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Each time he got to the end he thought of Lucy, loyal, faithful and understanding, and he would crumble inside all over again. Thinking of God was just too much for him, he felt as if he would crumble under the burden of guilt that enveloped him. Then he found himself rationalizing and justifying what happened, it was just a kiss, and that was all it was. Lucy didn't have to know, and God would forgive him. He kept telling himself over and over, it was just a kiss!



That night he'd finished his shift, and gone to bed, feeling a bit okay. He'd even managed to act like nothing happened when Beth came in for her shift just as he finished for the day. Grabbing a quick dinner he'd gone up to his room determined to spend more time than usual talking to Lucy.



After about an hour of talking, she felt sleepy, then they said goodbye and clicked off. Feeling sleepy also, he drifted off. There was a knock on the door he woke startled thinking he imagined it, and then he heard it again. Jumping off, he turned on the lights and without thinking flung open the door. And there she was standing there, carrying his work bag.



Did I wake you up? She asked



No! Not really. He said feigning indifference even though he was panicky inside



She then explained to him that she just came to drop his bag and she really had to get back to work. Handing the bag to him



He made to take it, but grabbed her hand instead. It's funny now that he thought about it but that one touch was all it took to trigger the long ticking time bomb that had been set to detonate years ago.


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All the while Ibi listened, urging him to keep talking, giving nothing away. Matt continued talking, 'during the dry spell he'd developed in his sex life, he'd really missed being with his wife, constantly wishing he could work on getting past the awkwardness of harming the baby and of Lucy's bumpy and ever growing stomach in bed with them. He'd gone off shore on an emergency at one of the drilling sites and realized that he and Beth were the only engineers scheduled to be on duty throughout the period. He'd realized later on that instead of 12 weeks he would have to be there longer than expected so as to constantly monitor things before somebody else came to take over from him, his boss pleaded with him. He realized he would have to muster enough control to last him throughout with Beth being around him all the time.



After the first 4 weeks, one night he'd started work on Friday morning only to realize that Beth hadn't been on duty throughout the night shift, checking with his co-workers, he was relieved to hear that nothing had gone wrong. Angry at her for not even having the decency to notify him of her absence so he could cover for her he stalked off to her room. Knocking on the door, he heard her ask who it was, he answered and she told him to come in, he walked in to find her still in bed, making an effort to put some space between them, he questioned her briskly about why she hadn't showed up for her shift, while trying to put out images in his head of how she looked under those covers out of his head.



She sounded surprised at his question and she told him, telling him that she'd called Tony one of their colleagues and asked him to cover for her and also notify him, which obviously he didn't do.



Well I wasn't called during the night at all. He replied sheepishly



Have you seen him this morning? She asked



No I haven't. He admitted feeling all the anger draw out of him, he was in the habit of showing up an hour early before his shift, which meant if he'd showed up on his starting time he might have seen Tony leaving and got the message.



So what's wrong with you? He asked



Instead of answering she'd gotten out of bed without even asking him to turn around, wearing just her briefs and her bra, apologized for her state, grabbed her jeans and top and stalked off to the bathroom. Keeping him waiting she had a quick shower which was obviously too quick because in her hurriedness she hadn't bothered to properly dry up , instead she came out with her top clinging all over her and it was obvious to Matt she wasn't wearing a bra. Then she apologized for keeping him waiting and explained that she'd had a terrible migraine and decided it was best to stay in bed rather than for her to show up all grumpy and in a bad mood, which wouldn't do well for team spirit. She'd planned to check in on them every hour and in case of a no show she had asked Tony to cover for her as a precaution if she felt too dizzy from the cold and flu medicine she took, and that was the whole story.



She was tidying up her room while she spoke and all he found himself thinking was the angles and curves of her body as she moved about the room. Turning to face him she raised both her hands to pull her wet black hair into a pony tail giving him the full size view of her boobs practically bursting through the seams of her top and that was when he lost it.



He remembered walking up to her and kissing her, and grabbing her all over at once and she doing the same, and it was as if time stood still until eventually he backed off, realizing what he'd done. Apologizing to her he practically ran out of the door leaving behind his things. Barely making it back to work, he tried to concentrate but couldn't , playing everything all in his head over and over, from the supple lightness of her moves, to the pleasure of the kiss, to the guilt of breaking his vows, and back again to the start.


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It was just another holiday as far as they were concerned, but who was he to judge, considering his current actions, in the eyes of God he was just on the same level with them. He had to stop this thing with Beth, the fact that she dared to come close his family in spite of his warnings to her that they keep this thing out his personal life and most especially the church, spoke volumes about this dangerous relationship. The following year he vowed was going to be a spotless one in terms of his fidelity, 2003 was a going to be a good year he vowed.



Driving to church took longer now since they'd moved to Stone haven when they'd found out they were going to be having kids, it wasn't planned at all, but they had to adjust. Based on the doctor's calculations she had conceived during their wedding night, sometimes he wondered if he wouldn't have crossed the line if Lucy hadn't gotten pregnant, or very sick during the first few weeks making it difficult for them to be together, or even after wards when she'd gotten better and they'd realized they were pregnant, he'd felt very awkward making love to his wife.

Even though their doctor had explained to him how safe it was and gave him a few tips position wise, which he'd managed to listen to without going red in the face! He still couldn't adjust his thinking, and Lucy in the end had understood deciding that they would wait till he was comfortable, then he'd grabbed the chance to go off shore for about 20 weeks. He tried to call regularly to ease the guilt of leaving her alone and of the affair he had by that time started.



Pouring his heart to his friend, he spoke of how it had started with Beth. Back at the main office in Aberdeen, he'd realized he was attracted to her, while he was still engaged to Lucy, and she on the other had had no scruples about his engagement, and constantly showed him the green light, in words, looks, and her whole body language, which was enough to drive any man crazy especially he who was struggling with his relationship with God. He'd let her know in many ways and words that he wasn't available, brought Lucy's pictures and of both of them together looking happy to his office desk setting it in an angle that could not be missed by anyone.



He'd let it known to her in their conversations that he was a Christian and premarital sex was considered a sin. But he had to admit, he wasn't really as convincing as he should have been, he could have avoided all contact with her like applying for a role outside his department. There were always in-house vacancies available, but he didn't think all these then, for Beth was truly an attractive woman, and a surprisingly decent person, she'd felt so bad when things eventually happened between them, crying constantly about how she respected marriage and how she didn't want to be the other woman but that she just couldn't help her feelings for him.

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The earlier joy and peace had been drained as a result of the events of the past few hours, he'd managed to make it past lunch without slipping up, and he'd done his share of watching the kids, while Lucy cooked. Once finished she served him his meal first, which he ate while he held on to Michelle feeding her slowly with the bottle. Lucy had to breast feed Michael first since he'd rejected the bottle, Michelle also was acting up with the bottle feed and it just wasn't fair that her brother had to go first but she was always a great spot about it, still Matt watched TV with her to keep her busy, while Lucy breast fed Michael.



Now he understood how she lost all the weight, breastfeeding and nursing two kids could do that to you. Michelle had her turn, and she was surprisingly hungrier than usual. Lucy realized she really had to start watching her daughter closely for she rarely gave away her emotions, it bothered her to think that she'd been so focused on giving Michael all the attention while his sister had been hungry the whole time, and had being quiet about it too, knowing that mummy would come around to her eventually.



Just thinking that almost made her tearful; she couldn't bear the thought of not being a good mother, favouring one kid over another! She was an only child like Matt too, and although it was lonely she knew how it felt having all the attention of her loving parents on her. Shaking her head she knew she had to work on her nurturing skills as a mother, these were destinies in her hands, one wrong move and it could have a catalytic effect on the future. Watching her daughter feed, she prayed earnestly in her heart for God to bless her with the wisdom to understand and raise this kids according to his will, she prayed fervently as if that was all that mattered, she cried to God in her heart begging for help with His children and she believed He heard her cry and answered her prayer.



Matt drove down to the church, admiring the signs that indicated that the town was really gearing up for the Christmas season, even though it was just November, Union Street the main city centre was already ablaze with wonderful Christmas lights depicting images of Santa Claus and his train of elves, if only this townspeople would pay much attention to God as they did to celebrating a season, they had practically zero understanding about.


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Opening the door to the Range Rover Jeep, she carefully tucked in Michael her sweet caramel skinned son who looked just like his father, praying he wouldn't wake up for he loved and demanded attention, unlike his sister Michelle who everyone said was the spitting image of her, with her peanut butter skin revealing promises of the 'bronze toned smoothness' eventually going to spring forth in her teenage years, oh! She's so beautiful, she whispered to Matt as she watched him tuck her in on the other side.

Fighting back the tears of joy she felt as a mother every time she looked at her family, she felt truly fulfilled and grateful to God for making her dreams come true, He truly was a great God. Carefully closing the door, she slid into the front seat beside Matt who'd started the jeep, shutting the door, they slowly as one moved in one accord to church.



Matt sat next to his wife in the nursing mother section in the sanctuary, completely tuned off, he knew he had no right to look God in the eye and ask forgiveness for something he was going to do again. He couldn't help himself, he had it all, a beautiful wife, two amazing kids who made him feel proud, and you would think he would be contented with that but no! He had to go and put his hands in fire, and now he was knee-deep in it, but he just couldn't back out. He looked beside him at Lucy, who was listening attentively to the sermon. They were quite good friends with the pastor, Ibi who was an African, very eloquent and explicit in his sermons. He remembered the days of his marriage counseling when the man equivocally told them that divorce was not an option for Christians. He had even stated it clear not even in the case of infidelity



But Moses in Old Testament allowed for this to happen. Matt countered



Ibi smiled at him and said, 'why do people always say that when this topic comes up. Moses gave the people of Israel the option of divorce because of their stubborn and stiff-necked ways even Jesus confirmed it in the new testament, when he was talking to the philistines, and he said ' but from the beginning it was not so'



So Matthew, you need to think about this issue of marriage deeply, it is till death do you part. Would you rather be divorced and remarry against God's commandment or wouldn't you rather think carefully about it before you go into it, God is ready to walk with you in this journey, it's a call to serve one another, and to serve God but you have to come into it with the right heart, it's not about sex only, emotions and feelings will change over the years, but what will keep you two together?



Before I got married to Abby, I thought about it and became convinced in my heart that there was nothing she would do, that would make me stop loving her, nothing! And by dealing with those issues in my heart before we got married I gave no room for the devil to toy with me, and I did not limit my affections for her only to when things were rosy. Matthew that's what marriage is all about, you need to go home, search yourself and determine what your point of tolerance is, because there will be times when you will be offended or hurt but if you learn to focus on your love for her, you will find out that your home would be peaceful.



It's all in the heart Matthew, it's all in the heart.'



Casting his mind back to the present, he looked at the man on the podium preaching his heart out and wished he had an iota of control he had. He'd thought about what he said to him that day and he'd asked God to help him to apply it, but never in his wildest dreams did he think that he would be the one to cross the line. He shook his head with regret at his actions casting a side glance at Lucy again, wondering if she would ever forgive him, for what he'd done to her and their vows. It wasn't that they were not happy, because for the past two years they'd been, and even though he'd not being there, because he'd been off-shore regularly sometimes for weeks and even for 6 months at a stretch, she'd been so understanding about it all.

She was so dedicated to this marriage, it was sometimes frightening, to see her commitment, to her business, to him, to the children, even to her looks, she wanted to be the best, and he mentally applauded her because she was almost perfect. After giving birth to the kids, she'd struggled to diet and exercise, while dealing with the business and the kids, pushing herself for God knows why. He'd had to specially call the grandmothers to arrange a time in the week where they took charge of the kids to ease the guilt of his being away, and despite her insistence Lucy eventually agreed to it.



After the birth of the kids they'd decided that two was enough and she would have to take things gradually, although he won't be there to find out if she did. He would be somewhere else with another woman as usual, even through the whole birth experience, when Alice was trying to reach him, to tell him that he was about to be a father he'd been with Beth. Sitting down here in church he cried inside, wondering how he got into this mess.



He prayed, God please take away this guilt from me, please my family is the best thing in my life, being an only child I've always wanted to have my own family, and now I do, I'm tearing it down with my own hands, please God have mercy on me, forgive me, I promise to stop, I promise! Please save my marriage. I can't bear to tell my wife that I've been unfaithful to her, over and over again through the past one year she was carrying our children, she thinks the world of me, although I don't know why. So please let's keep this between us, I will tell her someday, but not today. Please God help me. He cried.



The sermon was ending, and the Pastor had asked for everyone to rise up, looking at him Matt suddenly felt this strong conviction in his heart to speak with him. Knowing it was God urging him to reach out; he made a mental note to do so.



After the service ended, he looked at Lucy who was tending to his son, who just woke up few minutes ago, crying the whole place down, people say the child was the spitting image of him, including his own mother who'd even brought his baby pictures to confirm, looking at him now being bottle fed by his mother, he suddenly realized they were right. This was his son, and he was his father, his Father. God! He couldn't afford to ruin this.



Looking up Lucy smiled at him giving him a quizzical look that asked Matt, what's on your mind?



He realized himself and glanced at Michelle, who was widely awake and had been throughout the service quietly taking in her surroundings. Now this one he believed, she was exactly her mother both in looks and in attitude, and he could see that he was going to have to barricade his house when the time came for her to start noticing boys, for she was truly a budding beauty. Looking up he saw some church members already making their way towards them, greetings began and glad that Lucy had companions to talk with for a few minutes, he excused himself hurriedly gave her a look saying 'I'll be right back', and went in search for Ibi.



He had to wait his turn and eventually he was in the front line, after a few pleasantries, he whispered to him quietly so his PA, who was right behind him wouldn't hear.



I need to speak with you urgently, nodding his head to show how serious it was.



Ibi looked at him and knew something was troubling him and although he would have liked to spend the evening with his family there was always room for God's children in his schedule anytime. He suggested that Matt come to see him around sixish in the evening at the church office.



Matt agreed instantly grateful, asked about the family and quickly went back to Lucy.



His excitement about the meeting and the possible solution to his adulterous existence made him so happy that the shock of seeing her with his wife, did not register on time and when it did he thought he would pass out from the sudden surge of adrenaline that pumped up to his heart. Walking closer he could her some bits of their conversation



So Friday is a good time right? Beth asked



Yeah! is 12pm alright with you? Lucy asked



Of course! That's great Beth replied



Lucy looked to her right and saw Matt coming towards her with a fixed smile on his face; she wondered what he had been discussing with the pastor.



Guess we have to be going? So see you on Friday Beth. She bent down to put Michelle back in her car seat, totally missing the look that passed between Matt and Elizabeth.



Matt bent down to pick Michael up too, grateful that Lucy hadn't bothered to introduce them, wondering why too?



Together they walked towards the main door, each carrying a car seat, as they tucked the twins into the car, Lucy said to Matt I can't wait to have lunch I'm really hungry, widening her eyes for emphasis as she said so, thereby answering Matt's question of why he and Beth were not introduced for when Lucy was hungry, she barely thought straight, but he wouldn't let it go, later he would still ask her how she knew Beth, and when he eventually saw Beth he was going to 'be really upset with her'.



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Few hours later there was finally peace with everybody's needs eventually satisfied for the moment, the kids bathed and fed, and Lucy having time to herself to tidy up.







The main door slammed as Matt stepped into the house, jolting Lucy out of her reverie. He was carrying some flowers and a box of chocolate with an apologetic look on his face.



Hi Lu. He greeted



Hi. Lucy replied



I'm sorry for the way I stormed out earlier, please forgive me. I know they are both our responsibility and you have also had a stressful week dealing with them, so I had no excuse to make my week sound more special. Lu I'm sorry can you forgive me.



Lucy smiled. Times like this she saw a shadow of the Matt she married and it made her feel loved. Accepting his flowers and the box of chocolate, she dropped them on the centre piece and carried the twins to the room. She'd learned today that Matt needed more time to adjust to fatherhood. It took a while but Lucy learned that her husband was quite good with buying her gifts but not with dealing with his kids. She learned from then on to take advantage of the grandparents.



Lucy dashed out of the house carrying a car seat comfortably seating Michael; Matt was right behind her carrying the other car seat, with Michelle their daughter while he tried to lock the door.



They were late for the Sunday service as usual, this lateness was one of the things they were both trying to adjust to with their new status as parents for almost a year now, even though her mother and Matt's had offered to move in to assist she'd declined preferring them to baby sit instead.


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Lucy watched her ill equipped husband ignore his son's tears and walked away out of the nursery carrying his daughter, while he shouted for her to go attend to 'the boy'. Feeling upset she asked him to give Michelle to her, while he went back and righted the wrongful injustice his son was feeling however young he might seem. Matt refused saying he wasn't in the mood to sooth a crying baby, as he'd had a busy week.



Just then Michelle decided to start up her own torrent of tears and the whole house became a wailing nightmare. Matt in that instant dumped Michelle on Lucy grabbed his keys and stormed out of the house. Complaining about needing peace of mind, as he needed to relax, and ordered Lucy to ensure the kids were out of the way when he came back. With that he stormed out leaving her to deal with it all. Lucy cuddled her daughter surprising herself as tears slipped down her face unawares. Her daughter stopped there and then surprised at the change in her mother. Lucy could have sworn she saw a fleeting expression of sympathy pass over her face as she fell quiet.



Together they went back to the nursery to deal with her brother whose wails had increased in tempo with every minute he felt ignored. Backing her daughter on her back she kept her firmly there with a length piece of cloth she tied round herself just as her mother taught her. She then lifted up her son and went to the bathroom to change him.

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Fearfully Lucy insisted she hold her, she started to pray for her speaking in tongues together with Alice praying too, while the rest of the medical team watched on panicky as precious minutes slipped by which could benefit the baby through the right medical attention, but this was a private hospital. Immediately she had a divine inspiration; she opened her daughter's mouth and breathed in to her as led by her spirit. A second later the baby gasped and opened her eyes, she stared at Lucy as if wondering who she was and then started to cry. The medical team jumped out of their stupor and sprang into action, everyone glad and wondering how the second baby could have been missed.



Just then Lucy's mobile rang; it was Matt he explained he'd been unable to reach his mobile and asked how she was, wishing he was there. Too tired to be angry, Lucy shocked him into silence as she told him the great news, he was a proud father of twins!



Hello, Hello Matt are you there? She asked



Matt can you hear me? She asked again



Michael Peters woke up hungry and in need of attention determined to get it he cried as loudly as his lungs could take and just when he was about to give up hope, loving warm hands carried him into the sweet embrace of his mother's bosom, where he desperately latched on to his source of food, happy and at peace.



His mother watched him feed lovingly caressing his face as she took in his features similar to that of his father, anyone who'd seen Matt knew this baby was an exact copy. His sister Michelle woke up, her cot next to her brother's, and started playing by herself, almost nine months old she was beginning to develop her individuality which bore a striking resemblance to her mother's. Lucy watched her put her leg in her mouth laughing as she did this, and wondered why Matt was never around to experience this treasured moments.



Few hours earlier, they'd woken up peacefully. He just got back from his travel again and Lucy was hoping he would spend some quality time with them. At least that seemed to be the plan, when he'd gone into the nursery and picked up Michael who was already awake, and in need of a diaper change. She saw him squeeze his face at this revelation, and watched him gently put him back, reaching instead for Michelle who was okay. Lucy felt disgusted with him as she watched him unknown to him, just then Michael decided he wasn't too happy with the switch and decided to express his feelings by crying.


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Oh my God! Lucy gasped as it finally ended, leaving her panting like a dog. Where was Matt? She wondered



Mum, please give him another ring again, will you? Please. She begged Alice



They'd been trying Matt's mobile for a while now and he wasn't picking up. The last thing she needed was to be worried about him now; he had gone off shore again the moment he arrived, and now here she was in labor and he wasn't by her side to hold her hand, still she tried to understand, however difficult it was.



Alice reassured her, don't worry dear I will try again, just relax and focus on the baby, here's the bible you asked for.



They were by now at the hospital, the doctor came in to check on her, while Alice made the call, examined her and quickly signaled to the nurses to prep her for surgery, she wasn't dilated properly yet.



No! I'm not having a C. Section, just wait a while please Lucy begged



The doctor shook his head, gave her a stern lecture on the stages of labor and how the baby could be in distress and then left hurriedly.



Lucy half listened, remembering the last words her mother said to her, 'Focus on the baby' she closed her eyes and began to pray remembering the scripture about the Hebrew women, she held on to it and earnestly committed the labor into God's hands, by a stroke of fate she'd been unable to get an epidural bearing the pain without a succor, surely God would have mercy on her and reward her with a natural birth, which was her heart desire she prayed, immediately she started to feel peace overwhelm her, and then a sudden urge to push. She quickly beckoned for Alice who was just leaving another voicemail on Matt's Mobile.



Alice took a look at her, shouted Halleluiah! Just as the doctor came in behind her, with the nurses ready to prep her and wheel her into the operating room. Seeing the sudden change in dilation, shocked and quickly recovering he began to encourage Lucy to push. Few minutes later a baby came forth crying the whole place down, Lucy joyfully held him in her hands and then suddenly she felt another urge to push. Alarmed everyone paused for a brief second, Alice recovering first instantly took her son from her and handed him to a nurse, held Lucy's hand as she pushed again, behold another baby came forth, eyes closed and quiet.


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They chatted for a few minutes relaxed with each other, Lucy told him about the baby's day, his late night play time, excited kicking etc while he listened attentively probably wishing he could experience it. Then he told her he had some news, she urged him to share it, and he dropped the bombshell.



Lu, I'm going to be staying longer than was planned. He told her



Lucy fell quiet processing his words. Feeling defensive Matt prattled on



My boss offered the opportunity to me and I took it as a chance to prove myself, Lucy please try to be understanding.



Eventually she spoke up; Matt it's fine really I just wondered how you would cope, spiritually and all. She said



Don't worry I will be fine, I've learnt a lot from you remember Matt replied reassuringly happy that she was on board.



Lucy smiled at that, then the buzzer rang, she kept Matt on a hold and went to get the door. It was her Mum Alice.



Matt spoke with her for a few minutes and then ended the call. This had been their routine now, it was the only thing they'd kept constant from their courtship days, she just hoped that they were able to keep it up, because she really needed her husband now more than ever.



Lucy moaned through her quick breaths as Alice encouraged her again



Come on Lucy be strong for mummy Please. Alice said wiping her daughter's brow as she went through another contraction.

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Matt was too much of a man to wait that long, but interestingly he didn't seemed to mind. After a while his frustrations began to bring out a side to him she never liked even while they courted. He became irritated for no reason, got angry at her or even at fellow motorists on the road! Spoke sharply to everyone around him, and just behaved different from the Matt she married.

The irony of it all was she was the pregnant one, the one allowed to act out and blame it on the hormones, but now the both of them at home were like a hungry lion and lioness, she doing her best to keep her cool and Matt lashing out whenever he felt like it. So when he got the chance to go off shore, they were both happy and relieved to see him go.



Now here she was all alone and not really happy about it. Wiping her brows she tried to sit down, she'd gone for her daily walk and felt too tired to get up to cook. It was a good thing her mum was coming over for the night, at least that would give her a chance to enjoy the privilege of someone cooking for her. Her mobile rang it was Matt calling her



Hi Matt she answered



Hi Lu. Matt replied. How was your day?



She told him, summarizing every detail, aware of the high tariff for the call.


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Lucy stepped in the house and felt instantly bereft knowing it was her alone tonight. Matt had gone offshore again and this time for an extended period. Although she knew he was doing his best to provide for the family and for the baby on the way, she couldn't help but feel deserted at times, especially now that she was pregnant. The weeks rolled into months and she found herself these moments alone, with no one around to enjoy the best times with her.

Matt seemed to be having a bad aversion to the whole pregnancy period, she knew it was unplanned, she'd taken every precaution but somehow God had decided to bless them early in their marriage life, she'd been overjoyed at the news but Matt behaved the opposite way when they found out she was pregnant. Apparently he had some issues with making love to his wife while a baby was in the middle, their doctor had counseled on how to make the most of the period sexually, but to no avail. Matt was pretty adamant and seriously bothered about having sex with her.



At first she found it quite amusing and touching coming from a man like him so manly and in control, but gradually it started to become an impendent to their sex life, eventually they'd agreed much to the consternation of Lucy and for the peace of mind of Matt to wait till after the baby was born. Lucy wasn't that crazy about sex she was a woman, and women had high tendencies to be celibate for a longer period than men, and that was her concern.

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Oh dear! Susan exclaimed, you didn't know, Logan has travelled back to the USA, he actually travelled last week, they are planning on going international with the estate agency so he's gone to start it up.



That's great news! Lucy said with an excitement she didn't feel



Just then the couple were invited to have their first dance, and she was swept away into the arms of her husband, who held her too close for comfort but hey she was his wife now, who was she too complain.



Logan is gone, she kept thinking over and over, feeling sad and bereft and not sure why, she wanted to run and evaluate her feelings, she wanted to put a freeze on the day's events and just think about what she was feeling, but she couldn't she was married now, her husband needed her complete and undivided attention from now on. She mentally tucked herself back and took control of her emotions once again.



Later that night, after they'd consummated their marriage. Lucy woke up and found herself confused and angry at the turn of events of her wedding night and the tumult of emotions within her, she rolled away to her side of the bed, careful not to wake Matt up, she cried silently not completely sure why.



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Few hours later....



Ladies and Gentlemen shall we all rise up as we welcome the newly wedded couple, 'Matt and Lucy Peters'. Amidst cheers and a standing ovation, the new couple was ushered into the reception. Lucy was the happiest woman alive; her face was evident with the glow of a woman enjoying the moment. Matt was beside himself with Joy, he was finally married to Lucy, through the mountain of doubts and questions of the past months he had emerged victorious, Lucy was finally his now and forever. Looking at her, anew he was filled so much pride, and the knowledge that he was the envy of most of the men here today made him happier, he was scared his heart would burst with emotion.



The reception began and they both glided through it all too excited to take it all in, Lucy kept smiling and smiling, she was so happy, happy that she had made up her mind and she'd stuck to it no matter what. Feeling this bubble of joy was clearly a sign from God that she had done the right thing.

Just then, someone tapped her, it was Susan her maid of honor, asking her if she needed her help with anything, she told her what she needed and without thinking she spoke those words she'd been subconsciously thinking,



How's Logan, is he here?



I haven't really had time to see him what with all the planning and all, she carefully backtracked.


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Ask anyway mum Lucy replied anxiously



Smiling Alice looked into her daughter's anxious eyes and asked, are you sure you want to be married to matt?



Taking her mother's hands, Lucy looked sincerely into her mother's eyes and spoke, mum I am very sure this is what I want, I've prayed and prayed and I know God is with me on this.



Alice nodded her head relieved, That's what I needed to hear, Matt is a great guy, and so are you, Lucy you need to go into this marriage holding nothing back, you need to be completely sure, because it's forever, sweetheart, I don't want to scare you but it's till death.



Looking serious now, Lucy nodded her head, allowing the full impact of her mother's words to sink in. She searched herself to be completely sure, although she knew she was



Without warning Logan came into her mind, she slowly dropped her mother's hands and walked towards the window, trying to re-assert her earlier confidence. She hadn't seen him for a while ever since she'd told him to stay away from her, which he did, somehow she felt a bit disappointed about that. No! Lucy we can't have this, just carefully tuck him back into that safe place in your heart where Matt wouldn't know and you wouldn't go to. She suddenly found herself arguing within her. Wouldn't go to where? She argued with herself, there's no hidden place in me she countered, give it a rest Lucy you know you like him a lot, No! I don't I just felt simply.... alright I do like him she eventually agreed, but not that much anyways, so it's not worth me throwing away what I have with Matt, so just go back to where you came from.

Surely there were some married women who felt feelings for other men than their husbands, but that didn't mean they didn't love them or they should throw away their lives and future. Yes! This was what married life was all about, and she was ready for it agreeing with her counsel, taking a deep breath, she turned around, smiled shakily and spoke to her mother. I'm ready mum, let's do this.


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Lucy glanced at her reflection in the mirror, almost tempted to jump up and scream halleluiah! It was tough but she had stuck to her wedding diet and exercise regime and it had paid off, she had truly fitted into this beautiful wedding gown, wow! She said again, she would have to flesh out afterwards for she was actually a comfortable size ten but when she saw this gown she knew she wanted it just the way it was, no alterations, and no fittings.

So she had to put herself on a diet, exercising morning and night, Matt had been there with her holding her hands through it all, encouraging her to give in to her cravings, constantly complaining at why she felt the need to fit into a gown she was just going to wear for a day! If he hadn't looked so flabbergasted when he said it, she wouldn't have found it so funny, even thinking of it now she sometimes marveled at how men were clueless about the inner workings of a woman's mind.

Wear for a day! He had no idea that that one day was the reason why women did all they could to look good, because the benefits lasted forever in the wedding pictures so it was important she looked so fit, so her children could look at her unbelieving when they compared her then image to what they saw in the pictures. She smiled almost tempted to laugh but for fear of making the make-up artist upset, at the memory of doing the same thing to her mother few years back. Ah well! Better get back to the present.



Just give my lips a little gloss, Matt doesn't like too much lipstick and we don't want to scare him away now when he's asked to kiss the bride do we? Everyone laughed knowing she was just trying to relieve the wedding jitters that was common to all brides to be'.



A few more touches and she was ready and just then her mother Alice Edwards walked in to the room all dressed and ready to be made up as well. Took one look at her daughter and felt the tears threatening to spill. Like some pre-wedding talks, she knew it wasn't out of place when she said 'I wish your father were here to see this day, to see how grown you've become, to see how you've become a beautiful, strong and determined woman who knows what she wants in life and set out to have it'. There there, patting her back, don't go ruining your make-up, she soothed trying to keep Lucy from crying. God has truly being faithful and I am so proud of you. I know we talked last night extensively, but I need to ask this question again.


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It's so funny, in a world where technology answers to everything, people tend to take for granted the fact that even in an environment like a hospital where everything was supposedly safe, what with having the best skilled doctors around and all the best facilities money could buy, something could still go horribly wrong. One mistake and it could mean a life, thinking of Amy dying from an overdose of her pain reliever. He hurriedly picked up his mobile and dialed Liam's number, who answered on the first ring



It's about time you called mate Liam said into the phone his strong Aberdonian accent ever resounding as he spoke Logan marveled at how he still struggled to understand his words sometimes after knowing him for almost 10 years now.



How's she doing? He asked



She's alrite, they think it's a false alarm and are going to kip her for a few hours before they allow me take her uver to the huse.



Oh! I thought you would be a father by now Jenny said she was in labor



Yeah! That's what I thought too but they explained that sometimes it happens this way, something about the baby getting too excited or so



Laughing he asked are you sure that's what they said, or that's what you interpreted.



Doesn't matter mate, we save our strength for another day. So what's your take with the plans for expansion? How soon do you reckon we could execute?



Switching to business, they talked for a while about the plans and concluded that things were really moving well and ahead. Logan had an appointment with their banker to secure the finance side of things, and with that conclusion they hung up.



Feeling a strong desire to visit Amy's graveside he decided to take an early lunch even though it was just 11am in the morning, saying a quick few words to Jenny, he stepped out into the beautiful yet cloudy morning, suddenly he remembered he forgot his favorite CD and quickly dashed back into the office, retrieved it, and hurried back to his car. Slotting the CD into the drive he relaxed as his favorite track began to play, 'I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with my loving kindness...' he couldn't explain it but there was something about this song that struck him deep in his heart, may be the fact that he'd had life so easy during his early years up until when Amy died, or the grace of God he'd experienced in everyday of his life after Amy died, he felt really special and loved by God for He had truly loved and drawn him into His bosom with His great loving kindness and the truth was he knew he didn't deserve it, at least that was how he felt, there were so many people out there in need of God's help, with greater problems than his, but God chose to find him worthy and upheld him by his right hand of righteousness.





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Pulling into the gates of the private cemetery in the outskirts of Aberdeen shire, he grabbed the flowers he'd bought at the flower shop on his way, and with the sober attitude that he usually felt whenever he visited this environment, he walked in the direction of Amy's grave. Laying the flowers down, he brushed his hands over the green grass that had budded out of the top soil covering the grave, pulling out the weeds growing alongside; he remembered the scripture in the New Testament that talked about the enemy coming to sow tares in the night. Shaking his head at how unexpectedly revelations could come, he slowly relaxed and laid down to talk to Amy, knowing that somehow he always felt better and more enlightened after he unburdened his heart, he liked to think she was up there among the angels interceding for him before the most high.



Knowing he could not ignore what he was feeling any longer, he opened his heart and poured out everything that was going on with Lucy. He knew he loved her, and he knew deep down she felt the same but was in a difficult spot, engaged to be married to Matt, but still what made her so sure? He asked aloud, he felt her pain and knew her confusion, but he could not understand her conviction, still she'd made it clear what she wanted from him and he knew had to respect her wishes. What could he do? The woman he loved was going to be married to someone else and there was nothing he could do about it. He'd thought there would be no other woman for him, after he lost his first love but now here he was feeling the agony of love unreturned and he had no idea how he got there. Oh! Why did life have to be so complicated? I didn't ask for this emotions Lord, if my wife was still alive I wouldn't be in this shoes Lord why! He spoke aloud in agony. It'd been a while since he ever approached another woman other than Amy, and the truth was he wasn't sure he knew how to any longer. Maybe if he just walked away everything would be alright, he'd known the love of a woman once in his life and that was okay with him, he wasn't going to get greedy and ask for more. Lucy and Matt deserved to be married to each other and in time he hoped whatever feelings he felt would disappear and things would be alright again.



An idea suddenly occurred to him, but the instant it sprang to his mind, the pros and cons followed suit. What if he decided to moved back to the states, to start a branch of their estate agency there, or better still merge with a smaller one combining resources with them, and carving out a bigger niche in the industry for them. But Liam needed all the help he could get what with the baby coming, he might have to cut down his hours, so he could help Susan when the baby came home which was any time soon. But again Mandy and John could also do a better job, Jenny could take on the role of a full time administrative finance assistant, and with the right training could be taught to manage the books, after all she just finished studying accounting at the university and was busy scouting for jobs which shouldn't have been a problem except she didn't have the right experience that employers needed, and she was pretty rigid about staying in Aberdeen, well with the expansion coming up may be she could be persuaded to in begin her career with them, and of course there was the possibility of moving up the job ladder if she paid close attention to her training and was hardworking. They would have to employ someone else to do the job of the receptionist although but that was okay. He would try to pitch this idea to Liam after he'd done a proper job of researching into the financial benefits and risks that it would involve. Happy that he had a plan, and remembering that he still had that appointment with his banker he jumped up blew Amy an imaginary kiss, knowing he might not be visiting her for a very long time, but it didn't matter, Christians believe, that when a person dies the soul departs living the body behind, so technically this was just a tradition that benefited the living and not the dead.



Few weeks later, Logan paid a visit to Susan after the delivery of the baby. As they spoke she expressed her opinion about the sudden expansion.



Are you sure about this Logan? Susan asked while she nursed her new born son.





This is rather a big step don't you think? I know you and Liam think it's a good idea, but I know you better than you think, so tell me the real truth. Susan demanded



Logan smiled defiantly, his confidence slipping as Susan drew a loop hole in his carefully laid plans.



Susan really it's time for me to move back to the States, I want to move on Amy would want this; this town brings memories that I really need to get away from. He told her



Susan soothed, I know, Logan I know, it's just that a part of me just feels there's more to what you are saying, you're not just my brother-in-law, you are also my friend and Lucy's friend.



At the mention of Lucy's name, Logan stiffened a bit



See right there, Susan pointed at him, is what I'm talking about, there's some unfinished business with you and Lucy that I don't know about and I think that's the main reason you're leaving Logan. No matter what you say that's what I think. She shrugged.



Logan flexed his knuckles, snapping them up as he contemplated how much Susan knew about him and Lucy. She was one of his best friends after Lucy, but this was something he needed to deal with on his own, and the fewer interventions and unsolicited advises the better. Speaking up he told Susan, I need you to understand and accept my reasons for now, I assure you sometime later we will talk it in more details. But please leave it alone, please.



Susan felt frustrated within her, and even the baby felt it and started to cry, she then soothed him till he fell asleep in her arms. It wasn't that she didn't respect Logan's feelings, but her nature was to help people and she couldn't help but feel helpless in the face of the new development between him and Lucy. To the untrained eye it wasn't that obvious, but to her it was obvious that there were lots of undercurrents between them, how much? She didn't know, Lucy was too busy with Matt to bother and Logan was not budging so she knew the sensible thing to do would be to respect their feelings and back out, but it felt so frustrating watching her two friends behave this way.



Alright Logan, I respect your feelings and I accept your explanations for now but I won't allow this issue to get buried this way, I pray we discuss again later.



Logan nodded, grateful to be let off the hook.



The baby stirred again and this time he offered to help.



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On the other side he'd received the news that his life partner had just few weeks to live, life suddenly became a nightmare as their happily ever after dreams suddenly began crumbling like a pack of cards, he wished so many things at once, he wished they'd prayed and fasted enough all through the happy years, he wished he'd listened closely all those years she complained of headaches and migraines, instead of assuming it was a result of the busy career life she led as an accountant, they'd resorted to her taking over the counter drugs, and now it had come to this, all their years of faithfulness to God and to doing the right in His eyes had amounted to this!. Still they'd prayed and fasted and cried out to God but in the end Amy went to sleep after been administered an overdose of the pain killers she was on and never woke up, she died on the 31st of October. They'd been married for 5 years and 3 months. He buried her a week later in a beautiful private cemetery he knew she would have loved.



Stepping into the building, which was now a bigger space than what they'd started, and with two additional letting agents, Mandy and John, he waved to Jenny, their faithful receptionist who had started with them.



Hi Jenny he greeted



Hi Logan, how was your weekend?



Great! He replied



That sounds very surmise. Jenny asked surprised usually he would have offered some more interesting bits.



Believe me it is, that one word just about describes it. So how was your weekend?



Well I was free this Saturday but had to work all day on Sunday at my second job



Sounds tiring, Logan said



Yeah it was, if only I had a good full time job, I could devote my time to resting and maybe taking you up on that offer to come to your dancing church, she jokingly replied



Laughing he nodded thinking how nice it would be if they could offer her a full time position with more responsibilities, he resolved to discuss it with Liam, after all they were thinking of recruiting someone to help him with all the data entries he had to do.



Is Liam in? He asked



Not yet, He had to rush Susan to the hospital, said she was in labor, told me to tell you as soon as you came in.



Wow! That's great news I better hurry then and give him a call, see you later then Jenny.



Rushing to his office, which was behind a door, few yards away from the reception, he sat on his chair, saying a quick prayer for Susan, she and Liam had been married for two years now and this was their first child. God he prayed fervently please let the mother and the baby be safe in Jesus name. Amen


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Logan drove down the busy city centre, he was glad winter was giving way to spring, the trees were coming to life gradually and he was excited knowing that this year was speedily making its way through and he loved that for him it meant he was really moving on with his life even though there was a part in him that rebelled against the irony of that thought every single day. Amy was a wonderful wife too bad she hadn't stuck around long enough to be a mother; he knew she would have been a great one. They'd married early he at the age of 20 she at 18, he had been brought up by very strong Christians, his mother was a black American with strong roots in the Christian faith dating back to her ancestors and his father a white American was also from a strong catholic faith.



Together they'd met and fallen in love back in the 60's had given birth to him and afterwards God had chosen not to bless them with another child however hard they'd tried. Growing up in Manhattan, he remembered the town of his youth and how he'd fallen in love with the changing seasons of the weather, but none of that had prepared him' for the beautiful scenery of Scotland when he came for an exchange programme in his second year at the university studying accounting and finance, not only did he need the exposure of being in a different country, but it had transpired that, back in the days of his father's youth, he'd fathered a child with a Scottish woman named Laura Smith when she also came visiting in the states on holiday and on a fateful night when their defenses were down, and all the wrong reasons seemed suddenly right they'd had sex.. The morning after they'd woken up to the regret and guilt of their actions and she eventually went back to Scotland even before her holiday was over, but unknown to the both of them she'd gotten pregnant, getting to Scotland and realizing this she decided to keep the baby and raise him alone for the fear of God was in her and now 19 years later his brother Liam had managed to find them, made contact, and he realizing that this was a double blessing flew down to see him, leaving his parents in shock over the news.



They'd met and hit it off straight away, swapping childhood stories has they met for lunch at university of Aberdeen for he also was studying estate management. He was so happy to have a brother that he decided to stay back after the exchange programme ended to complete his studies. Thereafter as the story goes, he met and fell in love with Amy who was also a year 2 accounting student and they realized how lucky they were to have found each other so early in life that they decided to take the marriage plunge rather than give in to the lustful pleasures of their desires and ruin the beauty of what they had. Their parents were concerned at first, his because it'd happened too fast, but hers came around first when they understood their line of reasoning, eventually his parents came around too and promised to fly down to Scotland for the wedding. The year after their graduation, on the summer morning of the 31st July 1993 they had a court wedding and a small reception at a nice restaurant afterwards. By then they'd both gotten full time jobs to begin their career path and looked forward to being happy the rest of their lives.



Those were happy times; he recalled has he pulled up his car into the registered park lane for the estate agency he worked in. Funny story about that, just before Amy got sick from cancer due to a tumor found in her brain, which the doctor said was inoperable for it had progressively made itself at home, he and Liam had decided to pull resources together and start off their own agency, he handling the finance side of things and Liam doing the leg work. This was in the first few months in the sixth year of their marriage he remembered the month precisely October, a month that was supposed to be the month of new beginnings, but turned out to be the opposite, on one side things were looking up for the business, they'd gotten the loan from the bank, found the office space, fixed it up to the minimal level they could afford, registered the company has LOJ estate agents, and recruited a part time receptionist to answer the phone and do some admin work.

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He walked into the church, wondering what to make of his dream, was Lucy thinking of leaving him? He thought of yesterday and how things went, She was such a great spot about it all, remembering the gifts she'd given him, a digital camera and a Accurist stunning wristwatch, if this was a warning from God he didn't need to pray to see what He was saying to him, he would have to make sure from now on, he did nothing that would make her start thinking of pulling out of the upcoming nuptials. He remembered suddenly her expression when she had been talking to Logan yesterday, once again wondered what they must have been discussing for she didn't tell him.



Lucy was his, he wanted her in his life, and he couldn't afford not to have her by his side the rest of his life. She was his to make a wife, surely this was a match blessed in heaven, he argued within himself. Lucy must be sure of him as her husband or she wouldn't have agreed to his proposal, his dream was probably his subconscious acting out his fear of losing her, even the image of the woman wasn't Lucy's, so why bother himself, it wasn't even a prayer point as far as he was concerned. No way are you going to plant seeds of doubt in my mind devil no way! He made up his mind there and then to behave himself for he wouldn't want to do anything that would bring Lucy's wrathful expression upon him like it bore upon Logan. Lucy was a very determined and organized person amongst other qualities, she had made up her mind that she was in love with him and was going to marry him, he would make sure he did everything within his power to make her stick to her decision. So help him God. Stepping into the auditorium, he spotted Lucy and nodded to her she smiled and quickly patted the sit next to her signaling to him that she'd reserved him a seat. Making his way to her, he recognized some faces, nodding to them; he quietly slid next to her. Looking at her, he gave her his best amazing smile and whispered hi Lu.



Later that night, as Lucy washed up the dinner dishes at Matt's flat, her mind casted back to the brief sermon that was shared. For some strange reason, a part of it kept trickling back to her subconscious creating a jolt of fear through her. The scripture reading was taken from the book of Genesis 20 the pastor was preaching about the many blessings of Abraham, but somehow the third verse of the scripture never left her. ...behold thou are but a dead man, for the woman which thou has taken...' God had appeared to Abimelech telling him the woman he was with was someone else's wife, it was a very interesting story and also a lesson on how important God viewed marriage. Ibi had dwelt on the importance of singles being sure of whom they were sharing their vows with, lest they marry the wrong spouse. For some reason the sermon had left Lucy in a state of unrest in her spirit, she wondered why? For she was so sure about her relationship with Matt, whenever she prayed she felt God's peace... she may not have heard his voice like some claim but something in her knew she was on the right track and now her mind was made up, the wedding plans were set in motion, this was what she's always wanted more than anything, she couldn't be wrong, she had to be right, this was it. She was going to be Mrs Matthew Peters and bear lots of beautiful children and be a happy family.



Wiping her hands dry on the napkin, she shook off the burden on her mind and with a smile embraced her future once again, as she walked away from the kitchen.


It Continues....

Episode 4



Lucy! Matt called as he woke up from sleep. With a start he looked at the table clock next to his bedside drawer, and quickly jumped out of the bed. Lucy would have his hide if he missed the Monday evening service. The time was 5pm he'd been in and out of bed all day; enjoying the bliss of his sweet sleep. In fairness he did make an effort to do his daily devotional with God, even if it lasted 15 minutes, it was a start and he felt good, knowing he was on the right track. Rushing through his shower, he wished he'd turned on the heat to warm-up the flat, for it was almost freezing but bills eh! Thinking of the freezing night ahead, he decided to turn and leave it on till he got back from church.



Slipping into his clothes, he recalled he'd had a dream and tried to remember it but couldn't he said a quick prayer of help in his mind hoping this was a temporary setback for now, and he would remember eventually. Grabbing his bible and car keys, he stomped out of the flat, leaving a wake of untidiness behind him. He'd decided to drive to the church, for the freezing weather of his flat had left him in no prepared state for the one outside, easing his car out of his parking spot, he remembered his dream.



It was one of those dreams that had a movie quality about it, there he was in a beautiful country house with the white picket fence and all, the wind was blowing wildly and he was standing by the front door waving frantically to a woman who should be Lucy but was not Lucy, to come in. She was standing outside the fence with a look of indecision and hesitation on her face as if she wasn't sure she should come in or not which was weird for the house was supposed to be theirs although it didn't feel like they were married. Then out of nowhere a white car drove up speedily and stopped right beside her blaring its horn as a signal for her to hop in, he couldn't make out the image of the person inside but the window had a silhouette of a man. Lucy looked from the car to him and then back and forth again, then suddenly she smiled as if she'd made a satisfied decision, waved bye to him, and then hopped into the car and drove away, leaving him behind shouting her name Lucy! Then he heard a voice out of nowhere say to him, 'you are a dead man, .....' And that was when he woke up. He still couldn't remember the remaining part of the words. Now that he was wide awake he now understood better the feeling that had assailed him ever since he woke up, it was an uneasy feeling of impending doom, like he was about to do something wrong and it had to do with Lucy. Who was the other guy, and why did she go with him? What was going on? Maybe he should share his dream with Lucy, probably she would understand better. Matt was suddenly afraid, he couldn't lose Lucy, No he couldn't she was his and his alone.


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I apologize if I sounded a bit out of line. She offered



It's okay Lu, you can say anything to me, it's you. He countered still smiling



Feeling more uncomfortable, she tried to read his expression, to see if he meant his words.



Matt smiled at her knowing what she was doing, one of the reasons he loved her was because she was so easy and open, so pure in heart but still it made him feel uneasy sometimes.



Bracing herself she spoke again, I was thinking we should work towards attending mid-week services on Monday and Wednesdays, I have choir practices on Tuesdays so I was wondering if we could take that day to go on a fast and break at six in the evening.



6pm! Matt screamed aloud



Or whatever time you suggest? She corrected feeling squirmy again.



No! Its okay Matt quickly interjected, just pulling your legs, smiling at her again but this time he wasn't selling it, he wondered to himself why this woman was just so determined to turn him around in one day. I can do that he continued, but you will have to remind me of the days for the services especially this week so I don't forget and sleep off, you know I'm not going back to work yet since I took some time off to rest.



Oh! I didn't know, that's great, you lucky man I wish I could take time off too.



Of course you can take time off! you'd just rather not, so don't wish you want what you know you don't want to have. Matt said with an edge to his voice.



This time she knew he was definitely simmering, he had that look in his eyes she knew meant he was walking up the 'angry cliff', and anything could push him over now.



Praying for wisdom and peace she kept quiet. Looking down her plate, she realized they were through with their dessert, which meant the bill was next, except if Matt wanted something else. She asked him but he declined. Standing up she picked up her purse went straight to the till, spoke to the waiter and asked to pay the bill fishing out her card. That took a few minutes, looking around she saw that Matt was already waiting for her by the door holding their coats. Walking towards him, she smiled knowing he was waiting to help her slip into her jacket. These were the things she loved about him; he had the impeccable manners of a gentleman, what every woman dreamed of in a man.



Matt pushed the door open for her and she stepped out with him right behind. Holding hands they walked in the direction of her car, for he usually walked down to church since he lived within walking distance, allowing his car a day rest. She drove him home, thinking it best if they said goodbye now, although usually they spent Sundays together, either at her place or his or even going out. A few minutes later she pulled into the drive way and packed by one of the free spots in the parking lot, Matt realized he should have moved his car out of his spot so she could park in his, said this to her apologizing for not realizing this on time and made to rectify this assuming she was coming up with him, but she stopped him telling him she was just dropping him off.



Why he asked it's my birthday, besides we always spend Sundays together and I haven't been around for a while Lucy.



I'm not feeling too good sorry. She said not feeling sorry at all



Are you okay? He asked disbelief written all over him



Yeah! Just a bit of a headache, I've got your gift though, reaching for the plastic bag behind, she brought out two beautifully wrapped boxes and a card and gave them to him.



Gee! Thanks Lu, Can I open it now. He asked excited



Smiling at the boyish glee in his eyes, she shook her head.





Alright then, I can't wait to rip them open. Thank you so much. You're sure you don't want to come up?



If it's alright with you, I just want to go home and lie down.



You know you can do that here, but its okay I understand, about the talk we had, Lucy I'm sorry about my reactions, it's really okay with me, I'm so lucky to have a woman who cares about my spiritual state. Holding her cheek he said I love you so much Lu, please accept my apologies, hm! And thanks for the meal too, it was lovely. You're the best really!



Lucy felt unshed tears threatening to spill steeling herself; she told him she was glad he liked the meal fighting the need to change her mind. She tilted her head give him a light peck but he was minutes ahead of her, and tilted his head for a kiss making it last longer than she intended. Feeling truly at peace now and loved, she smiled as she played with his hair ruffling it, knowing only she could get away with the act.



Matt said goodbye and stepped out, watching her maneuver her car out, he felt a pang of regret realizing he was the reason she'd decided not to stay, and knowing Lucy once she up her mind about something she didn't like changing it and she could be so stubborn about it sometimes. May be it was for the best, after that kiss he definitely needed to cool off. He loved the fact that she never made him conscious of his aroused state; in fact she simply ignored it. Although she'd never told him anything he often wondered about her sexual history, shrugging if off he had Lucy that was all that mattered and in time all will be revealed. Waving to her he watched her drive off wishing she wasn't so stubborn.



Lucy shook her head, to keep herself from crying, she mentally kicked herself for being so hasty to suggest they spending the rest of the day apart. The fact that she had to tell a lie was even more annoying, knowing she'd consciously committed a sin and on a Sunday too! Whispering a few words she asked God for forgiveness, knowing that going back to her cold and lonely apartment was definitely a good penance.


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Episode 3 - Contd...

Hey Lucy! Matt called, he was just a few steps away from them, watching them from afar, he'd wondered what both of them could be discussing that made them look so intense, he knew they were friends and he had nothing to worry about for Logan was a great guy besides for some reason he never considered him a threat, he was confident that Lucy was his and he'd sealed the deal a while back when he'd given her what she truly wanted a marriage proposal. So walking towards them he decided to give them time to adjust so he didn't have to eavesdrop on what they were saying, he knew she would tell him eventually.



Hey Matt! Logan said fighting for composure, he'd completely forgotten about their surroundings, he hoped Matt or even anyone around hadn't heard any part of the conversation he and Lucy were having. Happy Birthday man, Susan told me he quickly added, how was the trip down?



It was great, missed dry land, couldn't wait to come back especially since my bride-to-be was here patiently awaiting my arrival. He said smiling in Lucy's direction.



Ha! Ha! Lucy laughed, also trying to compose herself, normally she would have thrown in a few retorts, but she was still trying to come to grips with Logan's last words earlier.



Shrugging them off in her head, she felt a spark of anger at him, he just had to utter those words, well what did he know about her nothing! And what right did he have to think he could tell her what to think or feel just because he felt something for her. Well it's a good thing she already told him off, because she didn't think she could stand being in his presence again. Argh! The nerve of the man



Thinking all these thoughts she saw that Matt and Logan were both looking at her, obviously they were waiting for her response to something that was said to her, trying to recover wishing this scene would just end, she smiled and then pretended to look down at her watch, briefly distracting them, she realized the time was far spent, looking up surprised she gasped oh! Matt we really have to get going I reserved the table for 2'0 clock and look it's already 1.30.



Oh right! Matt replied, we'll catch up later Logan.



Yeah sure, Take care, Logan answered and walked off without a glance at Lucy.



Later that afternoon at Pizza Hut, having made their orders, Lucy found herself more relaxed now that she had matt all to herself. It was always this way from the moment they'd met, they found it easy to be at ease with each other without having to make an extra effort unlike most couples. Here they were, completely unconcerned about the goings on around them, totally in love and enjoying one another's company. Matt had her undivided attention, riling her with jokes and stories from work and she was playing the role of the dutiful woman who saw the sun rise and set in the eyes of her lover. To the unpracticed eye they looked almost perfect.



Easing herself into his arms for they had one of those comfy sofa seats and they were seated next to each other, she liked it this way, so she could be the only one who heard his sweet masculine voice. Their desserts arrived, and taking advantage of the silence she decided to broach a topic that had being on her mind for a while.



Matt don't you think it's time we started taking spiritual things more seriously.



How do you mean Lu? He asked



I mean we are getting married soon and I just feel that we don't pray enough, don't fast enough, don't go to church enough, read the bible enough you know do more godly things. Actually what she meant was 'he', but she knew from her marriage counseling classes that pointing the finger never did much good.



She continued, so I was thinking we should start working on it. God has being really good to us bringing us together and all; I don't think we should take his grace for granted.



Sensing what she meant, he smiled to himself knowing she was being tactful, he knew she was the stronger one, always had been even before they got engaged, but a part of him resented the fact that she was right but he couldn't afford to let this change the connection he'd worked hard to have with her and so smiling he spoke to her, alright Lu what do you suggest? I'm sure you already have a step by step plan prepared, he said sounding sarcastic. Lucy squirmed inside knowing she'd hit a nerve, Matt was very sensitive about his spiritual life especially when he knew she'd come close to the truth. She knew when he was off-shore and away from her and the Church, he slipped out of his routine and the longer away he was the more concerned she became especially whenever she called him and asked him about it, to which he always answered vaguely. One thing she knew about her husband-to-be was he was not a good liar, he was a smooth talker but lying once she got close to him she realized was not his thing and although she believed that when they got married and had a spiritual routine set up together as a couple, he would change but still she needed him to make some extra effort, however nosy he might think her right now, the subject had to be spoken of, the things of God meant a lot to her and she needed him to take it seriously too if he was going to become her husband.

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Episode 3 - Contd


Hi Susan, how's the baby doing?



Lucy hi, nice outfit, you look so lovely, I see Matt's around, don't tell me, I know she winked at her giving her a knowing look, Lucy laughed out loud, only Susan could make her feel this way in spite of what was going on inside her.



I don't know what you're talking about girl! Turning serious she looked at Logan,



Hi



Hi he replied stiffly



How was your week? Lucy asked feeling the need be chatty since Susan was watching



Ok and yours he asked following her lead



Just then Susan excused herself running to catch up with a member leaving the two of them and a buzz of conversations around them



Lucy cleared her throat, took a deep breath and said can we talk?



Logan squinted his eyes down at her as if trying to determine what about and answered yeah!



Sighing she started look I don't know how to say this but I believe with situations like this you have to be blunt or else you could get into trouble.



In a quiet but steady voice she looked him in the eye and said I can't be around you any longer Logan and I think you know why?



Logan stood there his heart beating fast, knowing she was right and admiring her for being so gutsy.



Say something she demanded almost feeling foolish.



Say what? You're right, I feel what you feel and I know what you know, I know you have so much going on with you right now but can we sit down to...



There is nothing to talk about, she said interrupting him don't you get it you're just a distraction for me right now, I'll even narrow it down to pre wedding jitters, you are still so vulnerable, and you are targeting your emotions at the first woman that showered you with some kindness.



Now wait a minute let's get the facts right before you go ahead and analyse my feelings for me, firstly Amy died two years ago and secondly you are not the first woman to show me some kindness. Thirdly what I feel...



What you feel! she cut in speaking through clenched teeth, Logan I have so much going on in my life right now, everything that I have prayed and hoped for is coming true, I'm getting married in 6 months!, I love Matt so much and he is your friend! Besides that we are Christians, and the bible commands clearly what we should do in situations like this. I won't fight this, I won't even deal with it, I don't even want to process it let alone discuss it, just stay away from me from now okay, I am asking, no! I am demanding that you ignore me for as long as it takes. Lucy's eyes went soft when she said this, please she pleaded I'm not equipped to handle this distraction right.



Logan stood there watching this woman who'd come to be one of his very good friends and who he now realized he'd fallen in love with say the words that would eventually come to haunt him every day of his life. Lucy he said I'm sorry if this is what it has to come to but don't you think you're being hasty to draw the line. I mean are you really sure you know who your life partner is? Are you really sure Matt's the one for you surely there's must be a shred of doubt somewhere in there; I know he's perfect and I know you guys are great together but...


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Episode 3 - Contd

The service was great as usual, and as they shared the grace, she slowly and with excitement, made her way towards Matt, who she'd seen, come in few minutes into the service. There was a buzz in the air as everyone chatted excitedly as was the norm every Sunday, the Choir was having their post service meeting but she'd slipped out unnoticed determined to see Matt before everyone beat her to it, she fondly called this period after service, church after church, for this was when, everyone dropped their guard and truly interacted as a family. She saw him coming towards her and she couldn't help but smile at how normal it was for him been white, to feel completely at ease in a Pentecostal church with a congregation majorly composed of blacks from all nations. Standing in front of each other she knew any other place and time, they would be hugging and probably share a kiss, for that was all they did anyway until they exchanged marriage vows, but here in church decorum dictated that they communicated through their eyes and words.



How was your trip? She asked him giddily, almost standing too close to him.



It was great, he replied as he took a step back it was all he could do to restrain himself from holding her, and 'I slept through it all. You look stunning as always'. Unable to keep his hands beside him as he carefully brushed her hair with his hands, smiling at her.



Blushing she smiled back, thanks, Happy Birthday she whispered to him her eyes twinkling.



Thanks.



I'm taking you out for lunch at your favorite place



Pizza Hut?



Yes!



Oh! That sounds great he replied just give me few minutes to say hello to one or two people okay? He asked



Okay no problem she replied looking down her watch we've got enough time, so just wave to me when you' re ready she concluded. Squeezing her hand with the glint in his eyes betraying just how much he was suppressing his excitement at seeing her, he excused himself.



Turning around, her eyes connected instantly with Logan's and her heart almost jumped right out. She'd managed to forget about him all through the week avoiding him during the weekly services and at the choir practice, and there he was standing there chatting with the choir members, one of whom was her very good friend, Susan, who was also Liam his brother's wife, and very much pregnant expecting her second child, hoping it would be a girl, she'd confided in Lucy. Liam attended another church, but gave his wife the liberty to attend their church especially since Logan came as well. They'd become very good friends over time and she was a very loyal customer too. Lucy had lots of acquaintances but very few friends; it came from being brought up by a reserved mother who was very wise and a very good judge of character. There he was standing looking so handsome in his black suit, what gave him the right to look that good? Quite aware of how ridiculous she sounded her mind made up there and then she walked towards them determined to get things out in the open once and for all.


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Episode 3 - Contd

Usually she opened at 9am, but getting here early meant she had enough time to speak with God and prepare for the day. Quickly she stepped in, closed the door right behind her without flicking the signs, and went into her mini office space. Dropping her bag, she reached for her NKJV bible and her daily devotional, one of her friends at church had given her a devotional booklet, called the daily manna 2 years ago, and ever since she'd insisted on receiving a copy every quarter. Flipping through it, she found the date for today, the 28th of February. Read the bible scriptures, and proceeded to start her worship to God, her favorite worship song of all times was a very deep song about God's love, written and sung by Tom brooks. ' I have loved you with an everlasting love...' she sang it over and over again, letting the deep meaning of the song minister to her, she knew that God loved her, and nothing could separate her from his love, didn't He say so in word, didn't He send his only Son to die for her, that she through Him would have eternal life, she thanked the lord for His mercies and grace every single day, she prayed that God would give her the strength to love Him more for He was the constant and she was the variable, she also prayed about Logan that God would in His infinite wisdom help her to flee and fight this distraction so that she did not put all that she had worked for in jeopardy, receiving peace she thanked the Lord and concluded her devotion, then she read her bible passage for the day, and at 9am like every other week day, she opened her Beauty Makeover Company for business.



Making it through each day of the week in anticipation for Sunday, the day Matt got back from offshore was not as easy as she thought. They talked every day before she went to bed for they tried to be strict about not receiving calls at work. She made it through to choir practice on Saturday, and went to bed with excitement, they'd planned to meet at church besides it was his Birthday as well, which meant she was taking him out for lunch, she was so excited Matt made loving him so much fun. For he was that kind of person, who was just so full of life, talking with him on the phone sometimes she had to mentally shake herself to remind her that he wasn't in the same room with her, he just affected everybody that way.



Carefully she laid down her beautiful cocktail dress, shoes and accessories by the desktop table in her room, arranging them neatly in anticipation for the next day. She was a much organized person, years of being brought up by her mother had instilled this in her actually, and although then she had felt it was pure torture, now she was glad to have had such upbringing. Going to bed, she said her prayers to God committing the night and tomorrow's events into his hands and most especially Matt's flight for he was arriving around 6am. Dwelling on her daily memory verse ask and you shall receive..., thereafter she said the grace, and drifted off to sleep, totally clueless of the temptations and expectations, that were bearing up on her.

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