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I started dating one guy out of curiosity, I wanted to know what it feels like being in a relationship, although I had other guys buh I believe in dating for marriage and I wasn't ready for marriage, so it's a no. Buh the curiosity got the best part of me and I decided to experience it with this guy, I wanted to know what they do in relationships. I already know from the beginning that we can't end together cause he's from another tribe.
When I first got my phone my brother warned me not to open Facebook which I listened but after a while, I went ahead and open Facebook and I got a lot of friend requests, I was happy and eager to reply them all after accepting their friend request. Lol one day someone sent me a picture of his rod, with a lot of vain, what am I supposed to do with it I didn't say anything I just blocked him. Another one from fb again collected my WhatsApp number and started asking me to touch myself on WhatsApp, it was irritating I should touch myself how? I told my lil bro and he asked me to block him.

So I do read r18 novels back then, and they give full details that you can imagine what's going on, so I started imagining those stuff. I look for r18 novels that I can read so I can imagine them. And after imagining sth will come out(though not everytime) and I'd be relieve. And continue reading the remaining part. It goes on and on, no I don't touch myself, I just imagine it, I just can't bring myself to touch myself nahhh. After sometimes I stopped reading those novels and those thoughts comes once in a while. No I don't watch porn either. My heart cringe at the sight of it and my heart beat faster.

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So I do read r18 novels back then, and they give full details that you can imagine what's going on, so I started imagining those stuff. I look for r18 novels that I can read so I can imagine them. And after imagining sth will come out(though not everytime) and I'd be relieve. And continue reading the remaining part. It goes on and on, no I don't touch myself, I just imagine it, I just can't bring myself to touch myself nahhh. After sometimes I stopped reading those novels and those thoughts comes once in a while. No I don't watch porn either. My heart cringe at the sight of it and my heart beat faster.

I stopped reading r18 novels buh it still comes to my mind once in a while.

I read a story here on nairaland, a guy shared a story of how he texted a fine girl that always post her pictures that he usually use her pictures to satisfy himself and the girl started crying that he's raping her spiritually and he was like how is that even possible because he didn't even touch her, he accused the girl of being sentimental and bash her. I reasoned with the guy too and thought how is it even possible, the girl is just being too dramatic.

There are sometimes I would want to pray and that's what would come to my mind. I started reading different things on nairaland and I discovered it's bad. And whenever It comes too, it's the face of the boyfriend I see, probably he's using my picture too, but I don't know it's that deep. So whenever the thought come I use a method I read on nairaland that says just because you want to release a liquid you will now go through a lot of stress. It was used as a meme but I took it serious. So whenever I'm having the thought I just remind myself that the end result is just to release a liquid and why are you even stressing yourself something you will do and get tired when you get married, why not do something productive with that time or even read your bible. Do you know the consequences .

So like that like that I was able to stop imagining stuff like that.

During a Christian webinar, the man of God made mention of the kind of pictures we take and how they are used to satisfy sexual arousal. Then I remembered the story the guy that said he used the girl picture as a means and I realized it really spiritual and the girl was saying the truth. He made mention of how some people are being used sexually spiritually just because of the way they dress and they don't know.

A recent one happened to me, I was on a video call with someone and he was busy masturbating while on vc with me I didn't know, I was just talking and then I asked him what he was doing more than 2 times then he showed me he was masturbating, I was shocked and quickly hanged the call. After a while I went to wee only to notice something come out. That was when I knew it was really spiritual, I didn't even know but I could feel it.