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InEvitable0000:
I just can't take it anymore, I keep living everyday telling myself it will roll away but it keeps getting worse.
I have never felt so much depressed in my life before, it has eaten me up too deep to the point of giving me a blank soul but I'm on the edge now and no options.

I just felt like I should spend my last moments and final words here with my precious friends on nairaland before I leave.
I don't wanna be a burden to anyone anymore, I just wish there are people who feel the pain I feel but it seems that ain't possible.

It breaks even more when the people you trust, people you call family, people you once helped, people you call true friends, people you always heed to when they beckon on you but those same people become the ones who makes you more depressed, nobody to help out.

I just want to leave the world for them and I don't want anyone of them to cry in my funeral cos their tears are not worth it.

My landlord is coming to pack me out tomorrow but I told him not to bother that I would leave on my own.

If there is anything that could hold you back what could it be?

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stanliwise:
If there is anything that could hold you back what could it be?

Money. What else?

Op, nor de may me laff. Oo, na now your depression start!! Me that has been living comfortably with depression since January. Depression is now a lifestyle in Nigeria o. Welcome to the school of depression, come, let me show u around

there will be a bigger hell waiting for you if you end your life

Barbiturate:
Can I send mine?

I don’t have access to this email.
What’s up?

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Kestolove:
what do I know every Mallam with him kettle, since u have decided already safe suicide mission. tell fela that burna boy won grammy

.... please what’s a female weyre called ?

Please ooo...
Is depression and hunger interrelated...?
If so I’m seriously heavily stuporly depressed...

Don't give in to those thoughts. Things will get better for you, IJN. Amen.

InEvitable0000:
Locked up in my room right now and thinking of the after life.

I can't imagine how the after life looks like

Hey buddy, hold on, you are not alone.

Yea, i'm in a similer shit as yours, exact same feeling of rejection, dejection and hopelessness (yes, exact suicidal thought, lol).

But it's nothing, you are meant to be happy and you only live once.

Just give back to the world, what it refuses you, and be positive.

Why don't you try praying. Just lock ur self praying for as long as peace and joy overwhelms ur soul. It is going to be just fyn
Suicide is terrible and selfish. you will so mich taears and pain to ohers cause tears, sorry

I was in same spot as you right now.
I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even breath cause my heart ponds and hots like fire. Food had no tast in my mouth. Life became so meaningless to me. I came to nairaland and made a post about it. you can check my profile to see the tread a wrote that period.
the last point was when I locked myself up in my shop, was about ending it.

I lost hope in humanity, i just cried to God with all of my heart. i deared him that He has never failed anyone before, that i my case proves it wrong. But my dear God found me at that spot.

I didn't know what really happened, I didn't end it that very moment. But from that Day God has been faithful.

First bro, u need to understand that you are the only one that owes you your happiness.
You are the only one that can help yourself.
Thirdly you need to understand one very important thing. Every adversity comes with a seed of success in it.

This simply means, this time for you to look deep inside of you and bring out another you, a stronger you, a better u.

I wish I can talk to you more, but bro, just get that thought off your head.

You are better than this, you are stronger than this. Don't you give up, don't you dea give up on you. You hear me?
Am telling you right now to get up from that pitty party you are right now and go take a cool shawer.

Wait for that landlord to come throw you out but I tell you bro, that's gonna be the best thing that's gonna happen to you cause that's gonna be the beginning of your testimony.

I love you bro, I really do. From the dept of my heart . I love you and God loves you even more


Bro I survived, you too can

Kestolove:
what do I know every Mallam with him kettle, since u have decided already safe suicide mission. tell fela that burna boy won grammy

not fair at all

ko neseri!!

InEvitable0000:
I was sacked from my peaceful job just because I was honest.
Should I go against my principles just for dishonest riches?

A good name is better than riches...(that's my motto and my daily slogan)

Just returned from the police station yesterday for something I didn't commit. I was only trying to help and now my help has brought me this.

Why must the world be like this when it can be a better place?

BRO GOD IS ABOUT TO WEAR U A CROWN BUT B4 THAT U MUST KNEEL. IF U KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS THEN U R A MAN. REMEMBER AFTER DARKNESS COMES LIGHT AND THERE IS ALWAYS PITCH BLACK NIGHT JUST B4 DAWN. PPL R SUCKERS. THEY WILL MAKE U BLEED THAT'S Y UR MAKER SHOULD ALWAYS COME FIRST.

HAVE HOPE. BABA JUST OPEN UR MOUTH AND TELL ANYONE AROUND U UR PROBLEM AND U MIGHT BE HELPED.

NO GO KILL URSEF OO. U GO BLOW SOON BRO AS LONG AS U NO COMMIT.

JUST REMEMBER TO DROP THE TESTIMONY HERE.

InEvitable0000:
Thanks a lot for the words..

Thank God u heard dis advice, check ur story and his story and then you counter balance . If u kill urself ah swear i go vex 4u. 08032120217 Call dat num if u are still alive 2moro make i talk 2u.

InEvitable0000:
Okay thanks... Call me on 0 - 7 - 0 - 4 - 1 - 1 - 9 - 1 7 - 9 - 0

Just seeing this now. Will reach out

InEvitable0000:
Thanks a lot for the words bro.

If you're still here reach out to @citizens_gavel on Twitter they may be able to help get you justice
Money back, those who played a role in the ish in prison

Don't think of suicide, always remember your family especially your mom. Kindly look for something good to do. You just said this but you didn't give any insight on the kind of life you live. Are you a smoker, drug addict, cheat, fraudster, gambler? These things can ruin someone's life.

Live a good life and worry less. Surround yourself with good people that have good energy. You've not suffered, you should be less than 30 and you already wanna end your life?

Always remember that Kentucky fried chicken (KFC) was a billionaire at 70 after years in abject poverty.

Bankerboy:
Thank God u heard dis advice, check ur story and his story and then you counter balance . If u kill urself ah swear i go vex 4u. 08032120217 Call dat num if u are still alive 2moro make i talk 2u.

Okay.

ProfAmaben:
Don't think of suicide, always remember your family especially your mom. Kindly look for something good to do. You just said this but you didn't give any insight on the kind of life you live. Are you a smoker, drug addict, cheat, fraudster, gambler? These things can ruin someone's life.

Live a good life and worry less. Surround yourself with good people that have good energy. You've not suffered, you should be less than 30 and you already wanna end your life?

Always remember that Kentucky fried chicken (KFC) was a billionaire at 70 after years in abject poverty.

I never do dishonest things. I worked in a tech company before I was fired for being honest.

Bankerboy:
Thank God u heard dis advice, check ur story and his story and then you counter balance . If u kill urself ah swear i go vex 4u. 08032120217 Call dat num if u are still alive 2moro make i talk 2u.

Okay.

nniero11:
BRO GOD IS ABOUT TO WEAR U A CROWN BUT B4 THAT U MUST KNEEL. IF U KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS THEN U R A MAN. REMEMBER AFTER DARKNESS COMES LIGHT AND THERE IS ALWAYS PITCH BLACK NIGHT JUST B4 DAWN. PPL R SUCKERS. THEY WILL MAKE U BLEED THAT'S Y UR MAKER SHOULD ALWAYS COME FIRST.

HAVE HOPE. BABA JUST OPEN UR MOUTH AND TELL ANYONE AROUND U UR PROBLEM AND U MIGHT BE HELPED.

NO GO KILL URSEF OO. U GO BLOW SOON BRO AS LONG AS U NO COMMIT.

JUST REMEMBER TO DROP THE TESTIMONY HERE.

No one around me cares, you guys are the only ones who cares.

Thanks for the words...Still holding on.

mathscrusader:
I was in same spot as you right now.
I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even breath cause my heart ponds and hots like fire. Food had no tast in my mouth. Life became so meaningless to me. I came to nairaland and made a post about it. you can check my profile to see the tread a wrote that period.
the last point was when I locked myself up in my shop, was about ending it.

I lost hope in humanity, i just cried to God with all of my heart. i deared him that He has never failed anyone before, that i my case proves it wrong. But my dear God found me at that spot.

I didn't know what really happened, I didn't end it that very moment. But from that Day God has been faithful.

First bro, u need to understand that you are the only one that owes you your happiness.
You are the only one that can help yourself.
Thirdly you need to understand one very important thing. Every adversity comes with a seed of success in it.

This simply means, this time for you to look deep inside of you and bring out another you, a stronger you, a better u.

I wish I can talk to you more, but bro, just get that thought off your head.

You are better than this, you are stronger than this. Don't you give up, don't you dea give up on you. You hear me?
Am telling you right now to get up from that pitty party you are right now and go take a cool shawer.

Wait for that landlord to come throw you out but I tell you bro, that's gonna be the best thing that's gonna happen to you cause that's gonna be the beginning of your testimony.

I love you bro, I really do. From the dept of my heart . I love you and God loves you even more


Bro I survived, you too can

I understand you bro and I wish for the grace to go through this stage.

As for my landlord, I have concluded anything that wants to happen should happen. Just hoping for God's intervention.

stanliwise:
If there is anything that could hold you back what could it be?

Hope.

mrdharkchild:

Op, nor de may me laff. Oo, na now your depression start!! Me that has been living comfortably with depression since January. Depression is now a lifestyle in Nigeria o. Welcome to the school of depression, come, let me show u around

I'm not sure you really understand what depression is.

Can you ever be depressed and live comfortably?

aroundtheearth:
Don't give in to those thoughts. Things will get better for you, IJN. Amen.

Amen.

InEvitable0000:
Hope.

Describe hope in your situation

ipica:
Why don't you try praying. Just lock ur self praying for as long as peace and joy overwhelms ur soul. It is going to be just fyn
Suicide is terrible and selfish. you will so mich taears and pain to ohers cause tears, sorry

That is the issue I can't understand. The problems seem to get worse whenever I try praying, studying and turning to God.

I do pray usually but during this period, the more I pray and study the Bible, the more it increases.

I'm just tired and confused. Don't know what to do but trying to hold on.

Still locked up in my room since yesterday.

stanliwise:
Describe hope in your situation

The faith that a solution can come in my situation without knowing when, how or where.

InEvitable0000:
The faith that a solution can come in my situation without knowing when, how or where.

so what gives the impression it ain’t close. Or is there anyway you’re tracking it?

stanliwise:
so what gives the impression it ain’t close. Or is there anyway you’re tracking it?

It can be close or far, only God knows when but that faith keeps dwindling down gently until it gets to a stage where the faith is completely gone � and then there is no hope.