It’s a long story but psychosis is the price humans have to pay for language and since black people are the original people and Igbo’s the original world language there’s not one place in the world that experiences the positives and negatives of human language as much as we do. Swindling and fraud (419)’s in a similar league and that’s why there’s more Igbo swindlers than anyone else. It’s a long story but that’s the meat and bones.
The progenitors of human language experience all the positives and negatives that come with language. It’s no mad conspiracy theory even, most people just don’t know about it
LancelLogan: I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...
My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).
I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...
Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...
What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...
Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...
Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...
I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...
I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...
Thanks...
I'm literally crying right now. You have fully described my condition better than I can ever imagine. God bless you for opening this thread. I've bookmarked it and I'm closely following to see what I can learn from it.
Op you are not in this alone just work more on your weakness and glorify your strength watch this video or read "WHY U ACT THE WAY YOU " Tim lahaye I am very sure u are melancholy or phlegmatic you also need to see a therapist
OP, you can't diagnose yourself when it comes to mental related issues. Best you can do is to visit a psychiatrist and trust me, you probably won't know what you're treating until several days/hours of consultation. Psychiatrists don't rely exclusively on the words of the patient; your actions speak better and Google can't judge your actions. Now you see why you can't rely on Google?
A psychiatrist would need to speak with your siblings, parents, etc., for effective diagnosis.
Don't make google your best friend on this issue. Talk to someone, particularly an enlightened person. Note the word "enlightened", not "educated". A not-so enlightened educated person will probably blame your ancestors. An enlightened person on the other hand will help you manage your condition.
I can't tell you exactly what is wrong, but I know you're currently experiencing different 'episodes' of whatever it is... Worst it can be is schizo, and the good thing is: it can be managed.
It’s a long story but psychosis is the price humans have to pay for language and since black people are the original people and Igbo’s the original world language there’s not one place in the world that experiences the positives and negatives of human language as much as we do. Swindling and fraud (419)’s in a similar league and that’s why there’s more Igbo swindlers than anyone else. It’s a long story but that’s the meat and bones.
The progenitors of human language experience all the positives and negatives that come with language. It’s no mad conspiracy theory even, most people just don’t know about it
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...
My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).
I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...
Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...
What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...
Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...
Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...
I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...
I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...
Thanks...
First of all, you are not crazy...as you are not alone... and absolutely not your fault to be wired or born this way.
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is a common, chronic and long-lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts. This can be fixed, but the key is not to keep everything to yourself...you've got to talk to a couple of mature folks that you truly trust. You can also get help from various sources...and of course, you must also get God involved by talking directly to him when you are about to experience the episode. Try your best not to lose faith, as God knows it all and has all the answers.
Read the rant you wrote and you will realise they are ramblings that should not be given the credence of serious thought.
They’re not ramblings, just an alternative line of thought. You can agree or disagree but at least have respect for other people’s opinions.
And drop all the pseudo-intellectual vocabulary’. Either learn to have respect for people’s opinions or don’t ask for them. Idiot.
And I’m not being funny but there’s no way you know more about mental illness than I do so shut your face yeah. Just because something sounds strange to you doesn’t mean it’s automatically nonsense.
he has self diagnosed himself from when he was five years of age? how?
someone is saying he thinks hes autistic [autism requires medical diagnosis, and is characterized by impaired communication and social skills]
then that he has an ever present "inner ocd voice" - do you know what OCD is? obssessive compulsive disorder. like a person going downstairs 20 times to check if he has locked the door.
then he says he's bipolar that means hes manic depressive. sometimes he's high , sometimes he's slow then he claims chronic depression which means hes always low
he claims he's suicidal but is afraid it will be painful [when there are sleeping pills that can be bought from any roadside chemist] he says he has ADHD [A chronic condition including attention difficulty, hyperactivity and impulsiveness]
breaking it down like this, it is clear this is just another ediat troll
how hard is that? what was the op expecting to find on nairaland, in its present condition? if this was nairaland of five years ago, he would have met more people who would have shut him down immediately.
kullozone: Atleast, you "concentrated" to explain your condition... And I also counted 2 "lols", which means you're capable of laughing too, not just anger alone.
No wonder you always have nothing to contribute, only posting laughing emoji up and down nairaland.
Because Nairaland is mostly peopled by trolls and nitwits who do not understand the basic courtesy of not butting into discussions not directed at them.
Try something new ,go out often, set new goals, socialize ,party, get out if your comfort zone, try not to be alone too often seek therapy and use Anti Psychotics
LancelLogan: I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...
My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).
I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...
Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...
What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...
Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...
Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...
I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...
I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...
Thanks...
Op your issues they learn work for my own dey. Have you been diagnosed? If not, go to UPTH neuropsychiatric ward on tuesday or friday. Take care.
DianaJ: Nawa ooo bros Satan carry sit,sit well for ur life its only God that can help u,accept him as ur lord and personal saviour he will do all things he will break all breakables in your life,u will be made new like a new born seriously take my advise and make d devil a lair
Sorry to climb up your post darling, but scroll up to @ kullozone's post and see how to be there for someone who is troubled ...you called God's name and all that but even with that, I still dislike your post very much
Sometimes it is best to say a silent prayer and not just "talk"
Self Diagnosed... Maybe i don't have all that... i'll check but i don't know any psychitrist in PHC...
Thank you...
in UNIPORT TEACHING HOSPITAL(UPTH) there is a neuropsychiatric; there are more than 8 psychiatric doctors and psychologists there. They work on Tuesdays and fridays. Just try to go early 8+am
Self Diagnosed... Maybe i don't have all that... i'll check but i don't know any psychitrist in PHC...
Thank you...
in UNIPORT TEACHING HOSPITAL(UPTH) there is a neuropsychiatric clinic; there are more than 8 psychiatric doctors and psychologists there. They work on Tuesdays and fridays. Just try to go early 8+am
LancelLogan: I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...
My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).
I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...
Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...
What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...
Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...
Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...
I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...
I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...
Thanks...
I symphathize with you.But, sympathy is not enough.The more you delay seeking treatment, the worse things will get.You'll become more dysfunctional at home, school/work, relationships etc.My advice for you is to seek medical attention soonest you can.Go see a general practitioner in a good hospital.Explain your symptoms.From there they will give you a referral to see a psychiatrist and a therapist as well.Please please, don't procrastinate.It's a very serious issue at hand and it needs to be handled with all the seriousness it deserves.It would be good to read from you after sometime letting us know that you got help.
Try some antidepressant medicine. They work wonders. Drugs like Paxil (Paroxetine or Seroxat), Zoloft and Prozac are good examples. Additionally, you could visit a psychiatrist for an examination.
