@ sisikill trust me i see the funny side,
she say she needs my trust, that i'm paranoid, me sef i know jo, but how i go do, i tire. She broke it down, my choice to believe. e b like say i go sit am out, but on this ocassion she is making an effort to convince me there's nothing.

she say d guy get babe, 1, they are neighbors,2 i don end am sha, but she says she doesn't want us to end on the note that i think she has something with d guy, that they are good friends, According to her"it will be very unfair on her part to cheat not tell me after all we've been tru"

Trust me, i can be very paranoid, but sometimes it can't just be controlled


Meanwhile d person ranting about my psot oyinbo whateva, more pls.

just typed my problems away, didn't think and its my first post. i've always been a passive user.

poured my hear out, pls bear with me, just had to

if u can't read it all, bone!!! i summarized issues in a two year relationship.

i'm typing this at 3am trying desperately to sleep, but sleep is not forth coming! I've been with this girl for about 2 years now and i've never had so much joy being with just one girl. Truly i thought this feeling never existed. i was willing to give my all to make it work but it didn't. i meet her somewhere worked and fell hard, as in really hard. I started making moves hoping my love-vendor game will end with her(trust me used to b a bad 1, thinking of going back). She said she had a shaky relationship and wasn't really ready to commit yet, but i pushed hard and we started seeing. where i first had issues with her,though it wasn't supposed to be, she said her so called boyfriend was coming to town that i should be outta sight for a bit, since we were not official i decided to oblige, reason,  i sincerely send this babe. she was at my house that day and i said b or something we should go to a club or something, she declined and said she wanted to go, she did and i went to the club and met her with the guy. I was bitter, but didn't bulge because i knew what i wasgentn into. The next day i called her she didn't answer till like later in the day and said that she had always told me,  and i quite agree. Here sex wasn't the issue, it was just something i couldn't comprehend and still don't. that same day i had a terrible accident and the car i was driving was badly wrecked and the one that ran into me also was badly damaged. she tried desperately to reach me when she heard and finally did and wanted to see me. She came and we had a Lill chat and she chilled for a bit even though i didn't want her around at that time. After that we became closer and she said she wasn't ready to commit, i was convinced l would be able to make her see reasons to commit. We started seeing again till she agreed to make it official and trust me i was like a kid again. The feeling wasn't mutual, meaning the likeness was in different degrees more from me. She has a crappy job, that delays payment in salaries, like the sun and the moon I'm always there when i have. Things started gentn worrisome when she said she still has to be seeing her friends and most of them are male, and that i should try and understand and not get paranoid, i tried sincerely i did, but my paranoia is on another level. we spend like 300 days together in a year, that was how close we were. this male calls got me worried, anytime i ask she says they are friends and that there was nothing going on between her and any of them. as it happened i started reading her test messages, the first time i saw some messages from a guy nothing serious but i didn't like it. one time he sent her money and i didn't ask because i knew i shouldn't b going tru her phone, but paranoia wouldn't let me be. when her rent expired, she moved in with me, we quarreled a lot, cos she was frigid, mostly. she stayed with me for like 4 months, but i enjoyed it sha, i nor go lie. When she moved out, i sensed we were going to be having issues because she wasn't willing to disclose information when i needed them. e.g when she's with a guy i ask here who she's with and she says i don't know the person, i found it hard to swallow, but just couldn't move on, i wonder why! things started gentn a bit crappyy because i just didn't trust her and it was affecting the way i treat her. can u imagine i buy almost everything for this girl, she can go a week without money for herself to buy lunch, recharge card, even pad sometimes she doesn't have money for, and she drives a car, a good one for that matter( so beware of these fine girls u c around drivingn fine whips,Naa screen saver,  some sha). and sometimes she says i try but its not enough, considering the fact that she i quite old and should be doing more with herself in life( she's from a rich home with good standards and principle, where they believe everyone should work for them self).  i feel she sees what other girls her age are getting and think i should be getting the same, but she's been quite patient, i nor go lie. like few months back i went to her church for a crusade or something of that sort, when we were going she said there was this guy she needed to take home, that they were neighbors. i said ok. i noted the name of the caller. i  got this small contract for her and as we were on our way there a call came tru and she was sayn she wasn't in the office and when she gets back she'll call. after she received the call i asked for her phone. it was the same guy, went tru her sms saw a message where she was saying she was going to cuddle with him b4 she goes to work, i went mad. when we got there i asked who d guy was and she said they were friends, when i asked about the sms, she saidI'vee been acting up and she was waiting for the whole relationship to hit the rock, that she likes the guy.  my silence and cold shoulder towards her cos of these guys made her think i was seeing someone else, i wasn't going to her house they way i used to, no lunch and things like that, anyways she said they had nothing and that they were friends and that she likes him, she wasn't going to lie. i asked if she wanted to move on with him and she said no, but that she didn't have feelings for me anymore, she saw me more like a friend now. that's girl talk i said to myself, i convinced her to like me b4 and i could still do the same. she said she wasn't seeing him and i believed. Today i changed my engine so i used her car today, went to pick her up from work and she dropped me off, said she was going for a call to bar party. i went home to watch champions league. she called around 10 to say she was going home and i told her drive safe. like an hour later i called and told her that i was driving cos my boss sent me this 2009 Avensis to use for a bit, so i thought what d hell, let me surprise her, this was like 1130pm, though from her tone i knew she wasn't home. so i drove there, as i got into the compound, i saw she was just coming down from her car, i knew she lied first of. when i approached her she said i came to nab her yeah? i didn't notice there was a guy in the shadows, finally i did, suspected she brought him, but needed confirmation. so we went into her house and i asked her why she lied, she said she went somewhere, i asked with who, she said she wasn't going to say, she finally did and said she took someone somewhere, i asked who, still she didn't say. a call came in and she started laughing, so i strolled outside and saw the frame of that same guy that i met in church, i forgot to add, she introduced me to the guy, yes it was the same guy, he was just walking out talking to the girl i was with, i came back and asked her that still she kept leading this guy on, she said they were friends and that nothing was going on. what made me mad was when she said i should give her two Min's to go drop the guy, i told her to tell him to find his way that he is not a baby, she said she brought him and that there was no way for him to get a cab, i told her that she should do what ever she wants and left. i need all the bashing i can get, y cos i freaking fucking love this girl, but i know its very wrong. I'm going back tomorrow morning to end it officially, i hope i meet the guy. anyways, I'm burnt bottom line, cos i put my all, think of it in anyway, into it. and i get this. she didn't bother to even call to say or ask anything. SHE COLD!!! Lil woman Na die sha!!! dunno what i did wrong, but i ain't going close to 2 weeks with any girl now, lets just live d life at the moment.  sad though very sad, like i said earlier,  bashing most is welcomed