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pettyberry:
hello guys pls I need ur advice, I had a crush on a guy wen I ws 13 yrs back then I look at to be likeness bcoz I didn't understand wat luv is and wat it takes to fall in luv as I grow older it bcome more intimidating dat even he's nt around I feel vry sad n wen he's I feel shy and scared to talk to him.we lost contact for five years, hoping dat will help me to forget abt him and move on bt d feeling I have for him couldn't jst go away I search for him nt because I wnted to him dat am in luv wit bt jst to see his face is enough for me bcoz I didn't have the courage to tell him dat and I was also scared of being rejected,this continue to happen that even wen I ws in a relationship I couldn't bring myself to love the person the same way I love my crush even when I tried I wasn't working and at end I will have to breakup wit the person in other nt to hurt him bcoz I knw within me that I culd nt love him as much as because loves me.I join facebook wen I ws 18yrs and I search for him there and add him up on fb we became frnds tho he's nt always constant on fb.as time goes on, I will chat wit him he will nt reply this continue to happen for many months and I decided to let him be so that it wount look asif am stalking him.and again for two years we stop communicating and that did nt stop me from loving him nor did my feelings for him change.I tried to to see if I can fall in love wit anoda guy.as God may have his way I meet a guy on a social network and I decide to give it a try and see if I will because able to forget abt my crush after she months,he invited to house and because gave me the address to his house I was shocked n didn't want to go because it was the area my crush was staying back then after he insisted so much I decided to go and visit him bt his own house was at the main estate and I was at relax bcoz my crush was nt staying at the main estate.after much discussion I ws force to asked him abt my crush I told him his name and he ask me hw I got to knw him I told him he ws childhood frnd.I was more suprise at his respond.he told me that the apartment he's staying that my crush parents owns it I culd nt belive it and instanly the feeling av started devloping fot the guy vanish.am 23 years nw I dnt av a solid relationship bcoz of the love I have for my crush.i ask him for his digit on fb and he gave it to me we started chating on whatsapp and he ask to see me I was suprised tho,on getting to his house he welcum me well we talk and catch up old times bfore I knw it he started making advances towards me we kiss and I culdn't resist it and then I move to tell him how I fell about him at dat moment the courage I did nt have for good 11 years to tell him that I have a crush on him it got it instantly and he was suprised.and then I told him dat I kw he dosen't have dsame feelings for me I ws shocked wen he told me that feelings can be developed.I was vry happy at that moment but also scared bocoz I wasn't sure of he was honest or not.then in the morning when I chat him up he told me was going for a party I tried giving him som advice telling him to be careful he laugh and said I sound like his mom or grlfrnd I told him I knw am nt his grlfrnd and that I waited for 11 years and I can still wait he's able to see me as his grlfrnd then he told me that he is nt relationship minded dat he his hustle minded he told me love is a big thing for him nw.
pls that is why taking time to write this so that u guys cn undetstand n knw how to help me.a problem shared is a problem sloved so they say pls I need ur advice does it means I dnt have a chance with him or shuld I wait for it to grow in his hrt or move one pls ur advice means a lot to me.