rigorous spiritual exercise. A week after, I went back to the hospital. By now I was sure that I had been healed, so I just went there to shame the devil but to my disappointment. The situation had already worsen . I had already lost my job and I've sowed all my savings, feeding was extremely difficult. I am one person who really don't know how to beg, since I was young whenever I begged my dad for anything , he would always say "No". That made me realise that begging for anything in life is a "no", "no". Bros as I type this, I swr to whoever the God out there is, I ate grass, I went thru hell, those of you who have garri to drink do not even know that you are special. For one week on a roll I was desperately hoping to see #100 to buy garri and "kulikuli" but it never came.

Finally I was mobilised for service last year after 4months of first hand and class hardship. I was happy because I'd be able to send something to my mom again. Okay, so, I had the intention of going back to Tech, which obviously I'm way behind putting my age into consideration.
Now here is the issue, on the 25th of December , I started feeling an excruciating pain in my lower abdomen. The pain was so intense, and since all corps member have access to HMO, I decided to visit the HMO to know what's up. Well long story short, my time is up. I have just 6-18months to live. Well, that's not the problem, to be real, I'm sincerely tired, I think I've tried my best.
The problem is my mom was diagnosed with High Blood Pressure last month, she collapsed while in church and she was rushed to the hospital by members. She has been about hospital twice this month. That woman doesn't deserve that kinna end, I need to put her in the right path of life before I leave. The problem is I do not have much time in my hands, I must dedicate at least 1year to tech before I can start making any money from it, there is no assurance of any good paying job after NYSC that can fetch me the amount of money she needs for a good life after my demise. So I need something that can fetch me reasonable amount of money in

When I got to SS3, I had already become the controller general of truants that I missed school for 70days out of 105days of the term. I became so dull, that I blew my WAEC, I failed Chemistry, but I had other subjects. Okay, so, I had all the time to hustle.

I did 2 jobs at the same time to gather enough money to train myself thru school (My first Terrible mistake). Every day except Sunday I walked a distance that can be likened to something from Epe to Eleko junction (though it was not Lagos originally). I later stopped that work did some other stuffs before and I became a house tutor for some kids who wanted to sit for WAEC then.
As much as I was suffering, I never played with the things of God, always going to church and serving at my best capability that I even got noticed.

I later heard that the kids I tutored sat for WAEC and chewed it. That boosted my confidence so, I sat for NECO and I did well with good grades.

Okay, I sat for Jamb, I had 260 but I failed the Post UTME like I didn't even sit for it at all so, I had to deflect to a polytechnic. I had already saved enough through my rigorous hustle and fortunately enough I also worked as a food server at events during my school days.
I did pretty well in my school days. I thought academic success would bring me out of poverty, so I studied to death that I was like times 2 better than the best student on my department. I read computer science, but I couldn't afford a laptop nonetheless I would write codes on paper and those with laptops would run the code successfully without any bug. In my HND 2 , I started experiencing a kind of pain in my chest region which I really didn't take seriously.
I finished the HND program and NYSC didn't seem feasible so I started job hunting, since I couldn't lay my hands on any job, and man must eat. I had to go back to the block industry work . I did that until 2020 when the chest pain became excruciating.
I had a lil money saved up, so I went to a general hospital. It took a whole week before I could see a doctor, he asked me to go for a scan which I did. Then he said I had a "rib crack" , that I should at all costs avoid anything heavy again lest I'd worsen my health.
That was more than a bad news for me, how was I going to survive was the question I was thinking of. Alright so, I got int introduced to GNLD which later went on to become "Neolife". If anyone ever worked with Neolife, there is something called "E sorté Alu-money-é ".
While on this "E sorté Alu-money-é" adventure ,of how many people I met, I met a particular Yahoo guy in his car who offered to teach me his like of business, gave me his number and by this time I had already forgotten how to write a simple "Hello World" in any programming language.
I finally got a Job of #30k per month, to me, this was a great deal . Though my TFare, every month is #15k, so here is what I did. I would leave home very early to walk half the distance which was 30 mins amidst banana plantation so as to rwduce my TFare to #5,000 . I sent #5k to my mom every month and I saved #10k every month. I had to go hungry to meet up with the #10k.
Sooner my boss started to pick interest in me because he thought I was brilliant and he soon increased my salary to #40k.
I had saved close to #250k until when I was diagnosed with an ailment, with Which I would be needing millions of Naira to treat. It was like a "movie', I swear to God, I thought people only have that kind of sickness in movies, I never knew people do have it in real life.

modified:
Please @ Frank22y @ Racksody... Please overlook my Idiosyncrasies and imperant audacities , please check this out.
@ Racksody, I don't know why I can't send you a PM.
My sincere heartfelt gratitude towards Francis and eyinju112 (God bless these persons who never knew me from anywhere but are so good to me😢😢) Thank you so much


I recently discovered Nairaland about a month ago, and I'm infact impressed about what I've seen so far. This could be my last ray of hope. I'm not seeking empathy, but I need help.
Please I don't know which section to put this, lemme Sha put it anywhere
Please do not mind the errors. My fingers are faster then my brain.
I am almost 30 and looking at my life so far, it seems I took an oath of allegiance to hardship so, before you judge me, I'd like you to please read thru.
This is not to allure sympathy but to show how desperate and determined I am, so I'll keep it short.
My mom got married to a polygynous man who already had 3 wives before he married my mother when she was in her early 20s. He later went on to marry 2 more women which makes his wives 6 in total.
From what is obvious, my mum had me after 22 years of pain and endurance. I was told, and I even saw briefly how she was being maltreated by my father and even her rivalries. To cut the story short, my mum is the fourth wife, The fifth wife got 2 kids who are well older than myself, but as for the 6th wife, I heard my dad married her when I was 2 years old, so I'm 4years older than her first child My dad has so many children, so much that we are being counted in dozens.

I began preliminary school when I was 3 years old, and I had a double promotion when I was in primary school; I heard I was quite brilliant. I topped the class till I got to primary 4 but dropped to the 10th position in my primary 5. I took the common entrance examination and I got admitted into one of the best government high school in the state. Okay I didn't tell you, My dad had a big farmland that we always worked on every weekend and holiday, he was quite comfortable then.

Crazy things started happening when I was in primary, he started losing his money and his properties really fast, so he could no longer cater for all and he focused his remaining wealth on the last wife and her two kids. This was when hardship became my best friend. I had to skip school many times to hustle at a garri processing plant to get a lil one or two. Then I was paid #5 to peel a full basket of cassava. I had to peel 10 full basket if I was going to go home with #50.
My mom never really had any certificate and she worked as a cleaner at a nearby clinic then. she was almost not making any money then because Whatever she earned, we spent basically on food.

I was still brilliant in my high school days that most of the times, teachers would ask me to teach my classmates during their periods and to put them to test. At JSS2 I could conceivably draw the Nigerian map, Digestive system, Respiratory System, The human skeleton and anatomy with full labellings.

When I got to SS1 I was already becoming strong, so I started work at a block industry, so , many times I skipped school to work as a "carrier" , not like a "carrier" of virus or sort. If you've ever worked at a block industry, you would know there would be an operator, a mixer and 2 carriers. As carriers, we were paid #100; #50 per person for whatever how many blocks we carried from a bag of cement which sometimes may be 60 or 65.

I was very skillful at playing football that people even used to give me monetary gifts whenever I was playing football then. I had to stop playing football because Mom kicked against it, she said a church member's son died while playing football because a ball was kicked at his chest, so, I had to stop playing football.