what u just told us is absurd, you are a weakling and a coward, you dont have an ideal about life and success.
See, peole that have made it in the past passed through worse situation in there road to success. The businessmen you see today might have been a job seeker in the past, but today they are employer of labour. you where created for a reason, not to die but to occuy till Jesus comes.
finally, if you take your life, you died for nothing,and carry a curse for eternity in hell.